JerrySeinfeld
Rising Star
Hey everyone. Glad to be in a place with like minded individuals. Here's my trajectory in to all of this:
I had maybe 4 or 5 ignorant experiences with mushrooms as a teenager and in to my early 20s. The typical, mild hallucinations, half in half out, uncomfortable experiences with the exception of one or two. I didnt really like the "grip" it would induce on me.
Well fast forward to 2016 and I was hit by a driver while leaving the gym on my motorcycle. I was given Ketamine during the initial ER operation. It really threw me though a loop because I felt like I had arrived to what was the real reality and I was completely happy feeling like I was back to somewhere I knew I was really meant to exist, or had existed many times before. I wont go in to the details, but its been 2 years of the hardest healing journey. Mentally and physically. But, not even once when I was laying on the ground looking at my bones, did I wish it didnt happen. Being tested to the extreme is ok with me.
Through all of this, i began researching and seeking alternative healing methods. I came upon Ayahuasca, and of course, subsequently DMT.
Having sworn off drugs for the most part, I was apprehensive. But after getting nearly 7g of N,N (i wanted to stock up to learn to navigate and heal), I felt that if I could handle the things I already had been through, I could withstand 5-10 minutes even if it was a nightmare.
I spent a few days eating right (pretty easy since im a fitness professional) and being mindful. Taking care of myself, my space, and other people. I wanted to make sure I was ok with myself so that I would be able to handle any negative thoughts and take them with a grain a salt, knowing deep down that whatever I was projecting, was probably minor.
I had my fiance around but largely wanted to do it on my own since I didnt want outside influence of a pair of eyes grilling me. I layed in the hammock under our two trees and took a very large hit from my bong.
After laying back and focusing on my breathing, I felt everything melt and morph away. I wouldnt consider it a breakthrough experience, but it was strong enough. I immediately felt like trees communicated "He's finally here, lets get to work." And in some abstract way I felt like I was being beamed with energy and healing. It was pretty cathartic and what I was hoping for.
I waited a couple hours and decided to try again, going for a larger dose and help it as long as possible. I also am not sure I had a full breakthrough the second time, but I remember getting to the same point as the first. I felt like I was rocketing toward a point, but slowed down and felt like I didnt fully reach the destination. But after a small amount of time, I felt like I was propelled further and thought "ohhh here we go!" I felt like I was met with an entity that was again beaming me. But I was so disoriented that we werent lining up. Like if someone was trying to shine a flashlight on your face and you kept looking every other way to avoid it. I also felt like this entity was saying "look, hey, look here" "its ok, just look here" and then I finally did, and I was being directly blasted with symbols, healing, and information that sort of looked like Aztec writing or symbols. It was pretty glorious.
At one point my eyes drifted open, and everything around me was so fractal like looking through a broken mirror that the entity said "no dont do that." Like in the Matrix if you unplug while still being inside. So I closed my eyes again and continued receiving whatever it was that was being given.
Its been a couple weeks since then and it, of course, is so much to think about. Yesterday, I felt confident enough to do 3.5 grams of mushrooms (liquid psilocybin extract). It was great because you dont get nauseas from your body dealing with the plant matter/spores. Its a smooth come up. I felt like it was a first step on a journey that I would need to continue. I remember thinking I felt like I needed to repartition myself. That I had a lot of reorganizing to do. The trip wasnt 100% positive but after the accident, I knew to let in and confront whatever I was feeling instead of resisting it. It didnt get me down or make it bad, just felt like a step that had to be accepted and worked on.
Im really relieved that I have been able to take these journeys and know that its really ok if respected and done right. For years I was bummed that I felt like it was no good for me.
My next step is to make Changa. I have the freebase, and powdered B Caapi, as well as powdered MHRB. If I can throw a question at the end of this, just given the freebase and powdered Caapi, whats the easiest and most straight forward way to make Changa? Ive seen so many different things on it, im just not sure how to approach.
Thanks for reading!
J S
I had maybe 4 or 5 ignorant experiences with mushrooms as a teenager and in to my early 20s. The typical, mild hallucinations, half in half out, uncomfortable experiences with the exception of one or two. I didnt really like the "grip" it would induce on me.
Well fast forward to 2016 and I was hit by a driver while leaving the gym on my motorcycle. I was given Ketamine during the initial ER operation. It really threw me though a loop because I felt like I had arrived to what was the real reality and I was completely happy feeling like I was back to somewhere I knew I was really meant to exist, or had existed many times before. I wont go in to the details, but its been 2 years of the hardest healing journey. Mentally and physically. But, not even once when I was laying on the ground looking at my bones, did I wish it didnt happen. Being tested to the extreme is ok with me.
Through all of this, i began researching and seeking alternative healing methods. I came upon Ayahuasca, and of course, subsequently DMT.
Having sworn off drugs for the most part, I was apprehensive. But after getting nearly 7g of N,N (i wanted to stock up to learn to navigate and heal), I felt that if I could handle the things I already had been through, I could withstand 5-10 minutes even if it was a nightmare.
I spent a few days eating right (pretty easy since im a fitness professional) and being mindful. Taking care of myself, my space, and other people. I wanted to make sure I was ok with myself so that I would be able to handle any negative thoughts and take them with a grain a salt, knowing deep down that whatever I was projecting, was probably minor.
I had my fiance around but largely wanted to do it on my own since I didnt want outside influence of a pair of eyes grilling me. I layed in the hammock under our two trees and took a very large hit from my bong.
After laying back and focusing on my breathing, I felt everything melt and morph away. I wouldnt consider it a breakthrough experience, but it was strong enough. I immediately felt like trees communicated "He's finally here, lets get to work." And in some abstract way I felt like I was being beamed with energy and healing. It was pretty cathartic and what I was hoping for.
I waited a couple hours and decided to try again, going for a larger dose and help it as long as possible. I also am not sure I had a full breakthrough the second time, but I remember getting to the same point as the first. I felt like I was rocketing toward a point, but slowed down and felt like I didnt fully reach the destination. But after a small amount of time, I felt like I was propelled further and thought "ohhh here we go!" I felt like I was met with an entity that was again beaming me. But I was so disoriented that we werent lining up. Like if someone was trying to shine a flashlight on your face and you kept looking every other way to avoid it. I also felt like this entity was saying "look, hey, look here" "its ok, just look here" and then I finally did, and I was being directly blasted with symbols, healing, and information that sort of looked like Aztec writing or symbols. It was pretty glorious.
At one point my eyes drifted open, and everything around me was so fractal like looking through a broken mirror that the entity said "no dont do that." Like in the Matrix if you unplug while still being inside. So I closed my eyes again and continued receiving whatever it was that was being given.
Its been a couple weeks since then and it, of course, is so much to think about. Yesterday, I felt confident enough to do 3.5 grams of mushrooms (liquid psilocybin extract). It was great because you dont get nauseas from your body dealing with the plant matter/spores. Its a smooth come up. I felt like it was a first step on a journey that I would need to continue. I remember thinking I felt like I needed to repartition myself. That I had a lot of reorganizing to do. The trip wasnt 100% positive but after the accident, I knew to let in and confront whatever I was feeling instead of resisting it. It didnt get me down or make it bad, just felt like a step that had to be accepted and worked on.
Im really relieved that I have been able to take these journeys and know that its really ok if respected and done right. For years I was bummed that I felt like it was no good for me.
My next step is to make Changa. I have the freebase, and powdered B Caapi, as well as powdered MHRB. If I can throw a question at the end of this, just given the freebase and powdered Caapi, whats the easiest and most straight forward way to make Changa? Ive seen so many different things on it, im just not sure how to approach.
Thanks for reading!
J S
