Coming back in spirit but finding myself alone.

[telladon]

So we were a little group that used to do psychedelics in our late teens and early twenties. We had fun, we discussed things but as time went on one had a couple of bad trips and stopped, one had an intense period and stopped after it, some grew out of it.

I lived in places with no privacy or just bad places and I could just take it very rarely, and when I did it wasn't in the serious way.

But I recently moved to a very nice place with privacy and life looks good so I decided to do some tripping. I ended up having a really powerful experience in that it changed me a bit. I remembered some goals I had lost sight of, sympathy and openness increased a lot.

But now here I stand with nobody to talk to it about, I have no friends who are even a little among the kind of people. I moved away from all sort of drug-users of any kind a few years ago after coming to grips with would happen if I got caught. It went from being something that would be an issue too life changing, especially with what I'm studying.

So here I stand with a moderate stash I saved over the years alone with nobody to talk to about what I experienced and wish to share.
Now I'm just trying to hold on to what I experienced for fear of losing it again, but it feels a bit like holding dry sand, no matter how hard I squeeze it keeps slipping away from me.

 

[BenNice]

Welcome to the beach of nexus, I think you'll like it here.

 

[Mustelid]

Welcome to the nexus Telladon.

I can relate as I did pschedelics in late teens and than stopped until fairly recently. Right now I'm currently not again, due in part that I don't feel it's the right time just yet, and also due to certain privacy issues as well.

Hope things work out well, and you can find some good friends who share some more interests with you.

 

[Enoon]

welcome telladon,

IMO the best thing you can do is write it all down. Anything and everything about what you think was and is important about the experience(s) you had. You can share with us as much as you like, but that's not the point. The point is you remembering, you divulging and integrating and gaing as much as you can from the experience(s).

Most of my tripping time has been as you describe - with no or few people to talk to about it, and none with whom I could really share the experiences. Then I found this place and things became easier. I didn't need people around me to expose my experiences to anymore. Not that I was afraid of them reacting badly - I know whom I can talk to and whom not - but it just doesn't make sense to talk to just anyone about these things. Lots of people just don't know what to say because psychedelics are so far away from their life and life-style, so neither we nor they gain from this kind of sharing... Here for sure you will find people that resonate with your experiences and can give you support, advice or just be mirrors to help you reflect.

It is after all a very personal experience and journey, so at least for me it's not so bad doing it alone. We share lots of other thigns with the people around us, I think it's ok that there are some things that are private and just for us.

cheers

 

[SynKyd]

Welcome to the nexus!

Please be safe when tripping alone, my friend, and revel in the beauty of your self and your mind. Not having people around can be a blessing I believe, and your journey may progress further and faster if you set your mind to it (when compared to arranging schedules with others and comparing notes in person).

The internet can alwaysprovide the sounding board for your questions or concerns as they arise, and there is a live chat feature here for instant gratification also.

:thumb_up:

 

[Bdevall158]

welcome to the nexus were all alone in this together
one helpful thing that i learned in the amazon was that it is very common or typical of westerners to want to share all the outlandish experiences that we encounter. sometimes though, most of times actually, the experiences are your experience and your experience alone, and sometimes no matter how hard you try words sometimes dont even cut it. I understand your longing for communications with other travelers though just because ts so great to be able to level with another human every now and again, so hopefully you find comfort and welcoming here at the nexus.

Love and light to you :thumb_up:

 

[HippingTrippY]

Brother you are never alone. Your intro resonates with me. I am newly promoted myself and am trying like the dickens to figure out how to vote to promote you. Keep up the good work. Don't let being on at a clinique make you feel bad. I have been on methadone 4 times. The last time I nodded out at the final appointment it was a 2 day process. I made em give me my copay back so I could go cop. I am much better now but I remember times when I felt hopeless. Life gets better.