A letter to Home (and 88)

[SunRise]

well this nexus fits the part of a "home" better than any other community I've been a piece of, aside from my mother and father, and I feel I owe Y'all a little letter of gratitude/ some of my opinions.:roll:

a recent quote from 88:

I'm not sure if you're mourning a previous life - before you took the red pill, so to speak - but there is a kind of 'us against them' thing going on here, and you make the assumption that all of us here share this view. Respectfully, I don't share this view. I don't have anything against people who don't partake of spice. I don't think less of them, or think I have some kind of special knowledge that renders them stupid. It has given me a new perspective, and a new awareness, and that was what I was looking for; what I needed to help me move out of the place of stuckness I was in. But I'm not at war with so-called 'straights'. Spice is something I'm exploring - carefully - and it doesn't render anyone else around me a lesser person. If I did think this, it would be imo, evidence that perhaps I'm edging toward a misguided paranoid delusion.

88 I love you brother! Your posts and avatar(s) have always stood out in my explorations of the Nexus, I feel a synergy with you even though most "normals" would agree our connection is only Pixel related. (is 88 a piece of your birthday perhaps? it is mine!)

I am in total aggreeance with your post. why must we bring this duality into our lives?!?!?!?!?!?!?1:x

Today I had the most amazing experience with a co-worker- a beautiful "normal soul", totally straight and a Lover of Jesus, VERYYYY far from my own perspective, or so I thought. She confided in me that she has always been attracted to me in a plutonic way and enjoys my company(she knows alot about me, I talk to her often about lots of things, and she NEVER has made me feel crazy, quite the opposite!!!). But the other night she said she was thinking about why she liked me at all, because I am a drug user and am not religious, and am not like anything like her friends...and do you know what she came up with? This girl, this crazy, beautiful, brilliant point of consciousness decided that I was GOOD PERSON. haha how simple! we talked for a long while about my motivations for psychedelic exploration, and decided upon ego-death as my main reason to ingest chemicals. and do you know what she says????? she laughs at me and plays with my hair and says " you use drugs for the same reason I Love Jesus!, to get rid of all this GARBAGE we carry around" This girl knows whats up!!! I am so jealous of her "normalness" I could just kiss her!

I feel our communty is suffering right now because we don't love eachother like this girl loves Jesus. Please dont be offended by all this Christianity, I am not condoning it at all!!! I ALSO DON'T CONDONE DRUG USE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:surprised this is a HARD ASS ROAD we have chosen, and many will fall from the path. PLEASE HAVE LOVE IN YOUR HEARTS FOR ALL OF CREATION. even those that ahem "dont do drugs" why narrow your experience?!

I also encourage those of you who dont have anyone to talk to regarding your lifes journey and your own unique path to FIND THOSE PEOPLE!!! I would not be going this alone, I draw on support from those in my cohort every second of everyday. Even a Space Cowboy needs a shoulder to cry on.:roll:

Much Love, Much Understanding!
I reach out and touch every one of you, enjoy the chills:wink:
Happy Travels

SunRise

 

[ms_manic_minxx]

So well said, Sunrise, thank you.

A friend of a friend (ha, no, really) always says, "Do it for yourself, and share it with the world." All the lessons, the craziness and adventures... there are so many ways to share the gift, even if it means letting the molecule work THROUGH your hands.

It doesn't make sense to spend so much time and effort extracting, to seek experiences of incredible love, and then not share that love with everyone else...

Sometimes it can be alienating, and it's a shame, the ways we are forced into hiding the deepest and most sacred parts of ourselves, especially when you just want to let them shine.

But it's more important to focus on the commonalities... we are all made of elves. 8)

 

[88]

Sunrise - big love to you too, brother!

I think it's great you have someone 'non-hyperspatial' that you can relate to. Very insightful she is too - "to get rid of all this GARBAGE we carry around" - that's the one, isn't it?!

Thanks for sharing this.

... we are all made of elves. 8)

LOVE this!!!!!

 

[cellux]

she laughs at me and plays with my hair and says " you use drugs for the same reason I Love Jesus!, to get rid of all this GARBAGE we carry around" This girl knows whats up!!!

I heard the same thing from my Christian friends... "Well, if you wanna die, then you couldn't find a better solution than Jesus Christ... Total, guaranteed, irreversible ego destruction."

 

[DMTripper]

..... But the other night she said she was thinking about why she liked me at all, because I am a drug user and am not religious, and am not like anything like her friends...and do you know what she came up with? This girl, this crazy, beautiful, brilliant point of consciousness decided that I was GOOD PERSON.

That has been the only thing that matters to me for a looong time. I don't care who people are or what they're believes are as long as they are good people. Just decent honest good people. That's the kind of people I like to hang around with. And fortunately most regular normal people are good people. At least where I come from.
I don't care if you're a king or you have a PhD in whatever. If you treat others like shit, or talk about others like shit, I look at you like shit. But some people choose to be shit and that's none of my business.

 

[stevowitz]

I'm a believer of Jesus and a drug user...both a VERY good teachers of Ego-Death.

It makes me feel so good to see some other Christians actually out there LOVING people instead of judging.

alot of my friends are not religious, but that's just the kind of people I'm attracted to... Christianity tends to change MOST people in wierd/messed up ways...but there's a few of us "radicals" out there...still searching for that one truth, just gotta spot em