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downwardsfromzero
Boundary condition
You have been in my thoughts, null, and it's great to hear some reassuring news - thanks for posting.
The technical details were pretty interesting; they looked inside you using antimatter!
The technical details were pretty interesting; they looked inside you using antimatter!
Well, i had the surgery a few days ago. It went well, i had a good doctor. They tell me I'm healing well-although it doesn't feel like it.
I don't have a discharge date, but I'm hoping it'll be within the next few days. Right now there are two garden hose gauge surgical tubes going into my pleural space and an air leak that gurgles with each breath, bet unsettling. It's pretty gnarly and hurts like a living hell, but it is what it is. I'm getting good care and am thankful for it.
Just wanted to update the thread. The biopsy just came back as cancer, but thankfully it was found early. That guy from the tv show died from this the day i went into hospital, it's scary as hell, considering i had no pain and the same smoker's cough I've had for years. I don't know what stage it was our of going to need chemo, hopefully not, it was caught-thank Santa- early.
Time for some major lifestyle changes, and for some alternate health experimentation. It was 8 years or so that i had a 5meo trip that held a visual of a doctor pointing at a screen with the image of a human form with a red spot in the exact place this tumor was, and who only said the words "5 years". I took that to mean that if i didn't quit smoking, that is get cancer, and of course i did not. Huh. There's more weirdness around this whole thing, how it was going early due to an inexplicable stomach bug that instantly cleared up once they did act scan on my stomach that just caught the part of my lung with the cancer. I hold no delusions of being the object of some sort of divine intervention, but i do think our bodies communicate with us in ways we often don't understand, probably mostly because our reliance on allopathic medicine causing more of a disconnect between mind and body than we would have were we to utilize things like plant medicines and spirituality in the form of visualization and meditation.
What do you think about using DNT somehow too reprogram oneself to not grow crazy cells? :lol: I'm actually half serious, i mean maybe those aliens and the operations they do actually are something more than hallucination...
But what do i know? Nothing. Despite the pain, I'm very grateful and happy and proud to be a survivor. And thank everyone here for your support, concern and kind words, it really helped alleviate some of the feelings of being overwhelmed.
It's going to be a pretty long recovery and a lot of changes in my life, hell i moved out of my house the day i came in here and will go into a recuperative housing situation for awhile. My new job starts in a week but it's going to be remote for awhile, so that's good. I think i want to buy a truck, get a dog and live the life i have always wanted to but had to much fear and too little confidence in myself to do, and be free on the road. Maybe in a year i can figure out how to monetize that, but yeah, nothing like a brush with death to make one wants to live.
Peace all, and for Santa's sake, be good to you!
I don't have a discharge date, but I'm hoping it'll be within the next few days. Right now there are two garden hose gauge surgical tubes going into my pleural space and an air leak that gurgles with each breath, bet unsettling. It's pretty gnarly and hurts like a living hell, but it is what it is. I'm getting good care and am thankful for it.
Just wanted to update the thread. The biopsy just came back as cancer, but thankfully it was found early. That guy from the tv show died from this the day i went into hospital, it's scary as hell, considering i had no pain and the same smoker's cough I've had for years. I don't know what stage it was our of going to need chemo, hopefully not, it was caught-thank Santa- early.
Time for some major lifestyle changes, and for some alternate health experimentation. It was 8 years or so that i had a 5meo trip that held a visual of a doctor pointing at a screen with the image of a human form with a red spot in the exact place this tumor was, and who only said the words "5 years". I took that to mean that if i didn't quit smoking, that is get cancer, and of course i did not. Huh. There's more weirdness around this whole thing, how it was going early due to an inexplicable stomach bug that instantly cleared up once they did act scan on my stomach that just caught the part of my lung with the cancer. I hold no delusions of being the object of some sort of divine intervention, but i do think our bodies communicate with us in ways we often don't understand, probably mostly because our reliance on allopathic medicine causing more of a disconnect between mind and body than we would have were we to utilize things like plant medicines and spirituality in the form of visualization and meditation.
What do you think about using DNT somehow too reprogram oneself to not grow crazy cells? :lol: I'm actually half serious, i mean maybe those aliens and the operations they do actually are something more than hallucination...
But what do i know? Nothing. Despite the pain, I'm very grateful and happy and proud to be a survivor. And thank everyone here for your support, concern and kind words, it really helped alleviate some of the feelings of being overwhelmed.
It's going to be a pretty long recovery and a lot of changes in my life, hell i moved out of my house the day i came in here and will go into a recuperative housing situation for awhile. My new job starts in a week but it's going to be remote for awhile, so that's good. I think i want to buy a truck, get a dog and live the life i have always wanted to but had to much fear and too little confidence in myself to do, and be free on the road. Maybe in a year i can figure out how to monetize that, but yeah, nothing like a brush with death to make one wants to live.
Peace all, and for Santa's sake, be good to you!
I'm glad surgery went well, and hope you have a quick recovery. For me, a hard part of dealing with illness and surgery was feeling vulnerable from that awareness of mortality. Do you have enough support for the nonphysical side of this too?
If you need something to read in your downtime, have you ever googled studies about how harmalas and DMT modulate the immune system? I'm all about doing everything you can on earth to help yourself - but being open to help from the aliens, too.
At the very least, our subconscious is capable of processing insane amounts of information in ways that are alien to our narrow band of day-to-day consciousness. I really think a lot of those weird blob-like creatures seen "out there" might be inside us on a cellular level.
That is scary and wild, glad you're in one piece.
If you need something to read in your downtime, have you ever googled studies about how harmalas and DMT modulate the immune system? I'm all about doing everything you can on earth to help yourself - but being open to help from the aliens, too.
At the very least, our subconscious is capable of processing insane amounts of information in ways that are alien to our narrow band of day-to-day consciousness. I really think a lot of those weird blob-like creatures seen "out there" might be inside us on a cellular level.That is scary and wild, glad you're in one piece.
Good newses,it will be a emotional roller coaster,the adds on TV and radio were doing my head in and bringing tears to my eyes but think of it this way,You have made it-you are more aware now and will be getting better medical care and your background in psychadelics-(I assume being a Nexus member) you have all ready better head start and perspective to people who don't
I switched to microdosing in all aspect apart from hitting it heavy on cannabis oil-I have done so 3 years to self medicate my symptoms and 5 years later i went trought the shit you just went through
All the best-keep your chin up and remember-help others when you can :thumb_up:
I switched to microdosing in all aspect apart from hitting it heavy on cannabis oil-I have done so 3 years to self medicate my symptoms and 5 years later i went trought the shit you just went through
All the best-keep your chin up and remember-help others when you can :thumb_up:
CatFractals
The White Haired Cat
I'm happy things turned out well and your still alive, that's the most important part 
Still in hospital. Have another discharge date set for Sunday, but it's touch add go.
Things kinda went sideways, and i developed a gnarly infection in my lung after they took the tubes out. Also had a partial lung collapse and my heart went into afib, not necessarily in that order, so it's been pretty tough.
Right now, i have a picc line installed so the caustic antibiotics won't damage my veins and do i can administerv it when i and released.
I can't pretend, this has been scary as hell y'all. If you smoke cigarettes, please stop. Please. You don't want to be in shoes.
A friend smuggled in some cbn tincture and a thc tincture. The first blood test results after taking a little of both seemed to show accelerated reduction in my white blood cell count, which is good.
Anyway, i just wanted to update everyone, is been awhile. I'm still in this fight, and i aim to beat the hell out this thing. The body is incredible, it's wants to be in a healthy state, i just have to keep plugging good love energy into my head and I'll win.
Things kinda went sideways, and i developed a gnarly infection in my lung after they took the tubes out. Also had a partial lung collapse and my heart went into afib, not necessarily in that order, so it's been pretty tough.
Right now, i have a picc line installed so the caustic antibiotics won't damage my veins and do i can administerv it when i and released.
I can't pretend, this has been scary as hell y'all. If you smoke cigarettes, please stop. Please. You don't want to be in shoes.
A friend smuggled in some cbn tincture and a thc tincture. The first blood test results after taking a little of both seemed to show accelerated reduction in my white blood cell count, which is good.
Anyway, i just wanted to update everyone, is been awhile. I'm still in this fight, and i aim to beat the hell out this thing. The body is incredible, it's wants to be in a healthy state, i just have to keep plugging good love energy into my head and I'll win.
I'm so sorry, null. That all sounds awful.
Be strong. Better days ahead.
Be strong. Better days ahead.
Tomtegubbe
Esteemed member
Best of luck, null24. Be brave and surrender if the time comes. You are in hands of God. 
Thanks, but I'm not surrendering shit. I got things to do, man.Tomtegubbe said:Best of luck, null24. Be brave and surrender if the time comes. You are in hands of God.
PlantTraveller
Rising Star
hope you're out of the hospital and on the mend soon, null24! best of luck!
Tomtegubbe
Esteemed member
Hey, null24. I apologize. I mean whatever comes have no fear and keep on fighting!null24 said:Thanks, but I'm not surrendering shit. I got things to do, man.Tomtegubbe said:Best of luck, null24. Be brave and surrender if the time comes. You are in hands of God.
Damn null, that's horrible.null24 said:
Luckily you're still with us.
Every day we get to enjoy is a small victory. And sometimes a bigger victory.
Keep fighting.
Hey, I've been out of hospital fort almost a week. I'm in a recuperative care facility, it's actually a really nice place and I'll getting some really good care. Getting better every day, slow and stay.
On a iv antibiotics regime that i have to administer via a PICC line and the wounds from the chest tubes are still discharging a massive amount of pus (is incredibly disgusting but I've gotten used to changing the dragons and stuff). Gotta rebuild the muscle mass i lost, which is like all of it, but I'm glad that i can.
This has been really hard on me maybe the biggest challenge I've ever faces. It has been terrifying and made me realize that I'm not ready to die. If i went now, I'd just be lost to oblivion, a life lived for nothing really. I've tried to put on the tough "I'm a survivor" face through it, but I've cried more tears through this than i have in the last 10 years put together.
But somehow, i WILL survive, and live. I'm incredibly grateful that my employer values me enough to wait for me to heal and once I'm well enough to fly i can take off from here...
On a iv antibiotics regime that i have to administer via a PICC line and the wounds from the chest tubes are still discharging a massive amount of pus (is incredibly disgusting but I've gotten used to changing the dragons and stuff). Gotta rebuild the muscle mass i lost, which is like all of it, but I'm glad that i can.
This has been really hard on me maybe the biggest challenge I've ever faces. It has been terrifying and made me realize that I'm not ready to die. If i went now, I'd just be lost to oblivion, a life lived for nothing really. I've tried to put on the tough "I'm a survivor" face through it, but I've cried more tears through this than i have in the last 10 years put together.
But somehow, i WILL survive, and live. I'm incredibly grateful that my employer values me enough to wait for me to heal and once I'm well enough to fly i can take off from here...
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