Pokey said:
I just keep thinking about The shaman who spends a good 2 years of his life in solitude brewing and drinking this sacred substance daily. I wonder what he would think about this guys dilemma or his ritual for that matter.
I wonder as well - Maybe he'd feel intense love and happiness to see that joe's reached an important plateau, soon to discover that the real work is unfolding before him. I doubt any of us know enough about a shaman's world to even begin speculating on what one would think. Whatever you do joe I think if you focus your intentions on discovering something new you'll find what you need one way or another. I say this from very limited experience with spice myself (20 or so journeys, no breakthroughs), but get back to your psychedelic basics and take a detailed look at your set and setting. Maybe even go to the point of reexamining what set and setting mean to you. I'm not saying yours are bad or that your posts even suggest this, rather that when we find ourselves stuck in life it often helps to retrace our steps, sometimes all the way back if we're really puzzled.