I am still processing what happened. There really are no words, are there? I didn't even write it down afterwards because how on earth do you explain what happened? I will try my best though.
On my threshold doses whenever I looked down there was an infinity tunnel with neon lights in a grid pattern like a maths book but with rectangles instead of squares, and I felt like that if I broke through that was where I would go. And I did go there. Only it was spinning, not just around and around, the whole tube was moving like somebody doing fancy moves with a sword and there were more tunnels going off of it, so I was being thrown down through tunnel after tunnel after tunnel. I haven't read many trip reports before now as people recommend you don't before a breakthrough. Someone said it was like they were inside the fabric of reality as it was being torn apart, and although that idea didn't occur to me at the time, in retrospect after reading the report it feels like that. The walls were lined with cogs, a bright green neon cog wherever the lines meet, there were others too but they were transparent. It was everything working together in harmony as it should, delicate and balanced and there is me just crashing into it. I lost myself. I felt like this trip was my life path, I was moving fast through a stream, I was this vortex of underwater energy spinning out of control and ruining stuff. The presence of the universe was there in the background and despite what it was doing to me she was neutral, there was just the tiniest hint of disapproval although not much it has still literally put the fear of god into me.
Afterwards all light was rainbow, real light is rainbows, light as it truly is beyond our human perception (without prisms and actual rainbow). It made me feel like I was seeing reality as it really is, I can even see light for what it really is.
All in all, the whole experience totally fucked my head and I never want to go back again. But I know I will go back.
On my threshold doses whenever I looked down there was an infinity tunnel with neon lights in a grid pattern like a maths book but with rectangles instead of squares, and I felt like that if I broke through that was where I would go. And I did go there. Only it was spinning, not just around and around, the whole tube was moving like somebody doing fancy moves with a sword and there were more tunnels going off of it, so I was being thrown down through tunnel after tunnel after tunnel. I haven't read many trip reports before now as people recommend you don't before a breakthrough. Someone said it was like they were inside the fabric of reality as it was being torn apart, and although that idea didn't occur to me at the time, in retrospect after reading the report it feels like that. The walls were lined with cogs, a bright green neon cog wherever the lines meet, there were others too but they were transparent. It was everything working together in harmony as it should, delicate and balanced and there is me just crashing into it. I lost myself. I felt like this trip was my life path, I was moving fast through a stream, I was this vortex of underwater energy spinning out of control and ruining stuff. The presence of the universe was there in the background and despite what it was doing to me she was neutral, there was just the tiniest hint of disapproval although not much it has still literally put the fear of god into me.
Afterwards all light was rainbow, real light is rainbows, light as it truly is beyond our human perception (without prisms and actual rainbow). It made me feel like I was seeing reality as it really is, I can even see light for what it really is.
All in all, the whole experience totally fucked my head and I never want to go back again. But I know I will go back.
thanks for sharing. I enjoyed the read. Good luck with your future travels
