Hello fellow seekers

[ledsmoke]

Hello everyone, I've been undergoing my psychedelic journey for about 2 years now and have recently hit limbo. I came here hoping for advice and to gain knowledge into the greater depths of ourselves. I woke up and feel I touched enlightenment after a depression and thorough psychedelic use which helped me view myself. I realized this is our dream and our perception of reality we have to play with. For once I figured out awareness and being present. I had no doubts only looking forward. This community seems to be a beautiful place for sharing our experiences and learning from each other.

My recent predicament is I have lost my moment or flow with the moment, I constantly am questioning my own thoughts, beliefs, and psychoanalyzing myself. I keep bouncing through different perceptions of reality and I feel the mind which I once felt I had freed/hacked I have now locked down more than ever and seemingly feel I have lost my intelligence with it. Among this I feel my identity constantly changing. Thoughts are bouncing around to memories and things I forgot ever happened. I have tried being introspective without luck. Numb is how I would describe it.
I think fear of losing enlightenment or the moment took me from it as fear can not be made there.

Sorry for the negativity but I figured this community might have some helpful advice.

 

[Bugsy233]

this sounds familiar to my story only 2 years ago, id been questioning my thoughts and sanity after a bad break up. for about a year things got darker... until one late Friday night/Saturday morning 4 mates and myself found ourselves absolutely tripping balls walking along a dark beach. there was no light but the ever so slight reflection of the stars on the shore ahead, it was at this point i had the first of many epiphanys. I relised that even tho i could not see where i was or where i was going, i could hear my mates, and we kept eachother on the right track...

sooner it became twighlight and as the liquid set in stronger waves the sky opened up a new day and there i was, surounded by my 4 best mates, covered in sand, laughing and pointing out the crazy things we could see to each other.(like true god i could see the statue of liberty blueprints rolling behind the clouds).(as people started to emerge walking thier dogs along the beach... that realy was the turning point away from the dark headspace i created myself for too long...

i dont know weather this helps, but i hope it does, I found that all it takes is to be around close friends and family, and with the right key to the lock we can change our current outlook and mindsets. i find that lisergic substances that arnt so "out of this world psychedelic" can have a long lasting impression on everyday life when used as a treatment for depression... i hope my story aids u in your journey.