abrelosojos
Rising Star
First thanks to everyone who participates in this forum. Your experience and knowledge has helped many of us on our voyages. Thanks to the information in this forum and probably some reddits i was able to break trhu after some attempts.
I´ve tought for a while after moving between cities for a job, that i´m ina good place in my life. Everything seems to be in order and i´m doing what is "expected". A friend of mine noticed this a year ago and started pushing my buttons to try 5-meo-dmt. I live in Mexico so you can imagine the setting and context was ritualistic.. chamanic medicien.. pheew .. i had a lot of stuff to learn.. i initially frowned upon and my mind was set that after doing lsd some years ago, i had listened to the message and hung up the phone..
In the past years i tought i worked thru a "healthy" relationship with alcohol, cocaine, tabacco.. Plain foolishness... It took a lot of insistence from my chaman friend and some stressful decisions at work to put me in a position to try the toad... Amazing. It totally changed how i perceive my life, my relationships and personal goals. But that´s another story for another forum. I ended up dosing it once every month in a half. Talking to my friends, opening up with my wife, who noticed my increased happiness baseline level.
After the first time, i needed to know more about 5-meo and NN DMT. I Needed to understand how they are not the same, as the toad was not just another form of DMT. So when somebody offered me 1 gram of changa i jumped onto the opportunity. arrived by mail and came with a lolipop pipe, i sure was eager to try it.. but was i going too deep? couldn´t matter less.. i had to do it. Then, I did not have a lot of success on my first try with a pipe and the second attempt with some rolled tobacco. After doing a second Bufo session. i just gave the changa as a gift to the chaman.
A month after the chaman called me, to help him procure some tepezcohuite based extraction. He wanted to do a ceremony called "nave de pakal" in his health retreat & temazcal. After the ceremony he told me it didn´t work & that they ended up really stoned without going nowhere. and gave me the DMT because it was trash. Well.. i was sure it wasn´t. so i needed to discover how to use it. Thanks to the nexus I bought a wax vape pen and planned to wait until the chaman finishes his tour giving bufo medicine all over Europe.
I went ahead and tried it two days ago.. the chaman would not come back at the end of july.. couldn´t wait that much.. well That pre-flight jitters were there. First time. it was an unmeasured low dose. this familiar feelings inundated me. i was probably putting too much heat, and it took me for a wild ride, couldn´t break thru. it felt so similar as the last part of a 5 meo trip. Entities working on my soul, i assumed that´s the ayahuasca plane. i felt so happy, then the phone rang and had to babble on it incoherently. which grounded me and ended the trip. notice to myself. silence the phone next time. I took a walk on the beach and hit the pool with my wife. Great way to close sunday.. 3+
My workday was uneventful, good focus. some afterglow and efforts of trying to remember. But my mind was set on finishing what i started sunday. So there i was again at 7 pm loading up the vape. with a Craig Pruess album as background. Adrenaline was pumping, i breathed in & out to calm down. and nada... unsuccesful again. the spirit of a clown was almost poking fun of me. and i had to mellow some angry toughts. Either i do it right or go home. but it just didnn´t feel right. So i didn´t measure i just eyeballed and read some "techniques" for that vape.
One or two songs passed and i was ready. Breath in, breath out. and inhale. 5 seconds, keep it 5 seconds, exhale. inhale 8 seconds, keep it 8 seconds.. exhale.. breath. relax. inhale 1,2,3,4,5....
How do i know i broke thru?? well there was a celebration. 100 of home runs happened, and we hit all the jackpots at the same time. banners and cheers. jaja incredibly silly. then some funny elves started to show me their butts, pointing at their assess. almost too graphical, while this electric energy that i´m very much in love to crossed my body.
Eyes open, with complex mandalas merging with what i assumed was reality started doing loops. nonsense. My ego returned questioning what the hell.. was im on 5-meo or what and where i was. I was having a blast and everything was so familiar. couldn´t care if what i tought was the ceiling led lamps, started popping and jumping into places behaving as it they were part of a hayao miyazaki movie.
I started to laugh about the elves pushing it a bit too much to be pornographical.. i knew it was all a joke. Probably a good 15-20 minutes had passed and felt sharp enough to continue my day. Had a business dinner with a few glasses of wine. Felt a little bad about it. But decided to not to take it too seriously. How could i?
Thanks againg to everyone!
I´ve tought for a while after moving between cities for a job, that i´m ina good place in my life. Everything seems to be in order and i´m doing what is "expected". A friend of mine noticed this a year ago and started pushing my buttons to try 5-meo-dmt. I live in Mexico so you can imagine the setting and context was ritualistic.. chamanic medicien.. pheew .. i had a lot of stuff to learn.. i initially frowned upon and my mind was set that after doing lsd some years ago, i had listened to the message and hung up the phone..
In the past years i tought i worked thru a "healthy" relationship with alcohol, cocaine, tabacco.. Plain foolishness... It took a lot of insistence from my chaman friend and some stressful decisions at work to put me in a position to try the toad... Amazing. It totally changed how i perceive my life, my relationships and personal goals. But that´s another story for another forum. I ended up dosing it once every month in a half. Talking to my friends, opening up with my wife, who noticed my increased happiness baseline level.
After the first time, i needed to know more about 5-meo and NN DMT. I Needed to understand how they are not the same, as the toad was not just another form of DMT. So when somebody offered me 1 gram of changa i jumped onto the opportunity. arrived by mail and came with a lolipop pipe, i sure was eager to try it.. but was i going too deep? couldn´t matter less.. i had to do it. Then, I did not have a lot of success on my first try with a pipe and the second attempt with some rolled tobacco. After doing a second Bufo session. i just gave the changa as a gift to the chaman.
A month after the chaman called me, to help him procure some tepezcohuite based extraction. He wanted to do a ceremony called "nave de pakal" in his health retreat & temazcal. After the ceremony he told me it didn´t work & that they ended up really stoned without going nowhere. and gave me the DMT because it was trash. Well.. i was sure it wasn´t. so i needed to discover how to use it. Thanks to the nexus I bought a wax vape pen and planned to wait until the chaman finishes his tour giving bufo medicine all over Europe.
I went ahead and tried it two days ago.. the chaman would not come back at the end of july.. couldn´t wait that much.. well That pre-flight jitters were there. First time. it was an unmeasured low dose. this familiar feelings inundated me. i was probably putting too much heat, and it took me for a wild ride, couldn´t break thru. it felt so similar as the last part of a 5 meo trip. Entities working on my soul, i assumed that´s the ayahuasca plane. i felt so happy, then the phone rang and had to babble on it incoherently. which grounded me and ended the trip. notice to myself. silence the phone next time. I took a walk on the beach and hit the pool with my wife. Great way to close sunday.. 3+
My workday was uneventful, good focus. some afterglow and efforts of trying to remember. But my mind was set on finishing what i started sunday. So there i was again at 7 pm loading up the vape. with a Craig Pruess album as background. Adrenaline was pumping, i breathed in & out to calm down. and nada... unsuccesful again. the spirit of a clown was almost poking fun of me. and i had to mellow some angry toughts. Either i do it right or go home. but it just didnn´t feel right. So i didn´t measure i just eyeballed and read some "techniques" for that vape.
One or two songs passed and i was ready. Breath in, breath out. and inhale. 5 seconds, keep it 5 seconds, exhale. inhale 8 seconds, keep it 8 seconds.. exhale.. breath. relax. inhale 1,2,3,4,5....
How do i know i broke thru?? well there was a celebration. 100 of home runs happened, and we hit all the jackpots at the same time. banners and cheers. jaja incredibly silly. then some funny elves started to show me their butts, pointing at their assess. almost too graphical, while this electric energy that i´m very much in love to crossed my body.
Eyes open, with complex mandalas merging with what i assumed was reality started doing loops. nonsense. My ego returned questioning what the hell.. was im on 5-meo or what and where i was. I was having a blast and everything was so familiar. couldn´t care if what i tought was the ceiling led lamps, started popping and jumping into places behaving as it they were part of a hayao miyazaki movie.
I started to laugh about the elves pushing it a bit too much to be pornographical.. i knew it was all a joke. Probably a good 15-20 minutes had passed and felt sharp enough to continue my day. Had a business dinner with a few glasses of wine. Felt a little bad about it. But decided to not to take it too seriously. How could i?
Thanks againg to everyone!
