man, its amazing how much the salvia state still amazes me!
I packed my bong full and sat down with some pillows and put on some tripswitch this morning. I burned some sage in a seashell for a few minutes and talked to my salvia plant..and then i took it all in one big hit and lay back n closed my eyes..
Slowly, what was the blackness of my eyelids, lifted away to reveal another space. Its hard to decribe but I will try. I was leaning back on some pillows with eyes still closed.. the wall to my left was still about 12 feet away from my body, but with my eyes closed I realized i could see at least 12 feet to my left into the black visual void. It was like the usual blank eyelid screen now accompanied the dimension of my room, so my eyelids ended where my wall ended..it wass so fuckn weird but thats the only way i can explain it..
Then things began to form within this "eyelid dimesion", like a street with sidewalks and everything i think..it was like beginning a dream.
The music was pulsing all around and for some reason I opened my eyes, and thought I was preaty normal..the ammount of leaf I packed didnt seem like too much, but my perspective had changed so much with eyes open. There was barely any visuals, only minor swirling, but i felt like i was inside everything, but also distincly "me" as well.. Then I started to think again that the me I though was inside everything was actually the plant itself(which i thought last time as well, but I dont really know why i think this, its just like an instinct that hits me.
I knew that i had smoked salvia, and that i "should" come down anytime, just like always..but I only half believed it. I though I was stuck this way. At the same time I kept thinking that things had always been this way,and that we block this perspective out of our minds in normal reality in order to function..almost like lying to ourselves. For some reason I stood up at that moment, and was about to bolt, but sat down instead. I thought to myself, "FUCK, I did it again!"
Then I thought to myself that I would come down, but it wouldnt matter cus once I experienced reality this way, there was no fucking way I could just switch back to my old perspective(Ive been here so many times, but think this every time, Its hard to accept as just a drug expereience).. It was just like comming to any other realization in life, it changes you. It was like I was not altered at all, i could think clearly as "me", but at the same time was absorbed into the world around me..
Then just like that, I completely reassociated with my flesh body and began laughing like a madman and dancing around..i picked up my didgeridoo and started playing like nothing bad at all had happened. In fact it wasnt really bad or scary, or even confusing. I cant even begin to explain in words what the hell it was...