Indicunt
Rising Star
So I've done shrooms about 8 or 9 times, and each time I have had an experience that was not exactly bad, but not particularly good, and definitely uncomfortable. The trips are always accompanied by quite a high amount of anxiety, which comes during the peak and is only physical. I don't tend to have feelings of existential dread that are common to bad trips. Physically, I feel a feeling of heaviness in my body that makes me want to lay down and do nothing, but my muscles get quite agitated which makes me want to get up and pace the floor. Emotionally, I find myself feeling more confusion than anything, I don't have those life-changing, religious experiences that most people have. I see the world as sharper and more geometrical, and the hallucinations look almost eerie to me. Especially in the outdoors. I know many people like doing shrooms in nature but I personally hate the way nature looks on shrooms. I've tried a couple of different dosages, and several methods of ingestion and pretty much every time I get the same results (obviously with varying degrees of intensity)
I also use other psychedelics quite regularly and almost always have breathtakingly beautiful experiences.
I keep using them a.) in hopes that I might have the kind of trip other people say they have on shrooms, but mostly b.) because even though the trips aren't very enjoyable, it seems like they shake my brain up in a way that when I come down, I feel 'reset' emotionally. I don't know how to explain it other than that.
It's also probably worth noting that I really enjoy the comeup and the afterglow. The physical euphoria on the comeup is unparalleled to me, and it's during the afterglow that most of my thinking happens and the new perspectives on various aspects of my life come in. During the trip my thinking patterns are often so disrupted I can't understand my own thoughts. I think this is where the 'reset' feeling comes from.
Every time I've done shrooms they've come from the same source. They're cyans. Could this be impacting the trip? Are cyans more likely to cause anxiety than other species? Any recommendations for having better trips?
I also use other psychedelics quite regularly and almost always have breathtakingly beautiful experiences.
I keep using them a.) in hopes that I might have the kind of trip other people say they have on shrooms, but mostly b.) because even though the trips aren't very enjoyable, it seems like they shake my brain up in a way that when I come down, I feel 'reset' emotionally. I don't know how to explain it other than that.
It's also probably worth noting that I really enjoy the comeup and the afterglow. The physical euphoria on the comeup is unparalleled to me, and it's during the afterglow that most of my thinking happens and the new perspectives on various aspects of my life come in. During the trip my thinking patterns are often so disrupted I can't understand my own thoughts. I think this is where the 'reset' feeling comes from.
Every time I've done shrooms they've come from the same source. They're cyans. Could this be impacting the trip? Are cyans more likely to cause anxiety than other species? Any recommendations for having better trips?