TLDR: I experienced one of the possible interpretations of my own death. The scariest part was that I finally accepted the thought that I died.
So, this is the trip report for LSDMTHC:
2x 130 ug LSD blotters. 2 hours later was already tripping balls but took 150 ug LSD sugar cube in addition. Watched uncut version of
The Holy Mountain (MUST SEE). 3 hours later snorted 50mg DMT fumarate and went outside. Stuff came on very mildly but the clouds were already geometric. 10 minutes later vaped about 10mg DMT freebase. Then shit got crazy.
Everything visible to me suddenly got this weird alien look and from time to time I experienced sudden surges of falling into a loop of utter amazement and producing strange gurgling sounds in the process (first time experience of such behaviour). Then I discovered that I can control this alien DMT look and view by concentrating on it to come back. When one of my buddies vaped the same amount I was able to see the same alien world that he saw although I was no longer in that fey world myself. When he looked at his fingers being amazed that there were suddenly 6 or 7 of them I immediately gained access to see the same thing.
Then about 10 minutes later we smoked some weed and this changed everything for me. Suddenly I got this DMT look back and it scared me because when my buddies talked to me I heard very different messages than what they said. These messages were hints that I could be dead already and now I have to realize it so that I could exit this world properly. I talked to some consciousness who spoke to me via my buddy and the consciousness told me that it knows what I am experiencing and warned me that I should wait and see as it gets
even worse. I was then getting plenty of hints and messages that I should give up and go outside the house because I am dead (probably sunken in a pond) but I resisted to do so. I felt extreme fear and it turned into hopelessness and finally acceptance as I started to just meditate and not even communicate back to these messages that wanted me to go outside. I thought that I will never leave that couch even if I have to pee myself because I was very sure that if I go out I will die for real (in case I was somehow still alive). As I meditated I concentrated on love and saw whiteness. When I concentrated on my special someone I felt utter happiness. The messages I interpreted from my friends' words then told me that it really doesn't matter if you died or not and that you can choose yourself the life experience that you want to experience. I chose to continue my existence in the life I just had without actually dying.
As the effects of different chemicals wore off I was no longer getting these hints about me being dead so I could finally go to pee without being scared that I might die. I put on the
Robot Unicorn Attack for my friend because he also did some DOC. He started playing and I started to believe that I am still alive.
By the way, this is how my friend saw the DMT world:
It is very different from what I experienced but it's similar by the fact that actually seeing things like that is very weird.
End comment: The trip I had was the most powerful that I've experienced and at some point it made me wish that I had never taken DMT (edit: or THC in case it was responsible). However, it had its positive and enjoyable sides (the looping gurgling sounds and the feeling of utter amazement). I am pretty sure that THC was responsible for the near-death-experience-thingy so I think I'm not going to become a fan of THC, ever. So far I have only got bad experiences from weed, no matter if taking it alone or in a combination with other drugs.
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