distant_traveller
Rising Star
What a beautiful night for it, we have a full moon on the way so I spent a few hours outside with my dog and just looked at the sky taking it in and just clearing my mind. I went inside put on some tunes and did some conscious breathing knowing this was it, tonight felt right. I sandwiched 30-40mg (I weighed to 30mg on the side of caution but it bounced between 30mg and 40mg I think it was closer to 40) figuring I got my technique down and I was right. That 3rd hit was almost impossible but I got it and the voice in the back of my head said breathe deeper take in more don't stop. I thought I was ready but I had no idea. The world closed in and folded in on itself and breathing became hard, I felt my ego trying to hold onto this world and fear hit, I began to repeat "let go" over and over and was rocketed thru a tunnel unlike anything I have seen. I was ripped from myself, like I was being peeled back and I was melting away to nothing. I can't explain it but it was amazing. I was reborn into a geometric ever changing dimension that was pure energy and nothing but yet something and all I felt was love. I spoke with them and one of them a she I think, well it had a mother like aura to it. I cant explain what it looked like but I do remember it told me it's OK were all here and after that I feel like so much time was lost and so many things rushed thru me while it reached into whatever I really am and showed me so many things. It told me I couldn't bring it back that's not how it works and I had enough for today and they all said goodbye, there was a few but only 1 spoke but not in a traditional way. I had no idea what it was like to lose everything until now and how beautiful it was, the ride into this other world was death I can not explain it another way, everything that ever mattered was taken away from me I was completely naked and it was amazing. When they said good bye and that they would see me again I remember a fleeting glimpse of my body sleeping on my bed and then nothing but morphing geometric patterns folding in on themselves and colors I fell thru what was like a suspended layer of water between there and this world. I slowly felt myself being re-assembled and put back together. I began to feel my lungs first and realized breathing feels weird and that's because where I was at air did not exist, I was breathing energy in some way but I had no body a very strange thing to explain. I wrote down as much as I could , but I was not prepared for that I was in tears of amazement my entire body shirt was soaked. I suffer from anxiety and depression and I feel new, I can't explain it but I have been re-centered I know this. Next time the spice speaks to me I will be much more prepared for the experience. It's true you'll know when you get thru, you just know. I now know why I thanked the spice prior to this expedition. EDIT: I would also like to thank the Nexus all the great contribs for providing safe and responsible information to allow me to even know about this experience. I consider myself lucky to have had this experience and without the info I would have never arrived like I did. I've been a background reader for quite awhile.
