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Rising Star
Recently I've had my first 5-Meo-DMT experience. Here is a quick summary:
Dose: 10mg synthesized
Time of day: Early evening
Setting: One guide/facilitator with several witnesses and camera documenting
I had only a piece dry cracker in late morning and had no tea/coffee or other substances. I drank water when needed. There were other people around while the session was one-on-one with few people standby witnessing. The temperature was a bit chill but had enough warm clothes and blankets. I was able to sit and meditate a little while there were other people around talking quietly. First I was sitting on the mat and we had a practice run with herbs. Then after a few deep breathes, I inhale the white smoke from pipe. The smoke was even less harsh than dmt and I was able to inhale all the smoke and held in my lungs. Then the facilitator slowly lower me to lay down on the mat.
Within a few seconds with closed eyes, I see faint purple fractals and then all of a sudden (I was in a void, completely returned to the source while the body does its own things) then at one point everything went white. IMO maybe because I was already mentally ready to let go and accept, the entry was easier than dmt as dmt takes around 5 seconds to fully enter in some of my experiences. Or because it was so fast there wasn't any time for ego to even resist. So everything went extremely fast. I felt I had full awareness of the whole time, but looking back, talked to people and saw a bit of the video I feel there was a portion in the beginning for whatever reason either I cannot remember or I was actually merged back into non-duality where my awareness was no longer there, but I cannot say for sure.
What I do remember was that I was in this white space, felt like a very long time, but also very short where the white space wasn't really touched by time. I was reviewing and looking through scenes of myself though really fast but I somehow at some point got the theme and the life lesson I'm suppose to learn and grow out of at this point in life. There is a sense of intelligence(s) around me but I did not visually or verbally perceive any particular being. It was at that point when I understood the lesson, and it was this instant clarity that I had a spontaneous release and joy with laughters. It was both in the alter white space and physical space. I was laughing together with the divine and laughing together with the facilitator. I was existing in two places at the same time! I wouldn't know if not for the video and witnesses' accounts that I was moving in synchronized ways as if energy was coursing through me in some sort of intelligent movements. [Caution: It was a very good decision to partake 5meo with the support of facilitator and group. Because right after I laid down, in a few seconds I started doing lots of movements and even stand up moving around doing yogic sequences of some sort. At the same time my consciousness/awareness was in a completely different space. It could be potentially risky if I try to take 5me by myself.]
Toward the end of the journey suddenly I perceived this single point pure awareness where I am in the totality of the NOW. Wow, that is the moment I am completely become aware of existence in a pure sense. It's probably pointless to discuss this on an intellectual level because one can describe how tasty an apple is but only when you taste it then you'd know... So, all I can say is that I touched that pure awareness and it was an unimaginable joy to be awaken in such a way. Even looking back I feel so much emotions swelling up. Hmm, wo w... there. is. no. words. to describe.
However, right after I awaken and sit up, hugging the facilitator who has became an old guide who was to guide me to my rebirth. I suddenly sense this realization is fading so quick that I had to go right into meditation and retain whatever I could from the journey. I have newfound respect to this God molecule that has tremendous power as a catalyst to transform. In 15 minutes I worked through the stuffs that'd take me years of inner work or more! I'm so grateful to be able to enter this realm of possibility with the molecule. Truly blessed to have received such gift. My eternal gratitude and here I share my experience so please make sure the surrounding is safe for you to walk around blindly because it's possible, like me, in two realms at once.
I'll take my insights and work on integrating and implementing into my daily life. I know somehow, when the time is right, I will return for deeper work.
Dose: 10mg synthesized
Time of day: Early evening
Setting: One guide/facilitator with several witnesses and camera documenting
I had only a piece dry cracker in late morning and had no tea/coffee or other substances. I drank water when needed. There were other people around while the session was one-on-one with few people standby witnessing. The temperature was a bit chill but had enough warm clothes and blankets. I was able to sit and meditate a little while there were other people around talking quietly. First I was sitting on the mat and we had a practice run with herbs. Then after a few deep breathes, I inhale the white smoke from pipe. The smoke was even less harsh than dmt and I was able to inhale all the smoke and held in my lungs. Then the facilitator slowly lower me to lay down on the mat.
Within a few seconds with closed eyes, I see faint purple fractals and then all of a sudden (I was in a void, completely returned to the source while the body does its own things) then at one point everything went white. IMO maybe because I was already mentally ready to let go and accept, the entry was easier than dmt as dmt takes around 5 seconds to fully enter in some of my experiences. Or because it was so fast there wasn't any time for ego to even resist. So everything went extremely fast. I felt I had full awareness of the whole time, but looking back, talked to people and saw a bit of the video I feel there was a portion in the beginning for whatever reason either I cannot remember or I was actually merged back into non-duality where my awareness was no longer there, but I cannot say for sure.
What I do remember was that I was in this white space, felt like a very long time, but also very short where the white space wasn't really touched by time. I was reviewing and looking through scenes of myself though really fast but I somehow at some point got the theme and the life lesson I'm suppose to learn and grow out of at this point in life. There is a sense of intelligence(s) around me but I did not visually or verbally perceive any particular being. It was at that point when I understood the lesson, and it was this instant clarity that I had a spontaneous release and joy with laughters. It was both in the alter white space and physical space. I was laughing together with the divine and laughing together with the facilitator. I was existing in two places at the same time! I wouldn't know if not for the video and witnesses' accounts that I was moving in synchronized ways as if energy was coursing through me in some sort of intelligent movements. [Caution: It was a very good decision to partake 5meo with the support of facilitator and group. Because right after I laid down, in a few seconds I started doing lots of movements and even stand up moving around doing yogic sequences of some sort. At the same time my consciousness/awareness was in a completely different space. It could be potentially risky if I try to take 5me by myself.]
Toward the end of the journey suddenly I perceived this single point pure awareness where I am in the totality of the NOW. Wow, that is the moment I am completely become aware of existence in a pure sense. It's probably pointless to discuss this on an intellectual level because one can describe how tasty an apple is but only when you taste it then you'd know... So, all I can say is that I touched that pure awareness and it was an unimaginable joy to be awaken in such a way. Even looking back I feel so much emotions swelling up. Hmm, wo w... there. is. no. words. to describe.
However, right after I awaken and sit up, hugging the facilitator who has became an old guide who was to guide me to my rebirth. I suddenly sense this realization is fading so quick that I had to go right into meditation and retain whatever I could from the journey. I have newfound respect to this God molecule that has tremendous power as a catalyst to transform. In 15 minutes I worked through the stuffs that'd take me years of inner work or more! I'm so grateful to be able to enter this realm of possibility with the molecule. Truly blessed to have received such gift. My eternal gratitude and here I share my experience so please make sure the surrounding is safe for you to walk around blindly because it's possible, like me, in two realms at once.
I'll take my insights and work on integrating and implementing into my daily life. I know somehow, when the time is right, I will return for deeper work.
great it resonates ~
