I'm pleased to announce that I finally broke through for the first time yesterday. I was able to repeat it two more times, going back for a total of 3 time throughout the day. The method used was a vaporizer bag with a harmala/spice mix. A friend and fellow member was walking me through my first extraction. In between the waiting steps, I went for journey. I categorize the 3 places I visited as The Courtyard, The Dancer, and The Clown/Bio-dome. I'll describe each visit below.
The first time I didn't even realize that I had broken through. I was taken through a short trip through some hallways and ended up in this courtyard area. While I didn't observe the building, I had this understanding of where I was, in this large house and that the courtyard was in the middle. I felt like I had always been here. There was no concept that this was a new place. Everything was very thick in proportion, like Michelin Man kinda thing. Movement vaguely resembled that of playing Mario 64. Not exactly, but that's was best as I can describe it. In this courtyard, there were several entities. I got the impression that they were children-ish, but with adult knowledge, if that makes sense. There was a table where they were having a tea time and wanted me to join. There was a playful dragon type entity that was being silly and wanted to show off for me. Dragon may not be the right word, not long and slender, but green and bulbous, kind of like Yoshi from Mario - not sure why the Mario reference keeps coming up but I think it's something most people will recognize. Surrounding the courtyard area, it was 2 stories, with an upper balcony and then the lower hallway/walkway with some doors along the sides. There was no sense of self. I had no concept of having a body in this place, it was as if I were simply observing through a lense, but the others were definitely glad I was there. One of them wanted to pull me around in their wagon. Finally it was time to go. We started to head down a hallway at the end of the courtyard and that's when it started to fizzle out and fall away. I finally moved my body, or realized that I had a body, and popped my eyes open. The room I was in felt so foreign. I looked at my friend(a fellow member) and realized what had happened. Still tripping hard, I was able to muster “oh my... I just broke through...” and laid back to try and make sense of everything that had just happened. I had tears rolling down my face and could help but laugh in pure astonishment. It was a beautiful experience, and one that I really hoped I could repeat. I wanted to go back there to visit my friends again...
The second time was a couple of hours later. The entry was similar in that it faded into this hallway that feathers and fractals out as it guides you in that way that DMT does. It was a familiar place. I knew that I was in that same house or whatever as I was before. I understood that the courtyard was ahead and to the left, but we turned to the right and ended up in this large open room. It was like some kind of ballroom. I got the sense that there was, or should have been, a large grand piano in the room but it was mostly empty, except for the one feminine entity that was dancing for me. The whole rest of the time was just her performing for me. The dancing was sort of reminiscent of a cross between a sensual belly dancer and the air-sock dancer guy that you see at car dealerships. A strange performance, indeed. It was another beautiful experience.
The third and final trip was after dark. We had just finished dinner and the extraction was complete for the day – just letting the naptha evap off over night. As I sat back in the chair and hit the bag, I hoped to once again go back to the same place. As I felt it taking hold and shaking away this reality, I took in that last hit and held it deep. I sunk into the chair and released as I relaxed and entered hyperspace. I came into what I understood to now be the front of the house I had been in previously. It was like a large mansion type house with stairs that led up to the house with white pillars and such. The driveway was one of brick circle drives with a large fountain in the middle. There were probably a half-dozen entities there dancing around playfully. There was like a delivery truck/van in the driveway, as one of the dancers pulled open the rear door to show me what was inside, and shut it just as fast, before I could make anything out. I kept waiting to go up the stairs and into the house, which was firward but slight to the right. We ended up going to the left which turned into a little bit of a hallway. Everything began to turn overwhelmingly white. The walls turned white, and this time my guide was long, slender clown. His face was slim with face paint similar to the classic Joker. Not scary, just playful and taking me on a tour. His clown suit was white with thin black pinstripes. At the end of his clown hat and around his cuffs and whatnot he had bright red and blue balls. It was all just part of his costume. His limbs were very long as if he were on stilts, but he was able to bend them like they were his actual limbs. He changed from walking on his 2 legs, to spidering around on all fours as we came out of the hallway into this large white room. It was all very wintery white, but enclosed. It felt like a green house with a white sandy desert environment. I don't quite remember everything that was going on in this place, but I understood that this was like... his playground. Everything was great and positive, and then right around this point there was a rather abrupt change in the music, courtesy of Pandora, which caused the whole scene to jolt out like the way the channel would change on the old number dial TVs. It instantly just cut over to this new scene where it was very dark and I could see lightning. I felt like there was a set of train tracks and there was a train speeding towards me. It was an overwhelming sense of impending doom. I was beginning to fall out at this point though. As reality began to fizzle back... I began to get up to try and change hit 'next' on Pandora but I was not yet back enough to get up and have that kind of motor control, so I laid back down on the carpet next to my bro as I tried to figure out what that meant. I think it was just the abrupt, sharp change in the music.
In the end, it was a wonderful experience. I'm happy that I am able to break through now and I'm not afraid to go back. Such a great time. Please feel free to comment or ask questions if you'd like me to expand on anything. I'll be happy to explain as best as I can.
The first time I didn't even realize that I had broken through. I was taken through a short trip through some hallways and ended up in this courtyard area. While I didn't observe the building, I had this understanding of where I was, in this large house and that the courtyard was in the middle. I felt like I had always been here. There was no concept that this was a new place. Everything was very thick in proportion, like Michelin Man kinda thing. Movement vaguely resembled that of playing Mario 64. Not exactly, but that's was best as I can describe it. In this courtyard, there were several entities. I got the impression that they were children-ish, but with adult knowledge, if that makes sense. There was a table where they were having a tea time and wanted me to join. There was a playful dragon type entity that was being silly and wanted to show off for me. Dragon may not be the right word, not long and slender, but green and bulbous, kind of like Yoshi from Mario - not sure why the Mario reference keeps coming up but I think it's something most people will recognize. Surrounding the courtyard area, it was 2 stories, with an upper balcony and then the lower hallway/walkway with some doors along the sides. There was no sense of self. I had no concept of having a body in this place, it was as if I were simply observing through a lense, but the others were definitely glad I was there. One of them wanted to pull me around in their wagon. Finally it was time to go. We started to head down a hallway at the end of the courtyard and that's when it started to fizzle out and fall away. I finally moved my body, or realized that I had a body, and popped my eyes open. The room I was in felt so foreign. I looked at my friend(a fellow member) and realized what had happened. Still tripping hard, I was able to muster “oh my... I just broke through...” and laid back to try and make sense of everything that had just happened. I had tears rolling down my face and could help but laugh in pure astonishment. It was a beautiful experience, and one that I really hoped I could repeat. I wanted to go back there to visit my friends again...
The second time was a couple of hours later. The entry was similar in that it faded into this hallway that feathers and fractals out as it guides you in that way that DMT does. It was a familiar place. I knew that I was in that same house or whatever as I was before. I understood that the courtyard was ahead and to the left, but we turned to the right and ended up in this large open room. It was like some kind of ballroom. I got the sense that there was, or should have been, a large grand piano in the room but it was mostly empty, except for the one feminine entity that was dancing for me. The whole rest of the time was just her performing for me. The dancing was sort of reminiscent of a cross between a sensual belly dancer and the air-sock dancer guy that you see at car dealerships. A strange performance, indeed. It was another beautiful experience.
The third and final trip was after dark. We had just finished dinner and the extraction was complete for the day – just letting the naptha evap off over night. As I sat back in the chair and hit the bag, I hoped to once again go back to the same place. As I felt it taking hold and shaking away this reality, I took in that last hit and held it deep. I sunk into the chair and released as I relaxed and entered hyperspace. I came into what I understood to now be the front of the house I had been in previously. It was like a large mansion type house with stairs that led up to the house with white pillars and such. The driveway was one of brick circle drives with a large fountain in the middle. There were probably a half-dozen entities there dancing around playfully. There was like a delivery truck/van in the driveway, as one of the dancers pulled open the rear door to show me what was inside, and shut it just as fast, before I could make anything out. I kept waiting to go up the stairs and into the house, which was firward but slight to the right. We ended up going to the left which turned into a little bit of a hallway. Everything began to turn overwhelmingly white. The walls turned white, and this time my guide was long, slender clown. His face was slim with face paint similar to the classic Joker. Not scary, just playful and taking me on a tour. His clown suit was white with thin black pinstripes. At the end of his clown hat and around his cuffs and whatnot he had bright red and blue balls. It was all just part of his costume. His limbs were very long as if he were on stilts, but he was able to bend them like they were his actual limbs. He changed from walking on his 2 legs, to spidering around on all fours as we came out of the hallway into this large white room. It was all very wintery white, but enclosed. It felt like a green house with a white sandy desert environment. I don't quite remember everything that was going on in this place, but I understood that this was like... his playground. Everything was great and positive, and then right around this point there was a rather abrupt change in the music, courtesy of Pandora, which caused the whole scene to jolt out like the way the channel would change on the old number dial TVs. It instantly just cut over to this new scene where it was very dark and I could see lightning. I felt like there was a set of train tracks and there was a train speeding towards me. It was an overwhelming sense of impending doom. I was beginning to fall out at this point though. As reality began to fizzle back... I began to get up to try and change hit 'next' on Pandora but I was not yet back enough to get up and have that kind of motor control, so I laid back down on the carpet next to my bro as I tried to figure out what that meant. I think it was just the abrupt, sharp change in the music.
In the end, it was a wonderful experience. I'm happy that I am able to break through now and I'm not afraid to go back. Such a great time. Please feel free to comment or ask questions if you'd like me to expand on anything. I'll be happy to explain as best as I can.
