edge2054
Rising Star
It took me awhile to come to understand them. It started with the gnomes, playful entities that expressed love and joy. Then it was my anxiety which I first encountered on DMT as a writhing little maggot but that I managed to confront and appreciate on a mushroom trip. Then I encountered a loving female presence while on Rue + smoked DMT followed by a dark raging entity trapped behind a thin fleshy film.
A couple of days later while on LSD I realized I'd been repressing anger towards my father and called him to let him know how I feel. This was when I started to put the pieces together.
As I see it the gnomes are my inner child, long forgotten but now remembered. The writhing thing my anxiety which I hadn't been paying attention too, long underappreciated. The loving female entity (mother Gaia as I came to think of her) was my anima, or the female aspect of myself. The raging entity was anger I repressed for thirty years (fully justified anger by the way).
After this I started to work on reconnecting with my emotions.
On my most recent expedition, first time with oral DMT, I encountered a dark entity in a trench coat wearing a hat who would pop in, says something, and then pop out. I realized that he was the skeptical part of myself and that he serves a purpose, to keep me grounded. I also encountered the predator aspect of myself, which was quite terrifying at first. I moved into it and explored it so I would be better able to recognize him when he pops up in daily life.
Basically I have this theory that when we repress our feelings we're too busy fighting them to recognize them and that that's when we're in danger of getting carried away by them. When we stop, ask ourselves why they exist, what they're trying to tell us, and accept that they're part of the human condition we can relax, appreciate them for what they are, and integrate them back into ourselves.
Or to put it in more mystical terms. You 'combat' dark entities with love, acceptance, and appreciation. Then the demons really become angels.
A couple of days later while on LSD I realized I'd been repressing anger towards my father and called him to let him know how I feel. This was when I started to put the pieces together.
As I see it the gnomes are my inner child, long forgotten but now remembered. The writhing thing my anxiety which I hadn't been paying attention too, long underappreciated. The loving female entity (mother Gaia as I came to think of her) was my anima, or the female aspect of myself. The raging entity was anger I repressed for thirty years (fully justified anger by the way).
After this I started to work on reconnecting with my emotions.
On my most recent expedition, first time with oral DMT, I encountered a dark entity in a trench coat wearing a hat who would pop in, says something, and then pop out. I realized that he was the skeptical part of myself and that he serves a purpose, to keep me grounded. I also encountered the predator aspect of myself, which was quite terrifying at first. I moved into it and explored it so I would be better able to recognize him when he pops up in daily life.
Basically I have this theory that when we repress our feelings we're too busy fighting them to recognize them and that that's when we're in danger of getting carried away by them. When we stop, ask ourselves why they exist, what they're trying to tell us, and accept that they're part of the human condition we can relax, appreciate them for what they are, and integrate them back into ourselves.
Or to put it in more mystical terms. You 'combat' dark entities with love, acceptance, and appreciation. Then the demons really become angels.