Al-jabr
Rising Star
4 years now from my first use, an inhalation of freebase nn-dmt, without my consent, but in a small enough dose, to where I might have missed it if the scenario had played out differently. In my basement taking dabs of hash oil, my friend adds a speck to my dab, after months of trying to convince me to try it myself. While I was being stubborn, I thank him tremendously for being so bold. I frown upon dosing someone with a full on blast-off, but a speck, smaller than most would consider a microdose, helped change me for the better.
Instantly after the dab a clarity I never had felt before struck me. I felt as if a veil had been lifted. As if there was an observer sitting there in null until this point and this observer was ready to start conducting it's plan. I instantly felt a destiny and calling to research, exploration, technological development, and sustainability.
For the following weeks my friends noticed and mentioned massive shifts in my personality, but nothing of a negative connotation. The nickname einstein became a norm. It got to the point no one could point out anything in our immediate environment that I hadn't already taken notice to, or any idea theorized. It was as if the speck had triggered an awareness, a frames per second of conscious attentiveness that seemed unfathomable. I remember thinking, "what if I could show who I was a a month ago, who I am now?" and I remember feeling a bliss knowing that the old me was long gone. A shattered past self that no longer served to my current agenda.
The awareness led to an anxiety, although I hadn't known at the time the two were inextricably linked. I begged the mind for the anxiety to relax, for my nerves to calm. After a week of wishing, my wish came true, although so did most of that heightened state of awareness. I would say I wish for it back, but if it came back, I wonder how my sanity would be able to cope.
Years later now I have one goal, to establish direct communication between the conscious and the subconscious mind, and to manipulate psychological programming, in ways beneficial to my end goal. I'm currently going to college for a dual major in neuroengineering and human a&p, with a minor in computer science. I will hopefully attend Stanford or MIT after accomplishing a transfer degree, and plan to work for someone like DARPA who is making the most headway in "bridging the bio-electronic divide". I look to help virtualize our existence in something I call SAAIHMIP, Self Aware Artificially Intelligent Hive Mind Information Processor. A server like hive of individual consciousnesses, connected to a collective conscious. Nanobots will conduct research, exploration, and technological development and upload all info to the hive mind. If you wish to interact with the physically manifest, one may make use of holograms or nanotechnology depending on whether their needs suit.
I know that sounds far fetched but brain computer interfaces(BCI) is a developing career field right now, and as computer parts increase in functionality, so does our capabilities in a field like this.
I have a lot I'll be wanting to bring to this forum, and the more I learn how things are structured, the more formal my posts will become. Glad to finally be a part of this great community
In Lak'ech Ala K'in
P.S. The name Al-Jabr, is the root term for Algebra. It means a "reunion of broken parts to make whole again". I look at it both mathematically, and philosophically. I believe we are all part of one unity, and that our separation is an illusion of sorts (an enjoyable illusion albeit, I enjoy being here) and also I believe mathematics, and numbers to be immutable, outside of existence. So Al-Jabr has become a term that means much to me. It surfaces a feeling remnant to the unity provided by a dab of the space stuff.
Instantly after the dab a clarity I never had felt before struck me. I felt as if a veil had been lifted. As if there was an observer sitting there in null until this point and this observer was ready to start conducting it's plan. I instantly felt a destiny and calling to research, exploration, technological development, and sustainability.
For the following weeks my friends noticed and mentioned massive shifts in my personality, but nothing of a negative connotation. The nickname einstein became a norm. It got to the point no one could point out anything in our immediate environment that I hadn't already taken notice to, or any idea theorized. It was as if the speck had triggered an awareness, a frames per second of conscious attentiveness that seemed unfathomable. I remember thinking, "what if I could show who I was a a month ago, who I am now?" and I remember feeling a bliss knowing that the old me was long gone. A shattered past self that no longer served to my current agenda.
The awareness led to an anxiety, although I hadn't known at the time the two were inextricably linked. I begged the mind for the anxiety to relax, for my nerves to calm. After a week of wishing, my wish came true, although so did most of that heightened state of awareness. I would say I wish for it back, but if it came back, I wonder how my sanity would be able to cope.
Years later now I have one goal, to establish direct communication between the conscious and the subconscious mind, and to manipulate psychological programming, in ways beneficial to my end goal. I'm currently going to college for a dual major in neuroengineering and human a&p, with a minor in computer science. I will hopefully attend Stanford or MIT after accomplishing a transfer degree, and plan to work for someone like DARPA who is making the most headway in "bridging the bio-electronic divide". I look to help virtualize our existence in something I call SAAIHMIP, Self Aware Artificially Intelligent Hive Mind Information Processor. A server like hive of individual consciousnesses, connected to a collective conscious. Nanobots will conduct research, exploration, and technological development and upload all info to the hive mind. If you wish to interact with the physically manifest, one may make use of holograms or nanotechnology depending on whether their needs suit.
I know that sounds far fetched but brain computer interfaces(BCI) is a developing career field right now, and as computer parts increase in functionality, so does our capabilities in a field like this.
I have a lot I'll be wanting to bring to this forum, and the more I learn how things are structured, the more formal my posts will become. Glad to finally be a part of this great community
In Lak'ech Ala K'in
P.S. The name Al-Jabr, is the root term for Algebra. It means a "reunion of broken parts to make whole again". I look at it both mathematically, and philosophically. I believe we are all part of one unity, and that our separation is an illusion of sorts (an enjoyable illusion albeit, I enjoy being here) and also I believe mathematics, and numbers to be immutable, outside of existence. So Al-Jabr has become a term that means much to me. It surfaces a feeling remnant to the unity provided by a dab of the space stuff.
