Call me crazy, but I don’t like vomit and I don’t like to vomit.
Before last night, the last time I vomited was about 20 years ago – I drank too much cheap wine at a Christmas party and became violently ill. Only 4 glasses of wine! (I don’t think my liver processes alcohol very well, which is fine with me – I only have a beer with a meal once a week or so.)
Yesterday, I was exchanging posts in another thread about pharma/aya and nausea, and a couple of people said they never have nausea at all with pharma! I find this astounding, since I have intense nausea almost every time. I’ve been “working” with pharma for almost a year now, trying different dose sizes, different time intervals, Pepto Bismol, fresh ginger – nothing seems to work. I’m beginning to wonder if my body just doesn’t process oral harmalas very well – they almost always seem toxic.
If I keep the harmala dose low (150mg or less), I won’t get nausea, but I also won’t get adequate inhibition for effects. If I raise it to what seems to be my personal “inhibition dose” of 225-250mg, I often get nausea so severe that it becomes the focus of the experience. Very frustrating!
So anyhow, as I said I hadn’t vomited since before some of you were even born, but I’ve often read that purging during a pharma/aya session can relieve or even eliminate the nausea. So I decided to try again, and vowed that I would purge if the urge was there. I took 250mg of rue extracted alkaloids in two doses, followed by 60mg of DMT. I spread the doses out in the hope that there would be less nausea. Ha!
After about 1.5 hours, I noticed some light effects. No visuals though. And then it began. Mild nausea. And over the course of the next 2 hours, the intensity grew – the nausea intensity, not the trip intensity. So I decided to visit my old porcelain friend, and almost immediately, I violently purged. Some people say that under the influence of DMT, their vomit looks like “rainbows” or some other psychedelic material. Since my trip seemed very light, my vomit just looked like vomit: my semi-digested meal from 6 hours earlier. Yuck. After 7 or so good heaves, it was over. I said out loud to myself, “That was awful!” It was the Christmas party all over again: Head in the toilet, feeling very ill, vomiting, and asking why I do this to myself.
I returned to my bed, anticipating a ramping-up of the experience, since that’s what many people say happens after a purge. No ramping-up for me. A few vague CEVs and little else. But at least the nausea was gone! I rested, and then 30-45 minutes later… The nausea is back! Not again! Yes – again. I purged again, this time not as much as the first, I said out loud to myself again, “That was awful!” and went back to bed.
Again, the nausea subsided, and again, after about 30 minutes it returned, although nowhere near the intensity of the previous two times. I’d had enough. “I’m not going through that again”, I said to myself, and decided to ride it out. Over the next few hours, the nausea slowly subsided, as did the very minor pharma effects. I slept lightly for maybe 3 or 4 hours, and woke up this morning feeling queasy. That’s another thing that seems different for me: Other people talk about the morning after a pharma session and say they feel refreshed, alive, re-energized and filled with a warm glow. You know how I felt? I felt like I had been up half the night sick and vomiting. That’s how I felt.
No visuals to speak of. No insights. No personal revelations or self-discoveries.
Just nausea and vomit.
Before last night, the last time I vomited was about 20 years ago – I drank too much cheap wine at a Christmas party and became violently ill. Only 4 glasses of wine! (I don’t think my liver processes alcohol very well, which is fine with me – I only have a beer with a meal once a week or so.)
Yesterday, I was exchanging posts in another thread about pharma/aya and nausea, and a couple of people said they never have nausea at all with pharma! I find this astounding, since I have intense nausea almost every time. I’ve been “working” with pharma for almost a year now, trying different dose sizes, different time intervals, Pepto Bismol, fresh ginger – nothing seems to work. I’m beginning to wonder if my body just doesn’t process oral harmalas very well – they almost always seem toxic.
If I keep the harmala dose low (150mg or less), I won’t get nausea, but I also won’t get adequate inhibition for effects. If I raise it to what seems to be my personal “inhibition dose” of 225-250mg, I often get nausea so severe that it becomes the focus of the experience. Very frustrating!
So anyhow, as I said I hadn’t vomited since before some of you were even born, but I’ve often read that purging during a pharma/aya session can relieve or even eliminate the nausea. So I decided to try again, and vowed that I would purge if the urge was there. I took 250mg of rue extracted alkaloids in two doses, followed by 60mg of DMT. I spread the doses out in the hope that there would be less nausea. Ha!
After about 1.5 hours, I noticed some light effects. No visuals though. And then it began. Mild nausea. And over the course of the next 2 hours, the intensity grew – the nausea intensity, not the trip intensity. So I decided to visit my old porcelain friend, and almost immediately, I violently purged. Some people say that under the influence of DMT, their vomit looks like “rainbows” or some other psychedelic material. Since my trip seemed very light, my vomit just looked like vomit: my semi-digested meal from 6 hours earlier. Yuck. After 7 or so good heaves, it was over. I said out loud to myself, “That was awful!” It was the Christmas party all over again: Head in the toilet, feeling very ill, vomiting, and asking why I do this to myself.
I returned to my bed, anticipating a ramping-up of the experience, since that’s what many people say happens after a purge. No ramping-up for me. A few vague CEVs and little else. But at least the nausea was gone! I rested, and then 30-45 minutes later… The nausea is back! Not again! Yes – again. I purged again, this time not as much as the first, I said out loud to myself again, “That was awful!” and went back to bed.
Again, the nausea subsided, and again, after about 30 minutes it returned, although nowhere near the intensity of the previous two times. I’d had enough. “I’m not going through that again”, I said to myself, and decided to ride it out. Over the next few hours, the nausea slowly subsided, as did the very minor pharma effects. I slept lightly for maybe 3 or 4 hours, and woke up this morning feeling queasy. That’s another thing that seems different for me: Other people talk about the morning after a pharma session and say they feel refreshed, alive, re-energized and filled with a warm glow. You know how I felt? I felt like I had been up half the night sick and vomiting. That’s how I felt.
No visuals to speak of. No insights. No personal revelations or self-discoveries.
Just nausea and vomit.
