Hi all,
I recently joined this community and have been asking a bunch of questions, so I thought that it may be a good idea to introduce myself.
I'm a male in his mid-thirties. I have a successful career, I'm athletic, I don't smoke, I don't drink and I've only done marijuana once when I was 18 (haven't done any other drugs than the ones I mention below). I discovered psychedelics about 10 years ago through a book. My research led me to DMT which seemed like a mythical molecule that I wanted to try some day. Years later, I was living in Amsterdam and I got to try magic mushrooms. I had a bad trip and I thought that it was the end of my time with psychedelics. For years, I've suffered from periodic panic attacks and general anxiety, so I felt that I should really not aggravate this condition.Years later still, I went through a difficult divorce after a 15-year-long marriage (and came close to taking my own life) and it was actually my mother who strongly encouraged me to consider the healing power of psychedelics. I felt like I had little to lose, so I went ahead with it. I took mescaline several times and these were absolutely beautiful and truly healing experiences. I felt that I got a lot out of them. My brother also introduced me to LSD. My first LSD experience wasn't very deep, but it was fun -- I took a small dose and just felt very strange for a while. My 2nd LSD experience was very deep -- I took 500 ug and it took me into the deep waters. The true power of this experience came after the trip was over. I got to look at myself in the mirror and see me from a different perspective. It was an extremely painful experience, but it was so very useful. I am not exaggerating when I say that I thought about this experience every single day since then, and it was a year ago.
And this is where DMT enters the picture. I recently found myself in a new jurisdiction (Australia) where I can procure the necessary ingredients to finally meet that mythical molecule I read about 10 years ago. That said, actually getting to the point where I had DMT loaded into a vape cartridge that was sitting in my hands -- that took a lot of effort, more than I initially expected. To be honest, I feel a little guilty about taking DMT. After my LSD and mescaline experiences, I feel eternally grateful for what these substances offered to me, but I don't see the need to repeat those experiences. Doing so would feel wrong. It's like climbing up to the Oracle of Delphi to receive wisdom and then just returning there for the views. I feel like now I must put my learnings into actions and actually live them. DMT though... it's calling me. But I feel like it's curiosity more than anything else. It's a bucket-list item for me. I feel like it has the potential to enrich my life. But I don't know what I'd want it to teach me. That said, I had no idea what LSD or mescaline could teach me either.
Today, I had my first experience with DMT. For a variety of reasons, I only had a very mild experience and I will be coming back to it in time. But that experience was still beautiful. I felt love. I was so nervous heading into this experience, but now that I had an introduction with DMT, I feel more at ease about what the future holds.
That's a bit about me. It's a pleasure to join this community.
I recently joined this community and have been asking a bunch of questions, so I thought that it may be a good idea to introduce myself.
I'm a male in his mid-thirties. I have a successful career, I'm athletic, I don't smoke, I don't drink and I've only done marijuana once when I was 18 (haven't done any other drugs than the ones I mention below). I discovered psychedelics about 10 years ago through a book. My research led me to DMT which seemed like a mythical molecule that I wanted to try some day. Years later, I was living in Amsterdam and I got to try magic mushrooms. I had a bad trip and I thought that it was the end of my time with psychedelics. For years, I've suffered from periodic panic attacks and general anxiety, so I felt that I should really not aggravate this condition.Years later still, I went through a difficult divorce after a 15-year-long marriage (and came close to taking my own life) and it was actually my mother who strongly encouraged me to consider the healing power of psychedelics. I felt like I had little to lose, so I went ahead with it. I took mescaline several times and these were absolutely beautiful and truly healing experiences. I felt that I got a lot out of them. My brother also introduced me to LSD. My first LSD experience wasn't very deep, but it was fun -- I took a small dose and just felt very strange for a while. My 2nd LSD experience was very deep -- I took 500 ug and it took me into the deep waters. The true power of this experience came after the trip was over. I got to look at myself in the mirror and see me from a different perspective. It was an extremely painful experience, but it was so very useful. I am not exaggerating when I say that I thought about this experience every single day since then, and it was a year ago.
And this is where DMT enters the picture. I recently found myself in a new jurisdiction (Australia) where I can procure the necessary ingredients to finally meet that mythical molecule I read about 10 years ago. That said, actually getting to the point where I had DMT loaded into a vape cartridge that was sitting in my hands -- that took a lot of effort, more than I initially expected. To be honest, I feel a little guilty about taking DMT. After my LSD and mescaline experiences, I feel eternally grateful for what these substances offered to me, but I don't see the need to repeat those experiences. Doing so would feel wrong. It's like climbing up to the Oracle of Delphi to receive wisdom and then just returning there for the views. I feel like now I must put my learnings into actions and actually live them. DMT though... it's calling me. But I feel like it's curiosity more than anything else. It's a bucket-list item for me. I feel like it has the potential to enrich my life. But I don't know what I'd want it to teach me. That said, I had no idea what LSD or mescaline could teach me either.
Today, I had my first experience with DMT. For a variety of reasons, I only had a very mild experience and I will be coming back to it in time. But that experience was still beautiful. I felt love. I was so nervous heading into this experience, but now that I had an introduction with DMT, I feel more at ease about what the future holds.
That's a bit about me. It's a pleasure to join this community.
