Freaked out

[Dankenstien10]

Ok to get to the point I would say I've got decent experience with smoking dmt (more than a 4 years) in which I've had some amazing experiences which have changed me as a person and my perception of reality. However I'm now freaked out by it and it's really unsettled me, basically I did it about a week ago and I cleary felt heavy effects with my eyes open, however when I closed my eyes I saw nothing, just blackness, I was in denial about this and let it go as some weird one off. So tonight I just did it again because its bothered me the past week and the same thing happened with a slight difference. I took as big a hit as I could and felt exactly how I've felt when I've had the best experiences of my life but again when I closed my eyes I found only blackness, except this time there was an aggressive presence basic telling me to fuck off and that I'm not welcome anymore, no visuals at all just a knowing that I'm basically finished. It's as if i have been blocked from ever having closed eye visuals again. I don't abuse the substance (probably 5 times a year max) I feel really freaked out by this as if I've done something wrong in my life to just be cut off. I really don't understand what's going on. I know the dmt is good, my method is good so I just don't get it. Has anyone else had this experience or can shed any light on what's going on? Cheers guys

 

[Northerner]

There's lot's of threads with people talking about being cut off, search the term "shut out". I've experienced it myself. Just like you, being told to go away. Left in a swirling blackness with no colour. No immediately apparent reason.

It's all in your mind. There's some part of you that just doesn't want to trip right now and is protecting you, if you look inside the answer is there.

 

[Asher7]

If you continue to be cut off you could always take one for the team and play guinea pig to see whether or not taking it orally is still effective. In all the "I got cut off" threads I've read so far I can't recall anyone answering if taking it orally still works.