Euforikk
Rising Star
Hello Everyone,
i registered here during this summer, but i start an essay about myself right now.
Why right now? Well.. it's been almost 3 months since i searched online stuff about DMT, i read all the FAQ, Healthy and Secure Stuff and 3rd party of this website to know what this substance is. How i met DMT? Well the first time a friend of mine (my Director - i'm a video editor) spoke about this substance, but he said that he will never try it because it's a crazy stuff. This was i year ago and i remember that i wasn't even curious about it, because i just didn't care at that time.
I gotta admit that i heard again this three letters word, the DMT, in a video on YouTube made by a guy called Adam (PsychedSubstances) 5/6 months ago and bumped in my mind again, but i never got deep because it was a "hell of a substance" and i wasn't too open mentally at that time (also is because of the YouTube Channel that i discovered this platform in first place). As i said before i registered almost 3 months ago because my best friend did it and he said to me that it was the best experience of his life and then i started searching more and more information.
In 2 weeks from now my best friend will bring me to my first experience, but i'm afraid. I've a lot of thoughts in my mind (the most of them are bad). I suffered from 8 months depression (no medication needed, but all the stuff that i didn't resolve or just addressed for 23 years came up all together) and now i'm rebuilding my life step by step. Also i'm trying to understand some parts of myself that i cannot explain why am i doing some stuff. I'm 23 and still haven't ever loved someone (a girl). Actually i don't feel to deserve love but also i seek it.. it's a strange thing. I smoke just marijuana and hash and when i started them i kinda "tripped" sometimes. I know that probably "trip" is not a good word to describe it, but i remember that i saw "stuff" like purple/pink mineral with different lights exposure and multiple multicolor lines moving in different directions.
Another thing that i hate and suffer from are Horror Films. Really they made me panic tons of times, i couldn't sleep till i hear someone voice that i know or love to reassure me that was only a film. That's happens because i'm paranoid sometimes (side effect of smoking Marijuana).
I said all this stuff because these are the main reason why i'm not so sure that is time to take something important like DMT, even if i think i respect the substance as it is, the risks and the pros.. i'm afraid of the probability of a bad trip that could change my life in a bad, very bad way.
What do you think is better to do? :? Wait for a better moment or is just my ego that throughs all the negative stuff possible because "he doesn't want to change"? I want to do it because i think i can resolve or improve some lack of these things that i wrote above and maybe.. just saying but maybe tell me why i still smoke what i hate most, cigarettes.
I hope you can help to through this,
thanks
Cheers
-Euforikk-
i registered here during this summer, but i start an essay about myself right now.
Why right now? Well.. it's been almost 3 months since i searched online stuff about DMT, i read all the FAQ, Healthy and Secure Stuff and 3rd party of this website to know what this substance is. How i met DMT? Well the first time a friend of mine (my Director - i'm a video editor) spoke about this substance, but he said that he will never try it because it's a crazy stuff. This was i year ago and i remember that i wasn't even curious about it, because i just didn't care at that time.
I gotta admit that i heard again this three letters word, the DMT, in a video on YouTube made by a guy called Adam (PsychedSubstances) 5/6 months ago and bumped in my mind again, but i never got deep because it was a "hell of a substance" and i wasn't too open mentally at that time (also is because of the YouTube Channel that i discovered this platform in first place). As i said before i registered almost 3 months ago because my best friend did it and he said to me that it was the best experience of his life and then i started searching more and more information.
In 2 weeks from now my best friend will bring me to my first experience, but i'm afraid. I've a lot of thoughts in my mind (the most of them are bad). I suffered from 8 months depression (no medication needed, but all the stuff that i didn't resolve or just addressed for 23 years came up all together) and now i'm rebuilding my life step by step. Also i'm trying to understand some parts of myself that i cannot explain why am i doing some stuff. I'm 23 and still haven't ever loved someone (a girl). Actually i don't feel to deserve love but also i seek it.. it's a strange thing. I smoke just marijuana and hash and when i started them i kinda "tripped" sometimes. I know that probably "trip" is not a good word to describe it, but i remember that i saw "stuff" like purple/pink mineral with different lights exposure and multiple multicolor lines moving in different directions.
Another thing that i hate and suffer from are Horror Films. Really they made me panic tons of times, i couldn't sleep till i hear someone voice that i know or love to reassure me that was only a film. That's happens because i'm paranoid sometimes (side effect of smoking Marijuana).
I said all this stuff because these are the main reason why i'm not so sure that is time to take something important like DMT, even if i think i respect the substance as it is, the risks and the pros.. i'm afraid of the probability of a bad trip that could change my life in a bad, very bad way.
What do you think is better to do? :? Wait for a better moment or is just my ego that throughs all the negative stuff possible because "he doesn't want to change"? I want to do it because i think i can resolve or improve some lack of these things that i wrote above and maybe.. just saying but maybe tell me why i still smoke what i hate most, cigarettes.
I hope you can help to through this,
thanks

Cheers
-Euforikk-