Existential crisis

[Yuxibu]

Thanks for all the replies … I had this post in the back of my mind and was meaning to come back- the time away has given perspective…

I feel like DmT awakened the last part of my brain that was asleep at the wheel… I’m adhd and ASD - labels yes - but definitely have a differently wired brain…

I spoke with another friend who is into wholistic healing and alternative therapies and she spoke of us living in a simulation…
I’m not sure where everything I’ve learnt fits in anymore…

I was using the logical part of my brain to process something illogical… once I’ve started letting go of that things have made more sense.

I realise I’ve spent a huge part of my life disassociated and had started doing so again lately. I credit DMT for unlocking areas my brain shut off from trauma and healing parts that have allowed me to understand myself more … most times I came out of the trip crying and sobbing- but feeling only release.

I have discovered how intensely I am highly intuitive- to the point where I have spoken thoughts from the minds of those around me - completely unintentionally - a clairvoyance and the more I lean I to it the stronger it becomes.

DMT taught me to embrace manifestation and positivity

That is DMT for you. First you'll be 'what the..' and then you realize how life changing it is.

Sometimes having the right vocabulary can unlock things further.
Instead of simply thinking of areas of your brain think about expansion of consciousness, and with that the expansion of your perception of the world and yourself.
Specially if you spent most of your life dissociating. It's like your consciousness was atrophied and Wich causes that phenomena that the indigenous call the soul leaving the body.
And your DMT experience just crumbled the tight and damp walls encasing it. The soul retrieval.
And from what you describe that kind of healing brought its own gifts, wonderful. Just be mindful that that too has 2 sides of the coin. Sometimes it is better to integrate and refine first before drinking more from that fountain. Otherwise it can become overwhelming in its own way if it is too much to soon. If you are too open you'll become like a sponge and end up absorbing things that will not serve you in any way.

Lastly, just in case this still shakes you..
As Pandora said, so what if this is just a simulation?
Will you allow yourself to be swallowed by a nihilistic world view and feel defeated like life became meaningless just because of that?
Or take the most out of it and open up to the infinite possibilities of such realization?
Every simulation has a "coding" and every code can be cracked.
And maybe, just maybe, we all accepted coming here knowing this is a simulation.. Maybe because it is inside the simulation that we are faced with enough contrast to grow. All this myriad of sensations, from joy to pain, love, fear, sunsets, hugs, chocolate cake, an orgasm.. Giving birth! What assures you there is any of it outside the simulation?
Maybe at some level of "reality" this is all a simulation, but we are all here and our lives still go on. The world keeps spinning.
Who knows, maybe the simulation is just link between matter and spirit.

One of the first lessons I got from DMT is that all opposites coexist together in this world, light and darkness, a world where everything is so full of meaning but at the same time so utterly meaningless.. Which part of it we experience only depends on where we put our focus.

E every flows where attention goes.

(A lot of maybes here but wonder and curiosity can open many doors.)

 

[Kitty87]

That is DMT for you. First you'll be 'what the..' and then you realize how life changing it is.

Sometimes having the right vocabulary can unlock things further.
Instead of simply thinking of areas of your brain think about expansion of consciousness, and with that the expansion of your perception of the world and yourself.
Specially if you spent most of your life dissociating. It's like your consciousness was atrophied and Wich causes that phenomena that the indigenous call the soul leaving the body.
And your DMT experience just crumbled the tight and damp walls encasing it. The soul retrieval.
And from what you describe that kind of healing brought its own gifts, wonderful. Just be mindful that that too has 2 sides of the coin. Sometimes it is better to integrate and refine first before drinking more from that fountain. Otherwise it can become overwhelming in its own way if it is too much to soon. If you are too open you'll become like a sponge and end up absorbing things that will not serve you in any way.

Lastly, just in case this still shakes you..
As Pandora said, so what if this is just a simulation?
Will you allow yourself to be swallowed by a nihilistic world view and feel defeated like life became meaningless just because of that?
Or take the most out of it and open up to the infinite possibilities of such realization?
Every simulation has a "coding" and every code can be cracked.
And maybe, just maybe, we all accepted coming here knowing this is a simulation.. Maybe because it is inside the simulation that we are faced with enough contrast to grow. All this myriad of sensations, from joy to pain, love, fear, sunsets, hugs, chocolate cake, an orgasm.. Giving birth! What assures you there is any of it outside the simulation?
Maybe at some level of "reality" this is all a simulation, but we are all here and our lives still go on. The world keeps spinning.
Who knows, maybe the simulation is just link between matter and spirit.

One of the first lessons I got from DMT is that all opposites coexist together in this world, light and darkness, a world where everything is so full of meaning but at the same time so utterly meaningless.. Which part of it we experience only depends on where we put our focus.

E every flows where attention goes.

(A lot of maybes here but wonder and curiosity can open many doors.)

Yes thank you - I actually haven’t done it for months now.

I embrace the Sim… my confusion lies in conversations I’ve had since…

I’ve been told numerous things by many different people (face to face)
One narrative being that I am one of 150 people that are like the O.G humans … that I’m still alive cause it’s near impossible to kill one

That’s a hard one for me to buy into … but then it niggles at me with things like - I haven’t aged in 10 years - I literally look no different- if not better

 

[redbird]

I’ve been told numerous things by many different people (face to face)
One narrative being that I am one of 150 people that are like the O.G humans … that I’m still alive cause it’s near impossible to kill one

How do those conversations make you feel? Do they introduce lightness to your being or bog you down with more impossible questions?


There's a lot of noise out there. Even face to face convos are polluted by social media algos and other forms of mass psychosis.

There may be some truth hidden in these stories but I see a lot of people creating their own mythos these days. Part of that is the collapse of people's faith in social and religious institutions. Part of that is memetic culture, whether weaponized or naive. Part of that is what most of us here are doing, trying to make sense of apparent non-sense.

You can believe whatever you want. Some beliefs are more advantageous than others regardless of truth value.

Just be careful.
Those speaking the loudest and most declaratively tend to be taken as authoritative but that is just a mask for their own existential insecurity.
I've found the most truth sitting with those who speak in normal tones and share inquisitively in a spirit of mutual discovery.


What do you seek to gain in developing your understanding? Do you look outward because you truly believe that's where the answer lies? Or do you distrust your ability to discover it for yourself?