Void's Journey Into Silence

[Voidmatrix]

It doesn't excuse it at all, sorry if I wasn't clear about that. He was an adult and you a child (and not just a child, but his son, depending on him). Many people have trauma and don't make other's lives hell, we are responsible for our actions as we grow up.

I only mentioned his brokenness to point out that that's absolutely incomprehensible for a child, and can contribute a lot to feeling self-doubt.

I'm not suggesting at all to show him any empathy. More the opposite: trust your gut and stay away, to whatever extent that's reasonable and possible. Time will tell what's best once you trust your own emotions more.

And again, obviously feel free to disregard this, as it may be wrong or not apply to your situation

That's on me. I tried to preemptively reply to what I thought was coming because I've had so many people whine to me about showing him, empathy amd compassion and waaah waaah waaah, he's your father after all nonsense. So my bad.

There was no way I could ever make sense of him growing up. It led to a point where I liked him when he was asleep or not home. I feared him more than I ever loved him.



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