Sorry freestyle English or bad english dunno why not used my mother language and translator this time.....
Booting in45
Propably all wrong set
5:20am aster morning Meditation – Just bc a loaded gun was in front of me and wanted to go for about 3 weeks already
Not really awake ye, not myself rly
Convinced myself to do it
Really heavy boot up tot he point i worried my head will explode
A Disk cam into my Face from Right before me defenitly the Entity i know the best. A Disk like an Symbolic graaved Disk. In the Mid was a circle Glowing like an Eye or was the Eye of it.
Boom Right before me this time it was Visible the whole Disk, „Do NOT RUN“ and somehow i Felt my head it stick a Finger in it on Top Right Like it wanted to Lock this one Message!
„Does not work this way“ – „Not a toy to play like nothing else to do“ – it told me this once already! But 3 Trips between which were pretty good cooperatvie and insightfull….
It searched my brain it felt and found stuff like „got dmt Realse anything to do to hand over your soul to after life“, „not like this it said“ ? not sure or was it more like, „don’t ask such stuff“ ?
I don’t want to give interpretations any more!
Specially not about the Entitys, i guess it was one thing it didn t like that i wrote to much speculation about it like yesterday. Even it obvious wasn’t the snake…. Other layer oft he realm other Entitys dunnon, who am i to say. But somewho a set of symbol styles are all over or lets say universal.
A second Disk came in in the left fiel after the Disk Transformed a Bit heaver the Point was reached the Peak will go over in more Visuals less interaction….
The second Disk was tring to give me a finger, but got shut down by the disk that was hanbling me and the disk in left was like „oh sorry shit“ and aborted the action before it really went of. Sounds so bizzare when i talk about disks like blossom of life with an eye in the middle giving a finger and they do interact like social herd….
„Not liek this!“
2 Minutes still somewhere on Peak all crashed eyes wide open fuck whats now?
Got thrown out like a chewing gum spit.
Still was hanging in the air above my Body and felt like in childhood i remembered myself but wait who am i? I was looking form my name?
Not hats my Faters name, no not my Mothers…. Oh wait i know….
Short eye close and dropped fully back to my Body.
My vison was toatally Iritate, everything was tracing like hell shit will it stay like this? Am fuckng screwed now? Almost a Panic.
It was like i was seeing heavy Purple , pink, tyrkis and more of this blue green color space different layers of realty stacked over the material world!
So freaking nothing to grasp at this moment.
I almost paniced and wanted to stay up grab a cigarette to get….
Wait „DO NOT RUN!“ – Oh…. Now i got it, and i was sure this is what it ment with it!
I checked the clock, WTF 2 Minutes…. Oh ok fully trip moment, thats why. It explained my state of beeing and i was able to chill.
I knew i wasn’t rejected bc of myself not wanted there. It was something about the moment, my body to pumped with to much other stuff, not the right intention, and few more like this….
I sat it out there for 25 more minutes….
All was clearing up and i am somewhat clearer in my head still then i ever was before in my life!
Like a present in the most weird way to imagine!
I had so heavy but neon lined artwork to see when i closed the eyes, like temples in tibet lion heads on roof tops totally in sane like hills o fit and stuff i can not put in words…..
The biggest thing i am almost sure and for sure hope at least, i can go back without getting this throw out again. Iti s all but comfortable it is like really the worst that can happen and i think other ppl really can break on this when not really ready to handle afterwards what happened, instantly.
SIT WITH IT; DO NOT OVERREACT!!!!! My advice…..
Somehow it feels like it was intended this time, since it always was a worrie for me to get rejected! Like it wanted me to get rid of it!
Like it really works with me everytime to get me growing the DMT realm or my spiritual journey or how we want to call it!
Like a direct connection to one specific entity. Thought about this already, maybe we got a specific connection to one entity or what?
Leaing it like that now, even i missed alot of what i think was going on.
But one more thing, it was sure thing that the entity didn’t leave me when i was sitting there after throw out and i mean it was managing it form me to not drive insane due to it from the moment before i entered the realm!!!
Booting in45
Propably all wrong set
5:20am aster morning Meditation – Just bc a loaded gun was in front of me and wanted to go for about 3 weeks already
Not really awake ye, not myself rly
Convinced myself to do it
Really heavy boot up tot he point i worried my head will explode
A Disk cam into my Face from Right before me defenitly the Entity i know the best. A Disk like an Symbolic graaved Disk. In the Mid was a circle Glowing like an Eye or was the Eye of it.
Boom Right before me this time it was Visible the whole Disk, „Do NOT RUN“ and somehow i Felt my head it stick a Finger in it on Top Right Like it wanted to Lock this one Message!
„Does not work this way“ – „Not a toy to play like nothing else to do“ – it told me this once already! But 3 Trips between which were pretty good cooperatvie and insightfull….
It searched my brain it felt and found stuff like „got dmt Realse anything to do to hand over your soul to after life“, „not like this it said“ ? not sure or was it more like, „don’t ask such stuff“ ?
I don’t want to give interpretations any more!
Specially not about the Entitys, i guess it was one thing it didn t like that i wrote to much speculation about it like yesterday. Even it obvious wasn’t the snake…. Other layer oft he realm other Entitys dunnon, who am i to say. But somewho a set of symbol styles are all over or lets say universal.
A second Disk came in in the left fiel after the Disk Transformed a Bit heaver the Point was reached the Peak will go over in more Visuals less interaction….
The second Disk was tring to give me a finger, but got shut down by the disk that was hanbling me and the disk in left was like „oh sorry shit“ and aborted the action before it really went of. Sounds so bizzare when i talk about disks like blossom of life with an eye in the middle giving a finger and they do interact like social herd….
„Not liek this!“
2 Minutes still somewhere on Peak all crashed eyes wide open fuck whats now?
Got thrown out like a chewing gum spit.
Still was hanging in the air above my Body and felt like in childhood i remembered myself but wait who am i? I was looking form my name?
Not hats my Faters name, no not my Mothers…. Oh wait i know….
Short eye close and dropped fully back to my Body.
My vison was toatally Iritate, everything was tracing like hell shit will it stay like this? Am fuckng screwed now? Almost a Panic.
It was like i was seeing heavy Purple , pink, tyrkis and more of this blue green color space different layers of realty stacked over the material world!
So freaking nothing to grasp at this moment.
I almost paniced and wanted to stay up grab a cigarette to get….
Wait „DO NOT RUN!“ – Oh…. Now i got it, and i was sure this is what it ment with it!
I checked the clock, WTF 2 Minutes…. Oh ok fully trip moment, thats why. It explained my state of beeing and i was able to chill.
I knew i wasn’t rejected bc of myself not wanted there. It was something about the moment, my body to pumped with to much other stuff, not the right intention, and few more like this….
I sat it out there for 25 more minutes….
All was clearing up and i am somewhat clearer in my head still then i ever was before in my life!
Like a present in the most weird way to imagine!
I had so heavy but neon lined artwork to see when i closed the eyes, like temples in tibet lion heads on roof tops totally in sane like hills o fit and stuff i can not put in words…..
The biggest thing i am almost sure and for sure hope at least, i can go back without getting this throw out again. Iti s all but comfortable it is like really the worst that can happen and i think other ppl really can break on this when not really ready to handle afterwards what happened, instantly.
SIT WITH IT; DO NOT OVERREACT!!!!! My advice…..
Somehow it feels like it was intended this time, since it always was a worrie for me to get rejected! Like it wanted me to get rid of it!
Like it really works with me everytime to get me growing the DMT realm or my spiritual journey or how we want to call it!
Like a direct connection to one specific entity. Thought about this already, maybe we got a specific connection to one entity or what?
Leaing it like that now, even i missed alot of what i think was going on.
But one more thing, it was sure thing that the entity didn’t leave me when i was sitting there after throw out and i mean it was managing it form me to not drive insane due to it from the moment before i entered the realm!!!
