Dehypnotization in progress...

[Twisted]

It seems that psychedelics changed me a lot... or maybe I just grew up? I don't know. Many strange substances circulated my blood. I'm still struggling on the edge of addiction. Falling in and out of various carvings, like caffeine. But cannabinoids are my favorite poison. Luckily for me, I never liked opioids or amphetamines. I love tea although I rarely drink it. Ah, yes... psychedelics, the jewel in the crown of them all. So many ways to push the buttons in my brain. Happy powders, truth herbs and sleeping pills. When it gets too fast, I crash. Then there are anti-narcotic periods when meditation and much more esoteric disiciplines are used. In those times my balance and health are restored.

I'm not sure why I (ab)use substances, both organic and chemical. Illicit and legit. Recreational and sacral. For me the main action of psychedelics is to dissolve. Boundaries are melted by a flush of psilocybin acid. I feel weird now, codeine has almost worn off but caffeine is still strongly present. It's almost morning but I don't have to worry about that.

I feel better each time. I get to know how to work with psychoactive medicines. How to minimalize all the risks. How to kick habits out. My main enemy is laziness. I've tried to blame it all on cannabis but I'm as lazy as always, no matter if I'm using it or not. It hurts my creative side but it's not as bad as it could be. At least I didn't dedicated my whole life pursuing money.

I would like to join your community because I would like to try DMT. I'm an experienced tripper and I'd a fair share of sober lucidity. Yes, lucidity. Like in dreams. Or when walking back home.

 

[GobblinTorch]

I'm a little fanatical in my consumption of cannabinoids as well. I think I feel the same way about it making me lazy, but hey I was lazy in the first place. It can be hard to tell really what effect if any, and specifically what ill effect if any a drug is having on you ... without stopping their use completely .. and then if no change occurs its hard to tell if you have some sort of lingering effect, or not. Its all guesswork, I think. Amen to not pursuing money. It will mean nothing in the end, and I think the same applies to any sort of "bean counting".

I dont think its important whether or not you abuse substances, or use them. Its just important that you are aware of yourself and especially your habits. But those are just my thoughts. I wish you pleasant dissolution.

 

[Twisted]

I dont think its important whether or not you abuse substances, or use them. Its just important that you are aware of yourself and especially your habits. But those are just my thoughts. I wish you pleasant dissolution.

It's not about awarness but about change. I feel bipolar sometimes. More then I would like to.

 

[abc1234560]

Everyone has their poison, just like I have mine. For some its money, for some unfortunate, it opiates, and for some alcohol and tobacco. For me Mj and Caffeine are my current worst habits that even have potential to go anywhere negative.

For a while I was blaming Mj for a sort of apathetic-ness I was finding in myself, Than I grabbed a shower, had a coffee, and did something productive.

Pick your poison, but over all be safe. As always welcome to the nexus Twisted. I also like you am nearing my first use of DMT. Exciting stuff.

Good luck to you!

 

[ragabr]

Welcome to the Nexus, Twisted. Have you thought about fasting from all psychoactive substances for a time?