most odd sleep paralysis

[stone_rebel]

i had sleep paralysis since i was child,
back then they where super vivid, i could move around the house and everything was super real, also there was this creature that 'haunted' me, a black, feathery beeing with no sharp edges, kind of blurry.
when i got older it was less vivid but i still had a lot of sleep paralysis, sometimes the whole night trough, one after another.

then there was this time, around one and a half year back from now.

i was sleeping at a friends place and dreamed of this tunnel/tube i was walking through, and i realised that the further i walked in the more i got this sleep paralysis feeling in my body. i dont know how to explain this feeling, kind of like a bodyload but way more intense, sometimes shaking me trough the room.

i decided that i wont let this feeling/experience scare me now and started running straight in to the tunnel as fast and hard as i could, pretty much as soon as i started there was no tunnel anymore but a black rectangle with bright fizzling/sparkling edges, the edges kind of looked electrified. there where mystic symbols(also sparkling) in this rectangle that constantly changed and the rectangle was slowly spinning. i was just watching this as a observer, i dont think that i really interacted with it.

then i woke up, since this day i dont really have sleep paralysis anymore. i think a had one or two, maybe more. but i dont really remember since the ones i had after this experience where not as 'bad'/unpleasant and intense as the ones i had before this experience. and not nearly as frequently.

Just wanted to share this story with a community that maybe sees this kind of experience as something 'more' or else than 'just a dream'

Much love and all the best to all of you wonderful people in this Forum

 

[ShadedSelf]

Something similar happened to me.

At some point I stated to go into sleep paralysis meaning to stay present and not give into fear, and then they transformed into mystical experiences.

I havent really had any since then now that I think about it.

To me it kinda highlights how if you manage to stay present in any situation for long enough it becomes beatiful and divine.
Or rather, you are able to see the beauty and divinity that its allways there.

 

[stone_rebel]

super interesting that so many of these sleep paralysis experiences are so similar.

yeah! thats a beautiful way to look at it and i also got this impression!
thx for the reply !

 

[fink]

You have a gift. The gifts that are harder to understand take more work, but are perhaps also more valuable.

Sometimes my sleep existence is more interesting than my awake one. I've never been able to just got to sleep and rest for 8 hours like a normal person. I've come to realise it is a gift. So many experiences while sleeping. All of it builds a more complete me.

 

[stone_rebel]

You have a gift. The gifts that are harder to understand take more work, but are perhaps also more valuable.

Sometimes my sleep existence is more interesting than my awake one. I've never been able to just got to sleep and rest for 8 hours like a normal person. I've come to realise it is a gift. So many experiences while sleeping. All of it builds a more complete me.

im already grateful that i shared this experience in this community !
i can relate to what ur saying!i think i'm not only a product of the 'Waking World' and i try to see it as a gift, although it can be pretty exhausting and confusing .. still grateful tho !

 

[Toshido]

I've been having it bad the last few years and I'm worried it may be linked to having weened off of xanax but I can't be sure.

It feels like there is a force in the room, and in my dream I am exactly where I am laying in my bed. Then this invisible force grabs me by the top of my chest and starts swinging me around. It feels like I'm on the edge of a fast merry go round, the centrifugal force is unsettling and the G's on my chest feel like I'm suffocating. There's a ringing in my head that sounds almost like a train, and I violently jerk myself awake and go "uuaaaagghh!" just so I can snap out of it, because I'm worried about my brain shutting off. Upon falling back asleep it has the potential to keep happening, so I end up getting up and walking around the house for a bit. It's pretty scary.

I wish there was a way I could fight through it, sometimes it's kind of fun losing my gyroscope and floating around like I'm in zero gravity, but other times I'm worried my heart is going to stop or I'm going to have an aneurysm or something.

 

[stone_rebel]

I've been having it bad the last few years and I'm worried it may be linked to having weened off of xanax but I can't be sure.

It feels like there is a force in the room, and in my dream I am exactly where I am laying in my bed. Then this invisible force grabs me by the top of my chest and starts swinging me around. It feels like I'm on the edge of a fast merry go round, the centrifugal force is unsettling and the G's on my chest feel like I'm suffocating. There's a ringing in my head that sounds almost like a train, and I violently jerk myself awake and go "uuaaaagghh!" just so I can snap out of it, because I'm worried about my brain shutting off. Upon falling back asleep it has the potential to keep happening, so I end up getting up and walking around the house for a bit. It's pretty scary.

I wish there was a way I could fight through it, sometimes it's kind of fun losing my gyroscope and floating around like I'm in zero gravity, but other times I'm worried my heart is going to stop or I'm going to have an aneurysm or something.

yes thats very similar to what i experienced until the experience with the symbols. i feel ur pain! maybe u could try to come up with a "fuck it i dont let this scare me" attitude .. i really hope it gets better for u !