intezam; unfortunately i haven't microdosed such things. i spent more time fighting within the system for what i believed was right (pro choice of drug use; pro choice of relationships; and pro choice of destiny/fate)
so rather; i haven't used those yet. i've always had safe, healing, and very personal experiences with psychedelics. i've always been able to have a certain part of my brain leveled out and made more understandable after a psychedelic session. during the session i'd undergo an enhanced feeling of experiencing reality; perhaps i become hyperaware of the things around me. i'm not sure; i've only used LSA, Canabis, and some synthetic canabis; of which the synthetic is something i definitely don't want to go into because of the lack of trustability and reliability.
for me; drug use was never about getting "high" or being "cool". for me; drug use was just something i understood better than anyone else around me. but the harder part was telling people these understandings; i even shared these insights with friends from school and tried to tell my fellow classmates about the responsible use of drugs. sometimes it didn't have as big of an effect; but some younger people; no lets say a large portion of days younger people; "abuse" drugs.
in other words they don't take into consideration the important fundamentals of altered states of consciousness, addiction, depression, life priorities, and as such. i blame the lack of democratic effectiveness and the impact of not opening up your emotions in public around other people. i know sometimes i go off topic; but that's just because topics are usually compareable or can be important in a discussion as a side resource.
but for me; LSA really helped. now; i have no social environments for using LSA. i still have some hawain baby woodrose seeds around; but i want these seeds to be used in a special and important manner rather than how i had used to use them (for sheer recreation; which isn't the point of using a psychedelic. recreation is just one room to open of the mind; and i believe if you are to use psychedelics then you need to be responsible enough to handle their reality shattering experiences. i do often think though; that it's the set and setting and the prep, experience, and integration and "sitter" are all terms someone should know as a basic; and they should know what words mean in relation to psychedelics.
anyways; i'll be sure to tell you how such drugs do effect me if i am able to use such drugs in a safe settings with a sober "sitter" and an environment in which i can feel trusted with being honest and open. because when i do take psychedelics; i'm pretty damn honest and i'm pretty damn open. and then the days following are like a repeat button that slowly ever so surely dilutes the chemical balances that such psychedelic drugs can cause.
me; there are parts of my self where i want to do "all" the drugs. not because i want to be responsible. honestly; i'm just curious and confused about drugs. it's not like the "just say no" campaign did anything at all for my understanding and application of responsible use of drugs and specifically psychedelics. i like the "just say KNOW" campaign instead. because i believe if you are going to use drugs; it's important to understand what you are getting into first.
now; i would like to microdose these such drugs; i've actually been wanting to figure out how i can contact maps so that they can study how psychedelics affect my brain; since i have little psychedelic experience. i know enough so that its not completely unfamiliar and i could help things by understanding such psychedelics further by understanding how they affect my brain specifically.
with all in all said; i'm not even sure how one gets ahold of these drugs. i know that if people strongly want them that they get ahold of them one way or another. but i always think... things could be done just a little different so that the world around us would be different too; and hopefully a good different.
idk. sometimes i confuse myself more than i confuse others; because others taught me how to be confused about every little thing like sex, drugs, reality, money, and all the things that seperate me from "normal" people because i see these things not as objects; but as topics or concepts.
like; i can't have a normal relationship life; i can't self heal or use medicines i have researched because it's not "customary" of america and it's not like i want to end up in a prison, which i'm actually against prison in general; i can't seem to get ahold on my life because of stuff; and i am further disabled by poverty.
the way i see things is that it's not all about drugs, sex, reality, money, you, other people, the center of the universe, or any of that crap. it's about noticing things; life i mean. and about not noticing things that you don't need to see or cloud your eyes with.
i'm not sure if my lengthful responses are awesome enough to impact anything; but i like to think that i'm frustrated enough to get the attention of as many people as i can; just to tell them the simple fact that we kinda hurt one another.
writting for the nexus is a perfected therapy. better than psychedelic assisted therapy even; because this right here IS an inviting, non-hostile, understanding "set" and "setting" that we in this community share. i mean; this theraputic form of venting one's feelings is wonderful for alleviating deep traumas. this i believe can prepare many people for the actual psychedelic experience. or at least in the case of psychologically damaged people.
such people may need a strong community if they are to use psychedelics for responsible and safe applications. luckily this class of drug is really safe for the most part; it's actually the world around you and the people around you that make these drugs have danger.
i can tell you what; had i had the "perfect" or at least unneglected introduction into psychedelics; i believe that i could have came out more stronger as a person; because i could have faced more of my demons in a permanent sense; getting the job done the first time instead of repeatedly coming back to the LSA because honestly; the LSA alone didn't do the job permanently; making me a happier, smarter, and more outgoing person; aka the ideal model citizen of society. which is cliche.
ANYWAYS; nu i haven't! i wish i could tho! because honestly; i do love psychedelics; if people think thats wrong, please get over it just because i try to be really respectful about my use of these drugs, i try to make people understand that drugs, guns, violence, war, rape, and all those other things don't hurt people; instead people hurt people with tools designed to do one thing; whether that "tool" is a psychological impulse to rape or hurt someone or whether or not the tool is a psychedelic or a steam bath to level out toxins in the body; tools are either useful or they kill people because the user of such tool doesn't understand the value the actual tool can have for the benefit of others and how using a tool to benefit others can be really amazing and help the world over.
with this said; i can't say that my opinion is authoritative or a reliable source; it's just my experience.
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