Can Still taste that oily rez staining my lips. And shits still pretty weird(I swear a lot in my common speech, and I’ve been really striving to not curse here on the forums. However, that thought is making me feel restrained right now so I’m going to go ahead and let out whatever swear words happen to flow during the following explanation.
That was the epically awesome trip I had wanted earlier. I’m extremely just overjoyed I ventured through the veil. I typically do eyes open trips with eyes closed spaced sometimes during these, I’d say 85% of the time my eyes are open though. Eyes open, sitting in chair, took three very deep hits, first one tasted like parsley a lot, but dragged for a sec, after exhale already tripping, can’t stop and look around yet, feel pretty sad about that fact, take the next hit, aleady forgetting about breathing and pipes and the fact that I need to hit the spice to get here at all, when I’m there it feels like I’ve always been there, a thousand million years, and the fact that I’m holding a smoldering chillum with dmt residue is just like a non-sequiter like what the fuck is this thing for, pffft, should probably throw this away, don’t need that, but I fought all these thoughts in what must have been only ten seconds, exhaled a HUGE cloud of smoke and found I delighted in the taste. Really struggling I took the wriggling piece of glass that was vibrating with colors and geo fractals and took the lighter to it, it tasted...diesely, but in a good way. I really found myself enjoying the taste, which usually I don’t particularly care for. While holding this third and final hit in I allowed myself to fully become aware of what was happening around me and was immediatley astounded!!!! I exhaled, through the chillum and lighter and power object away so I could be free from anything and everything. I’ve been pussy footing around this bush here cause the next part is just the hardest part, nothing makes sense after my logical mind let go and said, go with it, you did your part and got three deep rips in, now just enjoy. So it was like a light show, every like theres squares in my design of living room, and they were just all dazzling with vibrant greens reds and oranges ,and changing to like blues yellows and rich burgandys. All in these checkerboarding patterns across everything. The other couch and chair both were dazzling colors too but already the images are fading and I can’t recall their colors. This trip was LONG at least 18 minutes of which most all of them were peak, come down was VERY like quick, one second peaking, next was like back to normal, no noticeable lingering after effects, after posting this I need cigarettes. There were pinpoints of light, that moved independtly of the furniture and colored squares that were flashing in various neon and deep colors(I’m partially color blind, red/green), but on DMT I see vivid what I believe to be reds and greens which I’ve never before seen in waking reality. I looked into my kitchen, similar colorful patterns emerged on the dishes and garbage cluttering the far counter(college house and all...), anyway, then what seemed like a hundred thousand thoughts all hit my brain all at once, vast information like my supercomputer potential unleased, in the zone of thinking, was crazy, realized I’ve been a little withdrawn lately, that I need to get in touch with my very good friend whom I’ve been neglecting, noticing the colorful green light from the cieling reflect off of the shimmering ivory opal empty milk jug I realized that I needed a cigarette, but that they were very bad to smoke, and they kill me very slowly and that if I didn’t smoke cigarettes my longs and throat would tolerate the spice vapor better, and I’d stop getting black lung, and cardiovascular issues, and etc. Anyways, so I said something to that affect out loud, or tried to, came out more or less like smoke no bad ciggarettes you no should do cigarettes anymore cause bad bad bad. So I was like alright, but I still feel the desire in my brain for one and stuff, and maybe I should try to walk to the gas station and get some its only couple blocks, oh but im tripping my fucking balls off, and I’d probably get in there and be like HOLY SHIT everything here is miraculous and you workers are all looking pretty heroic right now, and I just love everything, and I dont even remember why im here but thanks for being great. And so then I decided against that and started looking back into the living room where things were still entirely too crazy to even begin to comprehend any form of like pattern even, just random colors but like reaility was still here, and not really fractally, more in tact, the squares were like the same places each time, but with so many colors, colors colors, was a huge theme of this. So then I noted that this had been going on a long time, and that I’d been doing a very bad job of my usual mental note taking during trips, there was something in the air in front of me but I have no memory now of what it looked like or was. There was ground, tiles in kitchen like were swapping with each other by hopping over one another, I remember thinking leap frog. Then I laughed really long time outloud at something, and was very happy to have had such a long and enjoyable experience. Then it kept going, similar visuals, and etc, and I remember sensing that the spice was giving me ample time to absorb and collect the information I wanted to gather, like it was making up for teasing me the trip before this. I really was appreciative, and honestly felt close to tears by how happy I was feeling at this point from this amazing impressive super beautiful cascade of images and colors that I had been given access too. And enough time that I feel amazing about it, and don’t feel the need to go again for a while. Good and set.
This is long, and incredibly disjointed. I’m sorry, just wanted to get it up before I eat some leftover Jimmy Johns and crash. I promise to edit this and my previous report sometime before tomorrow 8pm.
Thanks again Nexus for all your support. Incredibly excited to be part of the continued work that happens here.
