It's been a long time since i last sat with spice. The first time i was introduced to dimitri was on the side of a hill watching the sun rise on a beautiful August day. I didn't break through my first couple times until now. Today, i received some long awaited dmt and loaded a small amount to vape to get my barrings in the other world. I took the hit, held in, held in, held in, and blew out. The intensification of colors forced my eyes closed and i saw a being made up of the most unusual patterning. he held me tight as trying to "condition" me in the new space that i hadnt been in since the last time i did dmt many many months ago. I could watch him hold me and see all these crazy patterns and hear crazy noises that sounded like their language. I opened my eyes and went outside for a cig.
Came back into my bedroom and decided i wanted to go further. I took an even bigger hit this time and BAMM!!!!!!!! Was right back where i left off but this time i wasnt being held. i was being examined by the creature and he was talking sooo much louder. this alien language i couldnt understand and cannot begin to describe. I was being shown this room. In the room the being was picking bodies out of boxes and moving them around. While doing this he was trying to tell me what he does which is like what i do at my day job. I work with older macbooks. we get them coming in all dirty and sometimes broken and we clean them, wipe the hard drives and repackage and resell them.Pretty much i refurbish Macs all day. The being was telling me this is what he does to old souls of people who have died. They come in dirty and broken from the pain of the earth and he cleans them wipes their memory and repackages them to be sent back down into newborn babies to begin the life/death cycle all over again. He then took a look at me and examined me. i could feel him poking and prodding at me, reading my mind, my purpose. I could feel him programming the souls with their path in life and purpose. I couldnt believe what i was seeing. All these souls of humans coming in and out. It reminded me of the animatrix where the machines experiment on human survivors from the machine war. I very loudly asked the being WHY he was taking these humans and repackaging them and he looked at me, put all of his attention on me. Spoke very loudly like he was angry and said Who Are You to Ask Me Why I Do What I've Always Done! You Were Here Once. I Packaged You Up. Sent You Down To Earth. This is What I DO!!!!! It go very intense and i had to open my eyes. I jumped out of my room and went outside. The visuals were still insane and i closed my eyes again and things were much more peaceful.
I think i need to have a breakthrough out in the woods, out in nature. Being in my enclosed room, by myself was TOO MUCH Attention. This has seriously fucked with my head in ways I can't even comprehend. I was raised in the Christian Church and what I saw goes against everything I have ever believed about what happens when we die and where we go. This is only my first time breaking through and I know in the future I will be shown more of what goes on "up there", but for now I can barely integrate what I just saw. I Do Now Fully Believe in Reincarnation tho....BIZARE!
Came back into my bedroom and decided i wanted to go further. I took an even bigger hit this time and BAMM!!!!!!!! Was right back where i left off but this time i wasnt being held. i was being examined by the creature and he was talking sooo much louder. this alien language i couldnt understand and cannot begin to describe. I was being shown this room. In the room the being was picking bodies out of boxes and moving them around. While doing this he was trying to tell me what he does which is like what i do at my day job. I work with older macbooks. we get them coming in all dirty and sometimes broken and we clean them, wipe the hard drives and repackage and resell them.Pretty much i refurbish Macs all day. The being was telling me this is what he does to old souls of people who have died. They come in dirty and broken from the pain of the earth and he cleans them wipes their memory and repackages them to be sent back down into newborn babies to begin the life/death cycle all over again. He then took a look at me and examined me. i could feel him poking and prodding at me, reading my mind, my purpose. I could feel him programming the souls with their path in life and purpose. I couldnt believe what i was seeing. All these souls of humans coming in and out. It reminded me of the animatrix where the machines experiment on human survivors from the machine war. I very loudly asked the being WHY he was taking these humans and repackaging them and he looked at me, put all of his attention on me. Spoke very loudly like he was angry and said Who Are You to Ask Me Why I Do What I've Always Done! You Were Here Once. I Packaged You Up. Sent You Down To Earth. This is What I DO!!!!! It go very intense and i had to open my eyes. I jumped out of my room and went outside. The visuals were still insane and i closed my eyes again and things were much more peaceful.
I think i need to have a breakthrough out in the woods, out in nature. Being in my enclosed room, by myself was TOO MUCH Attention. This has seriously fucked with my head in ways I can't even comprehend. I was raised in the Christian Church and what I saw goes against everything I have ever believed about what happens when we die and where we go. This is only my first time breaking through and I know in the future I will be shown more of what goes on "up there", but for now I can barely integrate what I just saw. I Do Now Fully Believe in Reincarnation tho....BIZARE!
