First time Phamahusca - closed eye visual perseveration - closed eye doubling

[CataractSurgeon]

I did my first ever oral DMT yesterday- as always - DMT WOW

1- empty stomach

2- Harmine Hcl 150mg and THH Hcl 400 mg in a little apple tea and I felt it in minutes -

3- 50 min later 120 mg freebase DMT dissolved in citric acid Apple tea and fully dissolved down the hatch

4- walked to beach so happy -colors popping -so many shades of green damn ! - I’m usually in my room for trips - me and ego man in perfect happy harmony - almost zero come up anxiety seeing entities in my closed eye within 15 min on my short walk - super happy

5- got to beach 25-30 min post DMT and started to feel it very heavy - anxiety rising

6- sat down on towel - crazy glare and hot - put on long pants and shirt to not get burned - this is at 3pm

7- closed eye super strong amazing visuals - lots of entities faces of all types - no interaction I was aware of - some huge faces - seeing stuff I’ve seen on IM and vape and new stuff like parallel line grids warping into space - wow

8- baseline anxiety frustrating - one time around a panic loop and jumped right off - what am I gonna do? Run down beach yelling? lol- no.

9- went in deep as and vape or IM sub breakthrough trip - floating in inner space with the hurricane visuals and lite strobing I have described before - both awestruck and anxious same time - my visuals start to overlap on themselves like tracers but more like doubling of my own visuals - not making me any more anxious than I already was so I just kept leaning in looking -

10 - lots of self talk - tons of useful insights - anxiety annoying on and off - time loop sensation which I’ve never had before but didn’t scare me as I read about it - weird like I was repeating my actions and thoughts as waves of dmt went up and down

11- I kept referring to myself as “we “ or “us” spontaneously- like it was just normal -

12- too much bargaining / self ego talk vs just observing it - a lot of back and forth - is this harmine effect?

At 2 hrs post DMT ingestion it just ended leaving me with that THH coolness and massive euphoria for hours

So this is my thing - visual hurricanes at peaks and visual perseveration and some strobing - I don’t know yet if it’s gonna happen on IM or vape DMT alone or it’s a harmine thing

So quick - felt forever - I’ll pass on beach next time - incredibly strong

 

[CataractSurgeon]

AI tells me there’s lots of research and reports that this blackout is caused for several days post high dose THH- this makes sense with it being a SRI but what a strong effect - keep light on ! Freaky with light off to feel the DMT effects but see almost nothing - it’s almost like the sensation of what blindness must be - I hope by 5 days the THH is out of my system

 

[CataractSurgeon]

A week later I’m still mostly blacked out sheesh - heavy body load from dmt - euphoria etc - almost nothing visual - I really overdid the THH several days in a row - I had no idea it’s like having used an ssri I guess - sucks- I had no idea - cool experiment I guess