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Dmt is gone but i can still see
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No mental illness. What's happening is I'm seeing the floating lights I see on a light dose trip after a trip. And you know how when you close your eyes darkness forms instantly my latest vision slowly from outside to middle slowly darkens then to a smaller circle until nothing all black. My last trip I could see like a memory but it wasn't mine. The people in the memory were strangers to thought but I felt I knew them it was like I was in someone else body this memory thing is new so is the light beings but the darkness thing is been going on for 6 month it's hard to explain.i was wondering if anyone gets changed by dmt
It's hard to completely understand what you are feeling and seeing, but I get plenty of hallucinogen persisting perception disorder (HPPD). For me, though, I don't experience any if I'm focusing on anything. If I'm outside and it's a beautiful day and I'm enjoying it, I can get that strong color enhancement like I'm living inside a color TV. If I'm in a dark room, I can see mild patterns in the darkest areas. However, if I'm at all focused on anything I do not notice such things. They never distract from "reality", just something I experience when relaxed or looking for them.
I think it’s hard not to get changed by dmt, having said this I never really experienced any residual visual effects longer than a week or so. Sometimes when going through a period of very heavy use I can see patterns and small flikkering artifacts in my peripheral vision. All go away in a couple of days after dosing. With lsd things take a bit longer to resolve and mescaline and 2cb don’t have this effect in me at all.
I would say that if you’re not bothered by them and they don’t become part of a thought pattern(illusion) I would not worry too much about it.
I've had permanent visual effects for years if not decades. As @brokedownpalace10 mentions, it's not really there if I'm not focussing on it, and I can choose to enjoy it in the right circumstances. My hypothesis is that it's a result of heightened awareness of the operation of one's own nervous system, and as such can be treated as a feature not a bug.
This reminded me of a story from a tribe that mentioned they would contact and see the invisible being of the forest thru ayahuasca. However they also mentioned that they have since died off and no longer in contact since 'western' man killed with with diseases. Some also described them as light being which I've seen many users without having read others reports using similar descriptions. Remember that use rewires our brains so perhaps you are just making connections to certain stimuli that you didn't before hand.
After using psychedelics over the span of a decade now... When I meditate I can now VERY quickly almost instantly enter a trance and have a very strong body high where it's like I'm on a roller coaster and feel flung back.
If this is causing you issues I'd suggest stopping use of any drugs particularly psychedelics and try ignoring them as with time your mind will understand that they are not 'important'. Be aware that certain 'side effects' may take years to subside and continued use may just worsen the situation. You can always use more in the future so don't reuse anything if you are having and mental issues.
After using psychedelics over the span of a decade now... When I meditate I can now VERY quickly almost instantly enter a trance and have a very strong body high where it's like I'm on a roller coaster and feel flung back.
If this is causing you issues I'd suggest stopping use of any drugs particularly psychedelics and try ignoring them as with time your mind will understand that they are not 'important'. Be aware that certain 'side effects' may take years to subside and continued use may just worsen the situation. You can always use more in the future so don't reuse anything if you are having and mental issues.
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I recently had my second LSD trip with some MDMA (40mg, so 'minimal') and the sentiment behind yourr question prompts me to reflect on some aspect of this...
I feel permanently changed.
The experience was like droplet of water into the pond, I could still experience the ripples of the experience in my day to day life afterwards (like a month at least!). It felt as if it was seeping into the structure my daily reality. Parts are still there. Stimulants or other emotions can activate me as well.
'Am I going crazy?" Some integration(?) which occurred:
I was meeting up with a best friend about 2 months after the trip. Up until then I had really been engaging a lot with the persistent experiential effects I was experiences. It was a beautiful sunny summer day out in the park where we met. We were talking about wonderful things like art and such
I started recounting the experience as well as the raw aftereffects, and some emotional and existential parts of it. In touching upon these memories as I recounted them there with him, my awareness suddenly elevated as if tripping again. His eyes and voice were like glowing light god ness, every word he (and I said) felt like some divine rememberance. That among other things. It was profound. i felt like earth was some reality upon which there were these reality wormholes which people spoke and saw me into.
Details aside (it was very existential) I feel like a good portion of the trip-energy that had been simmering in me was processed through this experience of talking it out with someone. What I mean by 'processed' is that I touched the memories with language. A sort of balm as you will.
The native americans say conversely in a way, (and I paraphrase) 'Do not speak of what you see for at least a year to keep the energy strong' ~ however this was my second trip and I am a highly emotional person so I chose to really dive into sharing it with some wonderful friends. I can only recommend this for integration/diffusing of the energy so far from my own experience, even if the listeners have no personal experience.
I relate to you when you say "am I going crazy?" as I had some really powerful persistent existential-percentual feelings from the LSD and "am I going crazy" is something I felt myself during this time period. It was all as deeply moving as I know the fabric reality itself to be.
Looking back however, I do feel like I have done a good job reflecting on, and integrating the perceptual changes which have persisted. Many of those more existential and difficult perceptual changes seem to have subsided as well when shared with other people. I feel like this balming through sharing effect really works best in-person.
I would like to note that when talking this out with people, I recommend doing so in a setting you would feel comfortable revisiting trippy energies in, as well as asking the listener if they are okay being with you should trip energies arise.
Many other energies I have just learning to live with as time goes on, and some I do really appreciate.
(F Y I ~ I'm a highly emotional and young psychonaut, so please take my words with that in mind! I have not tripped on DMT (yet)
I wish you all the best
Feel free to reach out if you wish to chat.
~ Best wishes friend ~
I feel permanently changed.
The experience was like droplet of water into the pond, I could still experience the ripples of the experience in my day to day life afterwards (like a month at least!). It felt as if it was seeping into the structure my daily reality. Parts are still there. Stimulants or other emotions can activate me as well.
'Am I going crazy?" Some integration(?) which occurred:
I was meeting up with a best friend about 2 months after the trip. Up until then I had really been engaging a lot with the persistent experiential effects I was experiences. It was a beautiful sunny summer day out in the park where we met. We were talking about wonderful things like art and such
I started recounting the experience as well as the raw aftereffects, and some emotional and existential parts of it. In touching upon these memories as I recounted them there with him, my awareness suddenly elevated as if tripping again. His eyes and voice were like glowing light god ness, every word he (and I said) felt like some divine rememberance. That among other things. It was profound. i felt like earth was some reality upon which there were these reality wormholes which people spoke and saw me into.
Details aside (it was very existential) I feel like a good portion of the trip-energy that had been simmering in me was processed through this experience of talking it out with someone. What I mean by 'processed' is that I touched the memories with language. A sort of balm as you will.
The native americans say conversely in a way, (and I paraphrase) 'Do not speak of what you see for at least a year to keep the energy strong' ~ however this was my second trip and I am a highly emotional person so I chose to really dive into sharing it with some wonderful friends. I can only recommend this for integration/diffusing of the energy so far from my own experience, even if the listeners have no personal experience.
I relate to you when you say "am I going crazy?" as I had some really powerful persistent existential-percentual feelings from the LSD and "am I going crazy" is something I felt myself during this time period. It was all as deeply moving as I know the fabric reality itself to be.
Looking back however, I do feel like I have done a good job reflecting on, and integrating the perceptual changes which have persisted. Many of those more existential and difficult perceptual changes seem to have subsided as well when shared with other people. I feel like this balming through sharing effect really works best in-person.
I would like to note that when talking this out with people, I recommend doing so in a setting you would feel comfortable revisiting trippy energies in, as well as asking the listener if they are okay being with you should trip energies arise.
Many other energies I have just learning to live with as time goes on, and some I do really appreciate.
(F Y I ~ I'm a highly emotional and young psychonaut, so please take my words with that in mind! I have not tripped on DMT (yet
)I wish you all the best
Feel free to reach out if you wish to chat.
~ Best wishes friend ~
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