Well I had that trip 6 month ago where I was thinking am embracing ego death through the trip, while I got more into the ego, weird trip, was tripping from 6pm for 24 hours took 400mg, after this trip I became different, different in a bit of psychobatic way.
(I was just gotten out of religion week before that trip), I wanted to undseratand what was wrong actions and attidtude effecting my life, then I started since then acting more weird, took two trips after(1 .5 month and the other 2 month after)and both gone cool, tell the half of the trips, I start feeling down kind of more and start gettimg into weird perspectives, and a hursh presure on my chest , all three wasnt alone.
Also during this period I started to neglect what's going on and act normal, I was trying meditation to replace the "spirtual activity" from before, but wasnt able to meditate right, also was trying smoking hush wasnt getting high always, sometimes it effected me bad.
Also with getting weird feeling in my forehead, sometimes a spining 2d circle infront of me, like two much and when I close my eyes, i think I was focusing in the area a lot, one of the factors.
After all of this 3 weeks ago I tried microdosing 25mg, to help me through my mood, 12:30 pm then 4:00 pm I started feeling myself clear and feeling nice, 6:00 pm I started getting my fears up I was in the city, started losing track, started getting my religious thougts about the dark entities and started feeling down and afraid and having weird pulses in my body, then felt something catching my brain, I tried neglecting what's going on ans tried getting home, so got up
And started feeling like I cant talk unless in a crazy way, was feeling myself shatering in the opposite directions left and right like I was gonna explode, crying. Tried sleeping and woke up better, but with that shattering feeling coming and going, not being to deal with people arounde normally.
So I decieded to trip again and get rid of all of what happened since this 6 period.
I took 250mg in a beach place was havjmg anixious feeling while waiting for the stamp to melt, was tripping alone, 12:00 pm waiting, 2 hours later the sun started annoying me, so I changed my place started having that shattering feeling and I started feeling misrable, 4:00pm started to vomit thought that will make me feel better, I got to feel better, was feeling awesome and free, but 6:00 pm I started slowly getting ripped away from that feeling and getting stuck in loops and my physical body feeling like something is moving in it and then I tried stopping that, got worse stopping it by force was getting me fuck up more didnt know what to do, my fears was getting worse, having suicidal thoughts, getting weird vibrations, couldnt break out of the autopilot and felt more crazy after then In the same time I get a feeling am acting up, started having doubts about my realizations, had a hard time trying to sleep.
Woke up much better, but now
I tried mot getting bad and getting rid of the ideas that got stuck with me, but it started getting worse.
Am feeling weird amd tired most of the time and cant do meditation to calm down when am getting this weird feelings, cant smoke up normally, I get weird sensations when I sleep and cant act normal, feel I cant think out of only certain topic, feel routine cycle of thoughts, I cant think something out, feels like am dead, dont know what to do now :/
Any help and recommendation would be much appreciated
I want to get normal back I dont know should I try to get rid of this by tripping again, or should I wait and what to do in this wait like this having this weird pressure in my skull and weird feelings in my body, cant communicat with people normally like before, feels like my life got fucked really bad.
During this 6 month I was feeling like tripping a lot without intakes sometimes hush, but that feeling was decreasing
All the dosing was crystal aztech LSD
Also I had 6-7 trips before this period was nice trips.
Should I have ayuwaska for healing or have other trip to fix this or what
(I was just gotten out of religion week before that trip), I wanted to undseratand what was wrong actions and attidtude effecting my life, then I started since then acting more weird, took two trips after(1 .5 month and the other 2 month after)and both gone cool, tell the half of the trips, I start feeling down kind of more and start gettimg into weird perspectives, and a hursh presure on my chest , all three wasnt alone.
Also during this period I started to neglect what's going on and act normal, I was trying meditation to replace the "spirtual activity" from before, but wasnt able to meditate right, also was trying smoking hush wasnt getting high always, sometimes it effected me bad.
Also with getting weird feeling in my forehead, sometimes a spining 2d circle infront of me, like two much and when I close my eyes, i think I was focusing in the area a lot, one of the factors.
After all of this 3 weeks ago I tried microdosing 25mg, to help me through my mood, 12:30 pm then 4:00 pm I started feeling myself clear and feeling nice, 6:00 pm I started getting my fears up I was in the city, started losing track, started getting my religious thougts about the dark entities and started feeling down and afraid and having weird pulses in my body, then felt something catching my brain, I tried neglecting what's going on ans tried getting home, so got up
And started feeling like I cant talk unless in a crazy way, was feeling myself shatering in the opposite directions left and right like I was gonna explode, crying. Tried sleeping and woke up better, but with that shattering feeling coming and going, not being to deal with people arounde normally.
So I decieded to trip again and get rid of all of what happened since this 6 period.
I took 250mg in a beach place was havjmg anixious feeling while waiting for the stamp to melt, was tripping alone, 12:00 pm waiting, 2 hours later the sun started annoying me, so I changed my place started having that shattering feeling and I started feeling misrable, 4:00pm started to vomit thought that will make me feel better, I got to feel better, was feeling awesome and free, but 6:00 pm I started slowly getting ripped away from that feeling and getting stuck in loops and my physical body feeling like something is moving in it and then I tried stopping that, got worse stopping it by force was getting me fuck up more didnt know what to do, my fears was getting worse, having suicidal thoughts, getting weird vibrations, couldnt break out of the autopilot and felt more crazy after then In the same time I get a feeling am acting up, started having doubts about my realizations, had a hard time trying to sleep.
Woke up much better, but now
I tried mot getting bad and getting rid of the ideas that got stuck with me, but it started getting worse.
Am feeling weird amd tired most of the time and cant do meditation to calm down when am getting this weird feelings, cant smoke up normally, I get weird sensations when I sleep and cant act normal, feel I cant think out of only certain topic, feel routine cycle of thoughts, I cant think something out, feels like am dead, dont know what to do now :/
Any help and recommendation would be much appreciated
I want to get normal back I dont know should I try to get rid of this by tripping again, or should I wait and what to do in this wait like this having this weird pressure in my skull and weird feelings in my body, cant communicat with people normally like before, feels like my life got fucked really bad.
During this 6 month I was feeling like tripping a lot without intakes sometimes hush, but that feeling was decreasing
All the dosing was crystal aztech LSD
Also I had 6-7 trips before this period was nice trips.
Should I have ayuwaska for healing or have other trip to fix this or what
