Is this normal?

[maymay]

I have something rather interesting to report and I would appreciate it if you could help me with this...
I haven't had a dream since I was 12.By dream I really mean dream,you know you are sleepy,you go to bed,close your eyes and wait for it to happen...

There's a little story behind it as well...When I turned 12,after a couple of weeks I had something like a ''revelation'',an opening of the mind's eye kind of experience...I was sitting on my bed watching TV minding my own business,when suddenly a thought flashed through my mind,it was like a download of information(a lot of it-something like ''a little bit of this a little bit of that'' but from every single subject one can imagine),hard to describe with words.

After that I started doubting everything I was taught,absolutely every single thing,down to the smallest detail...you name the subject I tore it apart...it took me a while but eventually I came across ''GOD''-this is where it got complicated,to make a very long story short(I could write several books only on this-and maybe I will,later in life )I erased GOD from my mind,dragged the idea to the recycle bin and erased it...but I refused to call myself an atheist,everyone called me an atheist but I tried to explain myself but in vain...Even today I find it hard to start a conversation on this topic,I just can't put my beliefs into words.I was often seen as a rebel against everyone,I was called crazy because of my way of thinking...

Let's put it this way...in the old fashioned way with a last prayer I kneed down before the erasing bit and said:''If you exist,please show me the truth,I don't care how you do it,I don't care what the truth is I just want to know the true nature of all of this...leave nothing hidden.''...like a child I was angry and I closed that chapter altogether and forgot about it for a pretty long time...Sometimes I wish I hadn't done that,but now it opened my vision totally(hard to explain)and I am more than grateful that my wish was accepted...I think you know what happened...

This journey was absolutely mind blowing,I asked for it and IT(call it GOD call it whatever you want I believe there is no word in this universe to describe IT)smacked me with everything and knocked me out cold:I stopped having dreams,I stopped feeling that thing inside some call soul,I stopped having emotions of any kind whatsoever,''I was completely severed from the grid'' if you understand what I am saying...almost 8 years have passed and yesterday I had my first dream...WOW!WOW!WOW!:shock: incredible,out of this world,out of this reality out of everything you want, it was simply something totally else that no words can describe...I laughed like crazy this morning,let's just say that IT has an overdeveloped sense of humor :lol:

If you are going to encounter HIM/HER/IT/...whatever,you cannot deny it is he/her you will know it faster than you can imagine...Now here's the funny thing about it:lol: IT told me this at the end after showing me places I truly wish to see again and I will:''I think this is enough,I think you got what you asked for and believe me I know you know the answer now''and it laughed,the voice was simply unique a perfect balance of sound...all this time I shut up and didn't say a thing but nevertheless I was communicating with it,strange,I wonder how he did it...telepathy?I don't know,frankly I don't care that is not important...After that I somewhat asked permission for leaving,for going back,he laughed again and told me:''You are more like me than you can possibly imagine,you have no idea how alike we are...''.I know for a fact that YOU was used to describe everyone,not only on this planet,and I know for a fact that this experience is not granted often.

I will never forget this,I know things now that I cannot put into words and it's better so...

Hope I didn't bore you to death,thanks to those who had the patience to read this,but I had to relate this it was phenomenal,I never smoked DMT but I think it was way over that,I know you can't say that until you try it but I'm pretty sure.

Someone else had a similar experience? Make a wish and pow it happened?

 

[biopsylo]

glad to hear you have re-found the dream

 

[GreenD]

Yeah I basically wrote that identicle post about 2 years ago. And I have been writing a book about it, unfortunately I've come across my own problems along the way, and have to solve those before I can finish writing it.

 

[sunshineandsmiles]

Someone else had a similar experience? Make a wish and pow it happened?

Yes indeed maymay. For my experiences with psilohuasca concoctions in November, I set the intention of being set free from all fear. I thought I feared nothing at the time...but I thought I'd better make sure.

That which has been called 'I AM' revealed its sense of humour by revealing absolute void to me. Absolute nothingness. Abyss.

But gradually it was revealed that even in the abyss, I had my thoughts, my imagination, my emotions. And I could bring myself out of this abyss by climbing a sort of ladder built from thought. So I latched onto the image I felt most strongly about and hurled thoughts towards it.

Lo and behold...I had returned with a gasp.

Since then I have begun to live my life with a healthy dose of fear...I fear fast moving metal objects in close vicinity to me for a start (always a good one )

The great mind has a very sharp sense of wit for sure :d

 

[Garulfo]

Look likes you had a kind of "enlightment" experience. Many people reported such big event in their life without the use of any psychedelic drug. Some people are religious, others not, some are full atheists... "GOD" do not care at all in what you believe

 

[Brian Kerr]

I'm glad you can dream again. I love it when I dream. I think we are little bits of *IT* and we are all connected to everything in a bazillion different ways. I dumped the limiting concept of the religious god a long time ago.

 

[Kartikay]

I got what I wanted in a way.

I wanted to know the true nature of the universe as well. You know, "where did we/the universe come from? why are we/the universe here? where do we go when we die?" I found all that, step by step, ending with the psychedelic revelation. I just expected there to be some elite group of people that knew about it. Like, really important people who were either spreading the truth or hiding it. Instead, its just us. Just some people who gather together online who call themselves SWIM and have to hide from an overpowering authority. Us and some indigenous people scattered throughout the world. We hold the secrets of the universe and yet we have very little ability to share it, or even abuse it for power. *sigh* sorry for the rant.