I'm new and need advice

[Joshua 7]

Hey guys, I'm new to DMT. I've done it a few times and just recently, after doing ketamine for about 5 hours before, and lsd a couple hours before, met one of the DMT aliens. It was a mantid. But i was covered in wasp like things until the mantid got them off of me. Anyways, I am just looking for some answers without judgment. Before I ask, I'll give you some background because I believe that's extremely important for you to be able to answer my questions.

I am a devout non-denominational Christian pastor. I don't preach in a big church but do hold the title and rank of "Pastor." I don't believe in God, I KNOW God. I KNOW Christ is real. I've had too many experiences both sober and tripping to have any doubt. God talks to me and hears me and is very active in my life. He's as real if not more real than anyone/everyone I've ever ever met. I absolutely know without a doubt that He's real and that the Bible is accurate in the correct translations. It's not all the answers, it's just a beginner's map on how to meet Him and live properly for the most part. But there's so much more than just what is written. Obviously.

Another thing you should know before I ask my questions is that I've done hundreds of hits of acid, lots of shrooms, and I'm my younger days I did every drug you've heard of(except a few hard to get psychedelics) and a handful that you've probably never heard of(lots of research chemicals). I'm not new to drugs, and have done massive amounts. I used to take a lot at one time, and a lot of times. One time I took about 20 hits of acid. All I do now is psychedelics and more for mental health than anything. I even get ketamine prescribed to me which was my drug of choice for a long time. It's pretty much the only drug I can do without getting anxiety from it. Every other drug, except for opiates, gives me anxiety.

Im 36 and live a fairly normal life. The only issues I have are anxiety and depression. I have a family and a home and everything is pretty good for the most part.

I've done DMT a few times. Typically I just see intense fractals and get crazy anxiety.

I said all that so you know that I'm not some weirdo or psycho or anything like that. Ok, let me get to my questions now.

The other night I wanted to have a breakthrough where you go into another realm basically. But due to the massive anxiety I get, I have a really hard time taking that third hit. Typically after one hit I tap out. But that night I seriously prepared. Over the period of about 5 hours I did most of a gram of ketamine because I know it takes my anxiety away and that it cools my lungs. A couple times when I did DMT it felt like I was breathing in 200 degree air. So breathing was very scary. I've got asthma and last time I almost died, my lungs felt super hot. Very uncomfortable. So it was kinda giving me reminders of that hospital visit. I had taken 3 hits too but freaked out because of my lungs and my eyes were closed and I didn't see anything and nothing happened. But the last time, when I took that ketamine, I also took like 4 hits of acid about 3 or 4 hours after starting the ketamine.

I wobbled my way out to the back yard and took one big hit of DMT. I broke through and saw the entities people talk about. A mantid. Also wasp like things all over me that the mantid removed. Plus some other entities but I can't remember what they looked like. Those of you that see entities know what I'm talking about.

So, why did I only see them after taking ketamine and acid and only after one hit? That makes me think that it's possible to get into that state of being without just taking DMT. It seems like a frequency that we can get into in other ways but DMT is the easiest, but the ketamine and acid helped get me like 80% of the way there.

Why does it feel hot in my lungs at times?

Why does it give me so much anxiety normally?

How can I ensure that I see the entities more often?

What advice do you have?

 

[froggydays]

I wouldn't recommend taking other substances before/after to be honest. In general combinations can also be very dangerous.

It sounds to me you're very interested in the effects of these substances but in my opinion I wouldn't push it so much.

Perhaps it's a good idea to read a bit about Set and Setting in relation to, regarding this forum, the deemzy.

 

[blig-blug]

Ketamine greatly potentiates DMT. What would normally be a mild dose becomes very strong.

What DMT ROA are you using? Is it perhaps a vape pen? It sounds likely to me that your previous doses weren't high enough to encounter some effect (although bear in mind that effects like entity encounters needn't happen), and ketamine made you cross that threshold. Plus LSD of course.

Your description of an usual experience as "intense fractals and anxiety" suggests to me not that high of a dose. Those can be quite challenging despite what some people would say.

Personally, the time I have combined DMT and ketamine, a DMT dose that normally would have been very mild completely "ripped the veil of reality".

Why does it feel hot in my lungs at times?

I don't know why that specifically, but I also have "feeling hot" related issues. If you're sure your DMT is pure, you have nothing to worry at a rational level. Going past a certain dose will ensure that you go past those effects, but I agree it can be mentally difficult and scary to do so, as it initially makes them much stronger.

Why does it give me so much anxiety normally?

That's normal pre-flight and during the come-up (and sometimes during the experience itself even if it's strong) for a lot of people. As you say you generally have anxiety, even more so. Nothing to worry about. The work you do in facing it may help you elsewhere.

How can I ensure that I see the entities more often?

In general terms you can't. But in your case I would try higher dose first. If not, you can always combine with ketamine and/or LSD as you did. Be aware that the combination with ketamine results in a different experience, an experience that to me seems inferior in its potential to induce personal change.

Also be aware more in general of the risks of ketamine; 1g in an hour is a very high dose, so you likely have a high tolerance. That's a different topic, but still be mindful about it, or you may regret it in the long term. The risk profile of ketamine is very different from most psychedelics.

What advice do you have?

You say that the reason you take drugs is mental health. How does that relate to seeing entities? Or else, why do you seek that particular experience? I'm not saying there's any problem with it, only I'm not sure I understand the motivation.

About your lung issue: make completely sure your DMT is indeed DMT and is pure.

About the probability of encountering entities: try dosing higher.

About anxiety: your faith seems like something that could be helpful there. You could look into spiritual exercises and prayer of the kind that goes beyond just "talking" and attempts to tune your mental state. In the end, every time someone jumps into a psychedelic experience is a leap of faith. Seeing it as a abandoning yourself to god could be helpful.