First time was 30 minutes ago - very deep, met an entity!

[FallingAwake]

I used a hand-bubbler with melted DMT on a bundle of stainless steel wool (burned prior to remove all the weird chemicals). I followed a technique I read online and tried to hit it several times keeping the lighter 2-3 inches away from the bowl in order to not burn the DMT. After two failed hits I began to let the flame lick the wool every now and again and all of a sudden I could taste the DMT, I was getting a hit. After my first good hit, I said to my friend "it's working". I did the same thing again for my second hit and held it in for a good bit of time. When I exhaled, a lot of smoke was visible. I thought that the combination of my failed hits with these two big ones would be enough, and besides I felt myself handing my pipe over to my friend and silently nodding to him- I'm leaving.

I sat back and closed my eyes. I heard one last note of the sitar music I had playing play and it got caught in my perception as the sound shaped a white outline of the edges of my visual reality being closed in on one another like a paper snowflake being folded one side after another in upon itself over from every direction.

After 10 or so of these perceptual folds occurring an orange and red checkerboard/fractal began to spiral in front of me but I was completely enveloped in it. I felt like I was falling, in a way- falling away from one thing but deeper and deeper into the sound and visual field of the spiraling space.

I had thoughts like "wow it's happening, no turning back now", I also had the thought "I love you" running over and over in my head. I felt a strong sense of stress as to how overwhelming and enveloping the spiraling space was.

Every now and again I could hear pieces of the sitar music escaping into my perception and it was warped in the spiral along with my other senses. I am sad to report it had a somewhat ominous sound. In hindsight I should have played music I really loved, instead of basing my music selection on someone else's trip report online.

Then I heard what sounded like my right ear pop/decompressing/pressurizing, then began to hear the tell-tale "carrier-tone" begin as a small sound coming from my right ear and then fully encompassing my hearing for a quick moment. I thought to myself, "that's definitely the tone McKenna talked about, now I think something is supposed to happen after that"…

I kind of just stayed in the space though and felt mild feelings of fear/worry. That was when I felt the presence of an "entity" come to me. It was oval shaped and came very close to what would be the right part of my face. It was translucent and resembled a jelly fish with purple edges and a deep red center. It did not communicate with me in any way, but seemed to be "considering" me. I thought to myself/it, "I obviously submit to you, I have no idea what you are, but I come from a place of love and appreciate you being gentle with me".

It hovered near me for a while and I noticed that I could hear my breathing again. I was coming back. After a while i stayed with my eyes closed and asked my friend if he was there. He responded "yes" and I opened my eyes- back in my room.

 

[FallingAwake]

Also forgot to mention that during the initial phase I got a very strong body-gasm type feeling, not sexual, but like every cell in my being had been supercharged or was flowing with energy.

It's definitely apparent I was caught in the "chrysanthemum" area, and I think that at one point I even said to myself "okay this is enough"...

Not exactly disappointed, but kind wish I wasn't so scared to let go!


I think next time I'll know what to expect more so that is a good thing :]


Question: There is definitely a lot of DMT left on the wool after me and my friend's 4 total hits (100mg total was melted onto it): how long can I wait to hit it again without the DMT "going bad" or the equivalent? I was thinking of trying again tomorrow.

 

[voyaj]

Sounds like fun.

I would be very careful hitting the wool again. The spice will be sticking around and at this point you have no idea of how much is clinging on. I am sure someone else will have better advice, my advice is to take very small hits holding in each one until you are there instead of hitting it as one normally would knowing the dose.

Otherwise be prepared for a breakthrough and in my opinion a breakthrough is nothing to toy with unless you feel as though you are absolutely ready.

 

[FallingAwake]

Sounds like fun.

I would be very careful hitting the wool again. The spice will be sticking around and at this point you have no idea of how much is clinging on. I am sure someone else will have better advice, my advice is to take very small hits holding in each one until you are there instead of hitting it as one normally would knowing the dose.

Otherwise be prepared for a breakthrough and in my opinion a breakthrough is nothing to toy with unless you feel as though you are absolutely ready.

Thanks for the feedback dude! I was definitely looking for a breakthrough experience, have had them on LSD and 2-CE, and my friend in fact had one tonight with the very wool we speak of. Not to say or assume that this will be anything like that of course...

I noticed in a senior member's thread he mentions using 100mg period for a breakthrough experience, therefore my main concern would only be not having enough :]

 

[voyaj]

One hundred mg is a huge dose. I would never suggest that to anyone.

I have had breakthroughs on even thirty mg. Maybe I am a lightweight for this experience but I read fifty is a standard breakthrough dose and I had some very scary but ultimately beneficial breakthrough doses on that level. But, again, I knew what I had loaded. And it was enough to forget I had ever taken a drug and woke up in another realm. Was really something else. I really feel like this is a minimalist drug... lesser has more significance. There is a fine line between absolute chaos and harmony. Strive for that harmony, work up to it.

Usually people say to clean the mechanism before each session. I understand that you probably don't want to do that, I probably wouldn't haha which is why in my opinion you should ease your way in with smaller hits. Or if you want a breakthrough put the wool aside and load a measured dose and then come back later and hit that wool carefully.

 

[DMTree]

100mg is definitely not required for such an experience. I have seen reports where people will load up that amount and toke until they know they are ready, but this is not advised for an individual who just began their relationship with the molecule.

Sounds like you had a meaningful first experience and I'm sure you will continue to find yourself in a state of awe and hopefully a spiritual connection as you continue to learn more about yourself alongside this wonderful substance.

A breakthrough is a whole different ballgame imo, keep calm. Also, meditation always helps me before a deep voyage; by centering yourself and calming your mind- this is what will put you in the correct mindset. Also harness that feeling of "i love you." It can show you beautiful and horrific things, just know that no matter what, the real message is exactly that: love. For better or worse the molecule will teach you something important.

On a side note, I saw a post here where someone claimed dmt gave them pains in their head a few months after their experience. Alot of people pointed out an interesting thing, that maybe the molecule was showing him/her that they have something wrong with them and should seek medical help.
In other words, the dmt did not cause the pain, but possibly exemplified the now apparent fact that something had always been wrong. Just something I found interesting that slightly relates to the benefits of the molecule held under a negative light.

Safe voyages in the future my friend.

Good vibes, Good thoughts

DMTree

 

[FallingAwake]

Thanks DMTree!

I should have mentioned, I led me and my friend through a yoga session prior to me preparing the bowl, and then he led us through a meditation right before I took my first steps :]

Based on your advice I'm glad it sounds like we were on the right track!

My main fear was encountering evil/demonic type entities with a breakthrough, so in a way I'm glad I held back, and am also grateful I was able to encounter a curious guy floating around... Although he wasn't scary, it's presence definitely gave an impression of something in my mind like, "hey dude this is your turf, and I certainly don't mean any disrespect"...

It's funny, now I can't remember if "I love you" was a mantra I was saying to myself and to the experience as a way to affirm my intentions, or if it was a statement given to me by the experience to state *it's* intentions :surprised


So if I go back to the bowl tomorrow, should I be able use it for traveling w/o a problem then?

EDIT: to clarify, the wool originally had 100mg melted on to it, so if I took two hits and a sub-breakthrough experience, and my friend took two hits and broke through, it's safe to say there is probably 30-40mg or less left on the wool right? I definitely wouldn't be hitting a 100mg dose.