I've been dealing with some pretty lousy health issues over there last couple months, beginning with what i thought what i thought might be a parasitic infection from eating raw mushrooms. This morning, the same symptoms I'd been experiencing with that- severe vomiting, mostly- returned but accompanied by severe pain. So i found myself again at an E.R. having tubes put in me and being pumped with fluids and nausea meds but little more than that.
This time they did do a CAT scan on my stomach, in which they saw what might be a site of infection that i need to follow up with my PCP for. Honestly i kind of forgot what he says about it because i was startled by the next sentences. I was told they also saw a 3cm wide mass in my lower lung, which was in frame while they took the pictures. Now i have to get it biopsied, and hope that i can do so quickly.
I don't know what 3cm means, if that's small or huge, or if there are others. I'll find out soon enough, i guess, ha! I know i had a lung xray about ten years ago which didn't show anything, and i did start coughing a little more about a year ago, which I've attributed to the house i moved into at about that time. I don't have any other unusual symptoms. I'm trying to not catastrophize while allowing myself to be with my feelings around this for now, in the weekend after Xmas when there isn't a lot i can do at the instant. I honestly am maybe okay with the idea of dying, but pain leading up to it pretty much terrifies me. The thought of a prospect of chemotherapy i don't think is even an option for me.
I've talked to my previous doctor about psychedelics being part of my mental health well being toolkit and he was okay with it, although being ignorant and a little dismissive. If it becomes serious, i wonder how okay he would be with me taking a holistic approach with RSO, a healthy anti cancer diet and other measures rather than debilitating chemo? I also would like to hear any of your experiences and knowledge about holistic cancer treatment from out there in the Nexus.
I've been making a concerted effort to stay in touch with and maintain foundations of some key friendships during the pandemic and have a good support group in place before i when need one, i already eat healthy and am in good shape for my age, I pretty much already work a program of holistic wellness (at the same time doing stuff like smoking cigarettes for 35 years) so i think i can at least put up a good fight if i have to.
But, like the title says, damn, i was just starting to really have some fun. It really kind of bites
This time they did do a CAT scan on my stomach, in which they saw what might be a site of infection that i need to follow up with my PCP for. Honestly i kind of forgot what he says about it because i was startled by the next sentences. I was told they also saw a 3cm wide mass in my lower lung, which was in frame while they took the pictures. Now i have to get it biopsied, and hope that i can do so quickly.
I don't know what 3cm means, if that's small or huge, or if there are others. I'll find out soon enough, i guess, ha! I know i had a lung xray about ten years ago which didn't show anything, and i did start coughing a little more about a year ago, which I've attributed to the house i moved into at about that time. I don't have any other unusual symptoms. I'm trying to not catastrophize while allowing myself to be with my feelings around this for now, in the weekend after Xmas when there isn't a lot i can do at the instant. I honestly am maybe okay with the idea of dying, but pain leading up to it pretty much terrifies me. The thought of a prospect of chemotherapy i don't think is even an option for me.
I've talked to my previous doctor about psychedelics being part of my mental health well being toolkit and he was okay with it, although being ignorant and a little dismissive. If it becomes serious, i wonder how okay he would be with me taking a holistic approach with RSO, a healthy anti cancer diet and other measures rather than debilitating chemo? I also would like to hear any of your experiences and knowledge about holistic cancer treatment from out there in the Nexus.
I've been making a concerted effort to stay in touch with and maintain foundations of some key friendships during the pandemic and have a good support group in place before i when need one, i already eat healthy and am in good shape for my age, I pretty much already work a program of holistic wellness (at the same time doing stuff like smoking cigarettes for 35 years) so i think i can at least put up a good fight if i have to.
But, like the title says, damn, i was just starting to really have some fun. It really kind of bites

