From the 12 December 2010
What Follows is a report of an evening that was pivotal for me in many ways.
I realized i had merely been plagued by fear up until now.
Until this point i had been having entheogenic experiences with spice, visions, travelling, etc...
Now things have change - Things have become real.
I feel i have found myself in a way i never even thought possible before.
My full self.
Hyperspace is now another state of being for me
In comfort i can navigte - aware of the rules and what i am to do
Some Methylone was consumed - when the time was right the changa came out.
NR, Aegle and myself were sitting around the fireplace - aegle on the couch and NR and myself sitting in meditative
positions on pillows.
I felt the calling and went to the freezer to get my "Happy Days!" changa Acorn (my acorn shaped small wooden container
for spice - charged with magnetite, and quarts.)
I loaded up a bowl and took 2 nice slow pulls over separated 30-40 seconds apart.
I found myself in a dark cloud, silent completely - a few months ago this scene would have caused me fear but from
from my previous work iv managed to get rid of most of the fear that i am concious of.
The methylone helped at this stage too - it makes one feel as if they could never imagine feeling bad
Out of the darkness emerged a pure black entity with blue crystal spots on his face.
The entity had sensed that i had realized that i would usually fear this scene - and gave me time to sort out my thoughts
when i was ready - he approached me
He pushed a white rectangle into my forehead - which i realized a lot of entities do - perhaps its a block - to provide communicaiton
with the entity for that timeframe - a key to the comms of that cloud.
The entity then offered me a half sphere of citrine and indicated that i should plug it into my third eye.
I put it there and the entity pushed it in - to make it stay in position
I felt my tongue tip touch the top of my mouth and i felt my eyes focus on my crown chakra
Suddenly perception changed - i was seeing - differently.
I thanked the entity for what he had done for me - and i said goodbye - he was amused by my formalities but humoured me anyway.
The scene was so permitting and i felt absorbant still so i smoked again.
I was back in another world - clear as day - lobes of reactive energy grass around my legs.
I found a bunch of my stuff from a past life - my bow, armour, my armoured eagle(it recognised me before i recognised it),
a charm bracelet full of charms made from bone, incredible metals and leather.
One charm is an energy charm that looks not of this world - it glows blue.
each charm was for and animal and each had a sound or icaro.
i learned an icaro "grass breathing"
i was there as i am here, wandering - doing my thing
I remember loads of information - that i shouldnt somehow - things i have no reference for
Spice is now something different, i recall my previous lives
Hyperspace is so much clearer - iv worked here extensively before this life.
I found posessions from my old lifes
I suddenly know many icaros - or rather i suddenly remember them again.
I suddenly have many power animals that know me on a deep level and are total allies
I have all this information or knwledge that i have no reasonable explanation for or sources or refs for
I just know it as i knew it long ago and always have, i just didnt remember, its like i woke up.
NR decided to join in
He smoked a bowl and suddenly looked a bit weird.
He was not looking normal at all - his entire face changed.
He started thrashing around a bit - looking as if he was being moved by a force external to himself.
Much like a puppet.
The spice wore off - but he didnt come back to earth - for 20 mins i tried to ground him - nothing worked.
I decided he needed to smoke spice again and had to basically hold the pipe to his lips and light it for him as he was useless.
He went in and i decided to go in same time - so i smoked right after.
As it started its majic i saw his face shift back to usual and he said - all is well.
My changa came on oddly - i felt major pressure and it was dead silent and dark.
I felt something in my chest - i thought perhaps i need to cough or something.
I felt like there were some kind of honey ladels being stirred around in my chest and stomach
I put my hand on my chest and felt whatever it was - Move !
Something the size of a baseball or rat was inside of me - moving around my midsection - totally visible to NR and Aegle
It felt as if i needed to contain it in my midsection as it moved around - doing repairs or something, this was an operation of sorts.
While it was happening i felt lighter and lighter - then suddenly it was gone.
I felt as if i had had a dna upgrade, i was stronger and lighter.
NR had also been rewired
Before this evenin i didnt beleve any of this was possible - on this physical level.
NR and myself find ourselves in the same cloud often - when smoking at the same time
So much is proving these realms as external to me - before i thought it was all a reflection of myself.(yeah same thing i know - but
the different viewpoint changes alot - i was halting my own growth for fear based reasons.)
I couldnt be happier with things
What Follows is a report of an evening that was pivotal for me in many ways.
I realized i had merely been plagued by fear up until now.
Until this point i had been having entheogenic experiences with spice, visions, travelling, etc...
Now things have change - Things have become real.
I feel i have found myself in a way i never even thought possible before.
My full self.
Hyperspace is now another state of being for me
In comfort i can navigte - aware of the rules and what i am to do
Some Methylone was consumed - when the time was right the changa came out.
NR, Aegle and myself were sitting around the fireplace - aegle on the couch and NR and myself sitting in meditative
positions on pillows.
I felt the calling and went to the freezer to get my "Happy Days!" changa Acorn (my acorn shaped small wooden container
for spice - charged with magnetite, and quarts.)
I loaded up a bowl and took 2 nice slow pulls over separated 30-40 seconds apart.
I found myself in a dark cloud, silent completely - a few months ago this scene would have caused me fear but from
from my previous work iv managed to get rid of most of the fear that i am concious of.
The methylone helped at this stage too - it makes one feel as if they could never imagine feeling bad
Out of the darkness emerged a pure black entity with blue crystal spots on his face.
The entity had sensed that i had realized that i would usually fear this scene - and gave me time to sort out my thoughts
when i was ready - he approached me
He pushed a white rectangle into my forehead - which i realized a lot of entities do - perhaps its a block - to provide communicaiton
with the entity for that timeframe - a key to the comms of that cloud.
The entity then offered me a half sphere of citrine and indicated that i should plug it into my third eye.
I put it there and the entity pushed it in - to make it stay in position
I felt my tongue tip touch the top of my mouth and i felt my eyes focus on my crown chakra
Suddenly perception changed - i was seeing - differently.
I thanked the entity for what he had done for me - and i said goodbye - he was amused by my formalities but humoured me anyway.
The scene was so permitting and i felt absorbant still so i smoked again.
I was back in another world - clear as day - lobes of reactive energy grass around my legs.
I found a bunch of my stuff from a past life - my bow, armour, my armoured eagle(it recognised me before i recognised it),
a charm bracelet full of charms made from bone, incredible metals and leather.
One charm is an energy charm that looks not of this world - it glows blue.
each charm was for and animal and each had a sound or icaro.
i learned an icaro "grass breathing"
i was there as i am here, wandering - doing my thing
I remember loads of information - that i shouldnt somehow - things i have no reference for
Spice is now something different, i recall my previous lives
Hyperspace is so much clearer - iv worked here extensively before this life.
I found posessions from my old lifes
I suddenly know many icaros - or rather i suddenly remember them again.
I suddenly have many power animals that know me on a deep level and are total allies
I have all this information or knwledge that i have no reasonable explanation for or sources or refs for
I just know it as i knew it long ago and always have, i just didnt remember, its like i woke up.
NR decided to join in
He smoked a bowl and suddenly looked a bit weird.
He was not looking normal at all - his entire face changed.
He started thrashing around a bit - looking as if he was being moved by a force external to himself.
Much like a puppet.
The spice wore off - but he didnt come back to earth - for 20 mins i tried to ground him - nothing worked.
I decided he needed to smoke spice again and had to basically hold the pipe to his lips and light it for him as he was useless.
He went in and i decided to go in same time - so i smoked right after.
As it started its majic i saw his face shift back to usual and he said - all is well.
My changa came on oddly - i felt major pressure and it was dead silent and dark.
I felt something in my chest - i thought perhaps i need to cough or something.
I felt like there were some kind of honey ladels being stirred around in my chest and stomach
I put my hand on my chest and felt whatever it was - Move !
Something the size of a baseball or rat was inside of me - moving around my midsection - totally visible to NR and Aegle
It felt as if i needed to contain it in my midsection as it moved around - doing repairs or something, this was an operation of sorts.
While it was happening i felt lighter and lighter - then suddenly it was gone.
I felt as if i had had a dna upgrade, i was stronger and lighter.
NR had also been rewired
Before this evenin i didnt beleve any of this was possible - on this physical level.
NR and myself find ourselves in the same cloud often - when smoking at the same time
So much is proving these realms as external to me - before i thought it was all a reflection of myself.(yeah same thing i know - but
the different viewpoint changes alot - i was halting my own growth for fear based reasons.)
I couldnt be happier with things
