DreaMTripper
Rising Star
Hi people, over the past months Ive been getting a strong calling back to hypersapce but I seem to have developed a mental block where I just cant smoke the stuff.
I try smoking a little to reaqauint myself with the taste and feeling on the chest and throat and all is fine, i get the usual mood lift for a threshold dose.
However when I try to go for even a sub-breakthrough say 20-30mg I just cant bring myself to take it all in and I back away from the pipe with half remaining..
Ive asked myself what it is I fear, the strong body shock is one thing, the buzzing of the limbs and vibrations around the eyes.
I suppose I also fear being taught a tough lesson, that my bad trip on the spice is just around the corner and will TERRIFY me to the core..being launched into a living breathing FEELING nightmare for what seems an eternity, but this is irrational as I know the spice is for the main a freindly ally!
lol So you see my problem ive developed an irrational fear of the spice..maybe I just need to gather the courage and just go for it?
I try smoking a little to reaqauint myself with the taste and feeling on the chest and throat and all is fine, i get the usual mood lift for a threshold dose.
However when I try to go for even a sub-breakthrough say 20-30mg I just cant bring myself to take it all in and I back away from the pipe with half remaining..
Ive asked myself what it is I fear, the strong body shock is one thing, the buzzing of the limbs and vibrations around the eyes.
I suppose I also fear being taught a tough lesson, that my bad trip on the spice is just around the corner and will TERRIFY me to the core..being launched into a living breathing FEELING nightmare for what seems an eternity, but this is irrational as I know the spice is for the main a freindly ally!
lol So you see my problem ive developed an irrational fear of the spice..maybe I just need to gather the courage and just go for it?