Any other daily travellers here?

[Qoniaq]

Morning birdsong on a low-medium dose of DMT is sublime. With that said, I'm a habitual night time enjoyer of DMT, generally in the voidspace of 0200-0330 or so.

sometimes it feels like the birds are waking me up gently so I can listen to them through DMT ears. it is glorious, as you say, sublime. you can almost take the notes apart in your mind, slow it down, analyze each little frequency! so glad you mentioned that! its all over my reports!!

 

[Qoniaq]

Just looking through these graphics they are great. Although as has been mentioned for me the experience starts during the initial breathhold which I usually try to hold as long as possible but at least for a count of 20. There is a distinct shift in consciousness observable that actually lets me know whether its going to be an intense journey or not, but yes this process continues during the outbreath for another 30 seconds or more. This is while on Harmalas which most say slows and draws out the comeup which is interesting.

You seem like someone who read Gamebooks as a kid. Just because your graphics remind me of some of these and its an uncommon medium nowadays. Of course we know that there are resonances of the psychedelic experience in fantasy and sci-fi, because these genres draw upon mythology and folklore which is itself rooted in the deep psyche and awareness of different planes of existence. Its just that commonly in the modern culture it gets relegated to this but we are experiencing resonances of these domains.

Your infographics remind me a lot of the Falcon series in particular that used to be among my favourites when young.

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yeah man! in my youth, RPGs were the video games. I GMed Warhammer, GURPS, TMNT, D&D, you name it. Vampires the masquerade, Warhammer 40k (i still have my armies in a box somewhere...heheh

 

[Qoniaq]

I understand and would agree concurrently with this. Be discerning with sharing too much, here or in everyday life. It partially goes from the sacred to the profane if you disclose too much.

Sharing a deeply held experience or insight was never something you would write on a noticeboard for a bunch of unknowns to read. You will of course be able to discuss with others who may have had similar experiences but whether its worth it for the negatives that often come with it is up to you. The book is the way to go which avoids some of these issues, and even that will be curated no doubt. Your interfacing with the divine is between and for, you and that realm.

I share likewise somewhat but the deepest most profound experiences are simply not for sharing, at least not on a public forum.



There is so much to this area yet to explore - particularly the relationship of psychedelics to naturally fostered alterted states like dreaming. This is pioneereing work and the fact you have such rigorous methodology for logging and analysis makes into a self study, its how this work can be done on basically an academic level and you are taking that approach to personal practice which is great.




My method is to drink oral brewed peganum harmala tea an hour before smoking...the trip is still brief but extended to about 40 mins. It easier to retain what you have and the character of it also changes, although I actually have very little experience with pure DMT by itself as this has always been the standard way of partaking for me, they are 'made for each other' and the rapidity of straight DMT is not my preferred method although you have acclimatised to it. I actually think it's much more accessible then you think and will fit very well with your approach particularly if you do for sessions when you have a little bit more time.




No, this makes full sense. From discussion with a few now it seems that 5-MeO-DMT touches the terrain of full Godhead experience or immersion in Emptiness and cessation of self. However while this may be a pinnacle crowning experience, it may actually be less useful on the path of meditative self development which is where other psychedelics come in.

In the meditation traditions they say "you need to develop your sense of self fully before you can transcend and let go of it" so this fits and prevents a potential spiritual bypassing tendency from developing by going straight to Godhead and neglecting the individual embodied self we dwell as most of the time.



Yup, I have several years worth of Enhanced Leaf and Peganum Harmala, although frequency of use for me is roughly weakly or fortnightly for these slightly longer trips along with a monthly strong acid trip. The leaf is harsher to smoke on the lungs but since its not so frequent its ok, and I personally never liked having large amounts of white powder lying around so leaf works in that regard.


Thanks for sharing some of this book material, looks great and will help some for sure.

Thanks for the awesome feedback. I get what you mean about sharing. However, I have felt...I don't know the word.. 'Calling' is not correct, it sounds woo woo and over spiritual, but....ok, Take some artists that get inspired by the spice, right? the Garces',the Incedegris', the Alex greys of the world. Maybe inspiration is more the word I am looking for. But they 'see' things there, right? And they have the artistic talent and presence of mind to then show us their vision. I feel a bit like that, but with zero artistic talent. What I have is an exeptional memory and discipline for record keeping. I have the impression (could just be my ego, I'm not placing a value judgement) that if I keep getting called in, and I keep getting the impression that what I am seeing, feeling, hearing, experiencing are not just meant for me, that I AM meant to share. -- I am reading this back and it sounds so egotistical, but it's not the vibe I get inside, I promise. -- I don't feel like any of the experiences I am having are meant to be kept secret. Each trip, I get insights I feel I am being told I should catalogue, record, keep as precise as I can. Maybe for posterity, maybe it's so my daughters one day will find them and learn a whole bunch about their dad they had no clue about. Maybe it's because I got my masters in Classics and history that I am so into record keeping, I truly don't know. Must be the museum curator in me....
What I can say, is if your trips and visions feel like they should be digested over long periods, held close to your heart, and kept to yourself, I totally get it. Do that! My buddy is like that. he shares with me, but that's about it. I do most of his journaling for him! ahha.
I was like that for decades. Kept it to myself.
Since then I have completed 2 integrator and facilitator courses with MAPS and a coaching course with Naturalistico (not nearly as involved as MAPS.), and I have become less shy about discussing. I have also been doing some work as a facilitator with some accredited therapists in my area who can prescribe Ketamine, and psylocybin. It has been eye-opening indeed, and I now see why diploma weilding psychiatrists are so important in the process. I was not ready for everything I saw in there. But nobody is ready to work with DMT yet in my clinical contacts. It will come one day. (NOTE: It pays tons!!! I highly suggest taking courses if it's something that titillates you! It may become my retirement plan, honestly) . It has shown me that the things we all see (And I include the Nexus travellers at large) are not as fringe as we think. There are enormous areas of overlap in our experiences that will only be indentified if we start noting, honestly, what we experience there. We need data. Lots of it, and not all from clinical settings. Not all from a McKenna-esque points of view either, and certainly not all ''As the molecule binds to the 5HT2a receptor, it causes a bla bla bla...'' either. Proper phenomenology. Real, honest reports. 1st person views of what actually happened. I have a lot of them, so I write them down.
The nexus makes it hard to actually meet up IRL, but if one day I could meet someone who does a harmala drink, I would love to try. I am open to all new experiences but prefer my 1st times with an experienced friend. (Keeping oneself curious is perhaps the greatest gifts psychedelics give us. Especially as we get older, and more blasé)
This is a public forum, I don't know you, you don't know me. We could both be completely full of it. I am aware of that. However, reading the responses here, I can't help but feel like maybe sharing this IS good. What if my posts and your gracious replies help someone here get through a difficult trip, and hard entry, or making sense of some of the weirdness the deemy world can present? Maybe it can make someone here fell like they are not alone in their desires, frequency, habits...you name it.
I see a real use in that. A strenght that comes from a community sharing what they lived. Let's be honest, how many people do you know IRL that are regular Deemers? I know .....1....yup. One single person. And he is my trip buddy and fellow chemist. I have initiated a dozen or so people over the years, and they were all pretty much one and done. 2 have come back and done it again, but I really onely know 1 person who is a regular. Given the fact that our community is not that numerous, public forums like this become one of our only meeting places. Discussion hubs. I feel like if you want to share, you really should. If you feel you are not meant to, then you definitely should not.
Soonish, I will choose a few trip reports to post, as they are written when I am done all dictation and cross-referencing, so you can see my format, record keeping and metrics.
In the meatime, here is the retirement certificate for last month's cart, X4P23C1. It was a fantastic cart for a 2nd and 3rd pull cart. As good as many 1st pull carts. It was a smaller 500mg cart made with only the 2nd and 3rd pulls of the 4th extract this year. X4-4th extract, P23-pulls 2 and 3, and C1-cart one of 2 (in this case pulls 2 and 3 mixed gave me 1.3gs. i put 500mg in C1 and put 700mg in C2, that was my buddy's cart) All carts share the same naming system for record keeping purposes. All that is missing from this particular report is the final empty cart weight, need to weigh it next visit to buddy's place. he has the scales. Probably this weekend.
It's Friday. May come back Monday with a full dose report...who knows.

 

[Voidmatrix]

I have been a daily/regular user for many many years. I've struggled with my frequency over the majority of that time. So, it's been an almost torturous near decade. While I've been shedding this issue slowly on my own, this thread is also very helpful, particularly in reprogramming things that were fed to me long ago.

Now I have a little time to share and explore more about my regular use.

The weirdest part is that I had had many many doubts about what I was doing despite continuing to do it (an instance in which I am thankful for my stubborness). In this way, DMT and harmalas shine a light on the shadow of my self-loathing. I am not cool with myself. This is evident to me by virtue of how the space seems to treat and respond to me. It/they regularly try to coax me deeper, for what feels like their desires as well as my own. But I have relegated myself to low dose for about 5 years or so. My goal is to not blow passed the content that exists at lower doses that we can obstensibly avoid, given a stiff enough dose. Tangentially, my intent is also to condition my system to handle varying depths with regularity. [Paused here to smoalk]
[back from smoalking]

I am a responsible person, to a fault. I am also neurotic and lose my self-reference. Without an external standard, I've had to fight to learn to just trust myself.

My orientation to my frequency and depth has shifted and has become more accepting since my DMTx experience in February. I have yet to fully delineate the experience, but you can see some details of it here. It is very much my medicine. I am also a guide, and I talk about this a little bit in that same thread, but in a recent ceremony, I made clear contact, that only had validation for me. This was without medicine. I am very much on a path with this medicine and I see that now, with less doubt and more acceptance. I have apparently come to the point where the point of smoalking is being, and smoalking is prayer.

That said, even at the low doses I tend to play with, things are only getting weirder. Halfway through many changa experience of late have included experiences of a redose without actually taking any extra medicine. The medicine is also holding on to me longer. This is a reflection of years of regular use.

I am only ramping up. I have tried to shed these chains and armor for a long time, and now that they are coming off, I want to love and honor myself and fully dive into that. While I tend to be a one and done type (not because that's what I want, but because my inhibitions are that strong), sometimes doing so throughout the day, I want to make more of a habit of sitting with the medicine for longer periods. It's breaking the habit of doing the bare minimum for myself. And I can look back on my frequent use as a standard for being okay and what I am doing being okay. I learn a lot, about myself, and about that which is external to me, by continuing on. I don't think I could turn back now even if I wanted to.

Burning the candle at both ends.

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[Qoniaq]

dude. thanks for chiming in!!
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[Qoniaq]

Now I have a little time to share and explore more about my regular use.

The weirdest part is that I had had many many doubts about what I was doing despite continuing to do it (an instance in which I am thankful for my stubborness). In this way, DMT and harmalas shine a light on the shadow of my self-loathing. I am not cool with myself. This is evident to me by virtue of how the space seems to treat and respond to me. It/they regularly try to coax me deeper, for what feels like their desires as well as my own. But I have relegated myself to low dose for about 5 years or so. My goal is to not blow passed the content that exists at lower doses that we can obstensibly avoid, given a stiff enough dose. Tangentially, my intent is also to condition my system to handle varying depths with regularity. [Paused here to smoalk]
[back from smoalking]

I am a responsible person, to a fault. I am also neurotic and lose my self-reference. Without an external standard, I've had to fight to learn to just trust myself.

My orientation to my frequency and depth has shifted and has become more accepting since my DMTx experience in February. I have yet to fully delineate the experience, but you can see some details of it here. It is very much my medicine. I am also a guide, and I talk about this a little bit in that same thread, but in a recent ceremony, I made clear contact, that only had validation for me. This was without medicine. I am very much on a path with this medicine and I see that now, with less doubt and more acceptance. I have apparently come to the point where the point of smoalking is being, and smoalking is prayer.

That said, even at the low doses I tend to play with, things are only getting weirder. Halfway through many changa experience of late have included experiences of a redose without actually taking any extra medicine. The medicine is also holding on to me longer. This is a reflection of years of regular use.

I am only ramping up. I have tried to shed these chains and armor for a long time, and now that they are coming off, I want to love and honor myself and fully dive into that. While I tend to be a one and done type (not because that's what I want, but because my inhibitions are that strong), sometimes doing so throughout the day, I want to make more of a habit of sitting with the medicine for longer periods. It's breaking the habit of doing the bare minimum for myself. And I can look back on my frequent use as a standard for being okay and what I am doing being okay. I learn a lot, about myself, and about that which is external to me, by continuing on. I don't think I could turn back now even if I wanted to.

Burning the candle at both ends.

One love

is asking where you did dmtx against the rules? delete this if it is. and how much did it cost you? legit curious and interested

 

[Voidmatrix]

is asking where you did dmtx against the rules? delete this if it is. and how much did it cost you? legit curious and interested

I don't see it being against the rules to ask since we talk about retreats here often.

However, I have to think carefully about how to answer that question and the subsequent one without doxxing myself lmao.

I will say though, it is something truly and deeply special and hope that you and many others will be able to have that experience one day.

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