Loveall, I really like that hypothesis. For me as well I would like to do psychedelics more than I actually do and conversely with alcohol I do it more than I would like to. Until now that is, after stopping (I hope it turns to quitting) alcohol for a while, getting to grips with nutrition, and meditating more I actually want to do the spice more. Sure the experience still gives me pre flight anxiety, but it seems more manageable now that i am starting to get my life back in order, and am working actively towards my health and peace. Also I really would like to second the advice given by others in previous posts concerning pre flight anxiety. With the spice or changa its always nice to build up the dosage, go slow and breakthrough at your own pace. Be comfortable and you decide how you want to enter the land, all at once or gradually, either way its beautiful...