Ding-Dong-Ditch at the gates of Heaven

[Julz]

I can't wait to hear more CH- have missed you, but I think maybe you have been busy!

 

[Crazyhorse]

I can't wait to hear more CH- have missed you, but I think maybe you have been busy!

Hi Julz! :d I'm around, hope you're doing ok, healing up from your surgery and all! Next time you make tea, try the herbal percolator. It may take longer (the entire process took me about 24 hours), but I think its a good method. From what I've read if you do it using room temp water instead of hot, you can get all the actives without much of the tannins. I drank ~50-60g of cielo with no urpyness at all.

I guess there's not really a lot more to say about my experience last night, I'm not starting a new report thread about it because it would probably be incredibly boring for most. No big mystical revelations, no ego death or trips to farout realms, no really remarkable visuals. The first two hours were testing out caapi by itself, lying in bed listening to Alan Watts and Eckhart Tolle on youtube. Effects were pretty mild, I'll try a higher dose or stronger vine next time. But it did seem to help put me in a very calm and meditative state. After that I loaded up some caapi+DMT enhanced viridis leaf in my bong and moved to my new "launch pad" in the living room (comfy recliner), put on some music and smoalked out for a few hours.

BUT! Even though there was no major breakthrough or anything, this feels like a landmark event for me, and was very significant for a simple reason: This trip marks the first time since my bad one back in like 1989 that I've taken a significant dose and had NONE of the paranoia and flashback-type fear related to that night. It hasn't always consumed every moment of every trip, but up till now it was present for at least some part of them all. This was 4-5 hours of nothing but positive feelings for me, and that fact alone is such a relief and makes me SO happy!

Not that I think this means I'll never have another "difficult experience" or anything like that. But it feels like I've turned a corner, and may be able to start experiencing these things in a more balanced way, without such a heavy bias towards anxiety and irrational fears leaking through from the past. :thumb_up:

 

[Knoxville]

I can't wait to hear more CH- have missed you, but I think maybe you have been busy!

Hi Julz! :d I'm around, hope you're doing ok, healing up from your surgery and all! Next time you make tea, try the herbal percolator. It may take longer (the entire process took me about 24 hours), but I think its a good method. From what I've read if you do it using room temp water instead of hot, you can get all the actives without much of the tannins. I drank ~50-60g of cielo with no urpyness at all.

I guess there's not really a lot more to say about my experience last night, I'm not starting a new report thread about it because it would probably be incredibly boring for most. No big mystical revelations, no ego death or trips to farout realms, no really remarkable visuals. The first two hours were testing out caapi by itself, lying in bed listening to Alan Watts and Eckhart Tolle on youtube. Effects were pretty mild, I'll try a higher dose or stronger vine next time. But it did seem to help put me in a very calm and meditative state. After that I loaded up some caapi+DMT enhanced viridis leaf in my bong and moved to my new "launch pad" in the living room (comfy recliner), put on some music and smoalked out for a few hours.

BUT! Even though there was no major breakthrough or anything, this feels like a landmark event for me, and was very significant for a simple reason: This trip marks the first time since my bad one back in like 1989 that I've taken a significant dose and had NONE of the paranoia and flashback-type fear related to that night. It hasn't always consumed every moment of every trip, but up till now it was present for at least some part of them all. This was 4-o5 hours of nothing but positive feelings for me, and that fact alone is such a relief and makes me SO happy!

Not that I think this means I'll never have another "difficult experience" or anything like that. But it feels like I've turned a corner, and may be able to start experiencing these things in a more balanced way, without such a heavy bias towards anxiety and irrational fears leaking through from the past. :thumb_up:

That in itself is beautiful. Being able to navigate hyperspace without that fearful thorn in your side is such a cleaner experience. When you do breakthrough you'll be able to experience and enjoy it so much more. Thanks for sharing.

 

[Crazyhorse]

That in itself is beautiful. Being able to navigate hyperspace without that fearful thorn in your side is such a cleaner experience. When you do breakthrough you'll be able to experience and enjoy it so much more. Thanks for sharing.

Thanks very much! I've been working towards this point in my own way for about the last year, going into these states knowing the unpleasantness lurking there and facing it anyway, trying to make my subconscious un-learn the connection it has made between tripping and my imminent doom. Seems to finally be paying off and since this last experience my confidence has increased a great deal. I'm planning to have my first full-on aya journey on 12/21. :thumb_up:

 

[Pandora]

I am so glad you enjoyed changa so much. I found it changed things for me too and very soon was almost never vaping straight freebase crystal without working it into some sort of changa, harmala enhanced changa, etc. One, such as myself, wouldn't think such small amounts of MAOI and/or herbal components could make such a big difference in my subjective tripping experience. And yet, it seems to be quite significant.

 

[Crazyhorse]

Thanks Pandora!

I'm actually sitting here right now playing with some changa mixes, was going to check in here to do some searches on different ratios and such. But I'm also totally open to suggestions for making an effective combo if anyone has ideas!

The elements I'm mixing and matching here are:

Viridis leaf enhanced 1:1 with DMT/Caapi extract
Amanita Muscaria
Wormwood
Pau D'Arco
Lotus Stamens
Caapi leaf
10x caapi tincture
Plain syrian rue seeds
10g 10x syrian rue powder




I want to enhance some of the caapi leaf with the 10x extract, but I'm not sure how much leaf to infuse per oz of 10x to make something that would provide an effective dose in a bowl or two, if the leaf were then mixed 50/50 with something else. Also want to know how much of the 10x syrian rue I'd need to smoke to make that an effective addition to a mix as well. Pretty sure I've read about that somewhere, just about to go have a look. Also interested in dosage info for taking the unenhanced syrian rue orally, how would 3G of ground seeds compare to a 50g dose of yellow caapi as far as strength?

 

[Aftermath]

So do you think you actually entered the heavenly dimensions?

I love your signature, Crazy Horse!

 

[Crazyhorse]

So do you think you actually entered the heavenly dimensions?

If the prerequesite for entry into the heavenly dimensions is leaving all your baggage at the door (I.E. "ego death" ) Then I'd have to say no, I must not be ready yet. However, I HAVE felt directly connected to the source of all light, life and love, and have had a profound sense of the infinite interconnectedness of everything... seen very clearly that the "me-ness" I'm so used to, is really basically arbitrary, and "I" am really just a tiny part of something so much bigger. It seemed at one point during the peak of the experience in the OP, like I could have just taken one small step further and dropped all my attachments to that "Self" and his life, and truly merged with all things, seen the universe through any pair of eyes I chose, or all of them at once.

So when people talk about having experiences like this on the other side of their breakthroughs, I really feel like I understand what they mean. And yet, for me, there have so far been no entities of any kind or even a sense of them, no farout landscapes or alien environments, no sense of leaving my body or lack of awareness of who and where I "really" am. As a matter of fact, so far I haven't even heard this "carrier wave" that seems to be an almost universal phenomenon, even with sub-breakthrough DMT use. Honestly, I don't really know what to make of it all at this point, and have pretty much given up on expecting any of this stuff. It is whatever it is and that's good enough for me. But little by little I keep venturing out into deeper waters, surely I'll eventually learn to swim well enough to finally be comfortable with losing sight of the shore.

:thumb_up:

As I write this I am returning to baseline from my latest swimming lesson. I made an interesting potion last night consisting of a few ounces of lemon juice, 3g syrian rue, 1g cubensis and .3g amanita, heated up double boiler style for 30-45 mins then strained chilled and chugged, followed by intermittent bong hits of my DMT/MAOI infused viridis mixed with amanita and 10x rue extract.

I don't have much to say about the experience itself at the moment but I'd call it another successful venture, took me to a very similar place as last time without any bad vibes and I was quite content with that. Did some more drawing on the way down, time now for food and bed.