Here is a reckless tale from my youth of one of my most shocking drug combinations. I ate 2 tabs and 90 Corymbosa seeds around 9:30pm 2 days before Christmas and started walking across town to do whippets with my pal who had just dropped 3 tabs. I got a call from my family about 30 minutes into my walk wondering where I'd gone, so I arrived home peaking and apologized to my reptilian stepmother. I walked into my room locked the door and crawled back out the window and ran the 5 miles to my pals house. My environment bled into a tunnel made of galaxies and the full moons face was shed like flower petals with every passing moment. I arrived at an abandoned house expecting to find my friend but was instead alone in the basement watching the wood walls flow and admiring the new depth of several paintings of landscapes leaning against the walls. I went to a parking lot which seemed to divide into the face of a graph and extend forever to call my friend. He was stuck in a loop I'd ask him where he was he would say "not in my house" then I'd repeat the question and he would say "my house" then he'd promise to get out and we ramble for a minute or two before the pattern continued. Somehow our conversation devolved into me trying to explain that we fit together like yin and yang cus I had all the momentum and he was void. Then I hung up and smoked a bowl, crawled back into my room and let go. It's like I saw the sum of life in products(like phone,car,house) and it sickened me.each moment peeled away like the turning of pages in a book. I could see the individual atoms in my skin flying into the air as though I was dissolving my body appeared composed of sand or fine scales. I just paced in circles watching the wall get built then it was as though I was watching George carlin perform his time bit directly in front of me. I was just bouncing from despair to bliss as these two events repeated. It was like I was on the moon nothing but me and the empty life societies glorify. At 4am I decided things were too heavy for me to function when I had to travel at 5am. So I ate 6mg of melatonin to fall asleep. It felt like when I mixed 300mg of mdma with 100ug of LSD but not fireworks exploding in my body more like I was struck by a bolt of lightening. I chased static electricity up my arms and legs and started sumersaulting around the room for the next hour it made the visuals syrupy I watched the fibers of my rug crawl to the sealing. I lost total control of my body I whited out a few times just fell face first on the floor and rolled around because it didn't matter if my eyes were open or closed nothing but an endless clear white mandala. I smashed my computer because I resented materialism. Got in the car around 5:30am sat in the far back, my sister turned and looked at me and I watched every hair on her body float into the air all her skin and clothes peeled back, her ribcage swung open and I saw her delicate little heart beating at a normal rate. I then closed my eyes and pretended to sleep for 5 hours. I did not stop tripping until I smoked myself to sleep at 11pm the following night. My entire body was sore and I was convinced I blew a fuse because when I ate the melatonin I could hear my brain frying and felt like I'd come off 100mg of mdma. So I ate b12 all day and woke up feeling like a daisy. Thanks for reading this through. All I have to offer is my takeaway from the trip and that is time doesn't exist this moment never began and will never end a finite amount of atoms will just rearrange themselves eternally.