I am selfish.

[parallelwhispers]

A mantra I now Accept. If you need me to explain I'm sorry I cannot. This thread is me reaching out.
and anyone who needs a listener can post here.

I am here to listen, as selfish as I am.

Nature is art as god intentionally created it.


Pandora understands you on the terence mckenna station.



I know this makes not much sense at all, but I am still tripping. low doses allow odd things.



Please help.





I am god.

 

[ntwhtyouknw]

There is a difference between being selfish and self centered. Being self centered means you don't let others rob your peace. Being selfish is to make oneself feel good or happy at the expense of others. To be truly self centered is to allow it to shine enough that others grab hold because we realize helping others helps ourself, because we are one.

 

[DeMenTed]

Are you ok parallelwhispers? If there is anything you need to talk about the nexus is here for ya man

This post worries me slightly. I hope you are well.

 

[parallelwhispers]

I'm ok demented. lol.
I was smoking a sage/dmt changa I made and somehow I just kept smoking. I went to hyperspace and every time I came back I kept smoking.

I got the distinct feeling that I was god, and that god was born and died again in every second that passes, because time doesn't really exist. Nothing exists.

It was odd, I spent 45 minutes recording a message for the traveler as god before I eventually got sick and died.

It was strange enough that two days ago I experienced my own death on some level while doing my irresponsible and selfish low dose for hours thing.

That's part of the reason I found myself to be selfish, I was smoking up all the dmt.

So first I got the feeling that death doesn't exist, and that god is a part of me.

Then I get the feeling that I am god reborn, in one of his short and fleeting life cycles, trying to explain the point to everything before I died again.

I might post that stuff. but it's seriously odd, and really I don't want people to think I'm just some fake weirdo trying to create a new religion.

I don't really know if it was real or not. That's what sucks. I had this vivid experience, and I don't know if it was real.

It's really really difficult.

 

[DeMenTed]

I'm glad to hear you are ok lol.

DMT can reveal allsorts of epiphanies etc but be careful as this is an extremely powerful psychedelic!

Peace man i do enjoy your posts though as they are quite different from the norm

 

[NNDMT]

I'm ok demented. lol.
I was smoking a sage/dmt changa I made and somehow I just kept smoking. I went to hyperspace and every time I came back I kept smoking.

I got the distinct feeling that I was god, and that god was born and died again in every second that passes, because time doesn't really exist. Nothing exists.

It was odd, I spent 45 minutes recording a message for the traveler as god before I eventually got sick and died.

It was strange enough that two days ago I experienced my own death on some level while doing my irresponsible and selfish low dose for hours thing.

That's part of the reason I found myself to be selfish, I was smoking up all the dmt.

So first I got the feeling that death doesn't exist, and that god is a part of me.

Then I get the feeling that I am god reborn, in one of his short and fleeting life cycles, trying to explain the point to everything before I died again.

I might post that stuff. but it's seriously odd, and really I don't want people to think I'm just some fake weirdo trying to create a new religion.

I don't really know if it was real or not. That's what sucks. I had this vivid experience, and I don't know if it was real.

It's really really difficult.

One knows the feeling, One has traveled to that space and beyond, There are legend that a lone sage has smoked eight hours straight through the night lighting up one after another. The experience start to morph into similar to what you're describing, it is somewhat a completely connected state of being to the universe that One realizes there is nothing more than One itself. Very peculiar and weird experience and not to be fulled very dangerous, as well as the state of mind that sticks for a while.

 

[parallelwhispers]

I probably went to hyperspace and then stayed somewhere between there and reality as I normally know it for almost 6 hours.

I had a feeling of reawakening and sorrow for the death of god after I came back.

 

[jamie]

the death of god?

Did I miss something?

uhhh What?

 

[parallelwhispers]

Hi jamie, I posted the recordings on the thread I've dedicated specifically to my recordings.recreating the tone


I know it sounds like stupid ramblings and incoherent whispers. I'm still trying to interpret it myself.