Few hours ago I had a successful trip to hyperspace. This was my first trip where I was able to truly look around and study what I was seeing and feeling without any type of panic. The trip prior to this one I felt like I was going very very fast on a freeway and things were going by too fast for me to actually see them.
The first thing I saw was a tunnel or a hallway with blue wall on the left and blue floor. The right side had multicolored vertical tubes filled with some kind of glowing fluid slowly moving from top to bottom. The top of this place had like a lightning going off from time to time. In the middle there was a thing rotating slowly and changing shapes and colors, around it there were little eyeballs. I could see through this object and there was another pair of eyes far away. Everything was so beautiful and I was really enjoying it but I kelp feeling like I must look straight ahead at the pair of eyes for some reason. Every time I looked at them I felt sad, alone, like I just found out that I was lied to by someone very close and special to me. I tried not to look at the eyes but it was like I was forced to only look straight. Very strange feeling.
I knew that I had to be going back soon, and I was absolutely sure that where I was going was not real, but I had to go. I started seeing flashes of my family, and experiences from my life. I saw my self on a bus with my mother. She looked young and I looked like I was around four years old. I saw this as a third person. It made me cry because I don't remember it, I wanted to know where we were going. I saw my wife smiling at me. I saw a group of people crying and then I noticed that two of them are my kids, but they looked much older than I can remember them as. I didn't understand how could I forget so many years. I felt such sadness that I didn't have any memories of my kids growing up. And then I was back, covered in cold sweat and tears.
This trip left me thinking that maybe I am nothing but a computer generated being, just a line of script in a program.
DMT is something very special, it made me feel emotions that I forgot I had.
The first thing I saw was a tunnel or a hallway with blue wall on the left and blue floor. The right side had multicolored vertical tubes filled with some kind of glowing fluid slowly moving from top to bottom. The top of this place had like a lightning going off from time to time. In the middle there was a thing rotating slowly and changing shapes and colors, around it there were little eyeballs. I could see through this object and there was another pair of eyes far away. Everything was so beautiful and I was really enjoying it but I kelp feeling like I must look straight ahead at the pair of eyes for some reason. Every time I looked at them I felt sad, alone, like I just found out that I was lied to by someone very close and special to me. I tried not to look at the eyes but it was like I was forced to only look straight. Very strange feeling.
I knew that I had to be going back soon, and I was absolutely sure that where I was going was not real, but I had to go. I started seeing flashes of my family, and experiences from my life. I saw my self on a bus with my mother. She looked young and I looked like I was around four years old. I saw this as a third person. It made me cry because I don't remember it, I wanted to know where we were going. I saw my wife smiling at me. I saw a group of people crying and then I noticed that two of them are my kids, but they looked much older than I can remember them as. I didn't understand how could I forget so many years. I felt such sadness that I didn't have any memories of my kids growing up. And then I was back, covered in cold sweat and tears.
This trip left me thinking that maybe I am nothing but a computer generated being, just a line of script in a program.
DMT is something very special, it made me feel emotions that I forgot I had.
