It's been a while...advice please.

[JuremaSpaceship]

Soooo,

It has been quite a while now (3-4months) since my last journey, and lately I have been getting the urge to go back.
I still have half a pound of mhrb that I have been hanging on to, and I plan to perform an extraction within the next week. I have had my share of amazingly beautiful breathtaking experiences and a couple that didn't go so well (which is why I took a break)

Anyway...

3 days ago my relationship with my girlfriend of 3 years came to an end, I'll spare you all the details, but I'll let you know that I loved her very much and didn't really want to break up, but the relationship was going downhill and we both agreed to break things off before it got worse. (it wasn't that bad, we didn't really fight or anything)

Needless to say I have been a little upset about the whole situation the past couple days, and it will take a while but I'm trying to do my best and move on.

Bringing me to my question...

Have any of you ever decided to use dmt even when you aren't in the best of moods?
I want to have a good experience, I'm not turning to dmt because I'm upset, I just happen to be a little upset but I still want to have this experience. So has anybody ever been bummed out and used dmt and still had a good time?
Or is it almost a guaranteed bad time if I'm sad/depressed and go for it?

 

[DeMenTed]

My only suggestion would be that if you do decide to journey make sure you take a large enough dose to escape this reality. Small doses might amplify any bad vibes you have. Just a thought

 

[JuremaSpaceship]

Thanks for the response,
That's kinda what I was thinking, if I take a breakthrough dose and completely let go of everything I think I should be ok.

 

[Lichen]

I say be very cautious of your intentions. It can be so easy to fool yourself that your motivations are pure, only to realise later in horror - or in retrospect afterwards - what your true intentions were all along. Is this self destruction, or self exploration?

 

[Sky Motion]

Sometimes partaking in any psychedelic substance when things are at their worst can lead to a bad experience, but in a good *psychedelic reset* kind of way.

 

[JuremaSpaceship]

I say be very cautious of your intentions. It can be so easy to fool yourself that your motivations are pure, only to realise later in horror - or in retrospect afterwards - what your true intentions were all along. Is this self destruction, or self exploration?

I might not have been clear enough in my original post, but the only reason I ever use dmt is to explore.
It's not like I got upset after breaking up and told myself to smoke dmt as some way of coping.
Like I said, I have been wanting to go back to hyperspace for a few weeks now. My dmt use has or had nothing to do with my relationship with anybody let alone my (ex)girlfriend it was always a very personal thing for me. She didn't really approve of my "drug" use (cannabis,dmt,LSD occasionally,MDMA occasionally) she just tolerated it and acted like she didn't care. So entheogens were not a mutual thing for her and I.

It's just that I'm not as happy as I should be right now even tho i know deep down that everything is fine an I will be able to move on. But still I have the desire to return to my dmt extraction/use as a tool for exploring and I don't want any negative emotions I have to play a role in my experience. So I was simply asking If anybody has personally had experience with being upset and using dmt? How did it go?

 

[Compound37]

In my opinion with my experiences, the "call" to do spice means you should. As long as you've integrated your last experience well. Then I believe you should be fine.

Check out this thread about DMT while grieving that started up yesterday can DMT help with grief? - Welcome discussion - Welcome to the DMT-Nexus