35mg yellow crystal
As I smoked this amount last night and had a good trip I decided to stick with the same dose and explore a little more. I took the hit all in one – I thought that I was comfortable enough to do this. How very wrong I was. Nothing could prepare me for what I experienced. All other previous trips pale into insignificance as a matter of fact so did life and reality as I know it!
It began with the familiar kaleidoscopic visuals, bi-lateral patterns either side of my visual field and I was pulled at warp speed through them. I knew this feeling of coming up – it was pleasant , I saw geometric, paradoxical patterns, shapes and objects – they were dark brown in colour with deep reds and oranges sometimes a sandy beige. Staircases of never ending proportions, then a grand welcoming by hundreds of Buddha type figures, they felt female in nature. They approached me with warm open arms, love and hugs. I felt much loved, euphoric and at ease but more than this I felt in control. I submitted to these alien beings and said “I am ready”. I was not ready! All of a sudden I was blasted at ultra warp speed to every place in the universe, I was shown every realm of existence. My mind was separated, literally ripped from my physical body and I then lost all sense of everything I knew. It was so intense I tried my hardest to grasp onto reality. I recall some reptilian/ sphinx humanoid type creatures at one point. They were not really interacting with my consciousness just going about their business.
The enormity of it all was so overwhelming, I felt utterly stupid as nothing I saw or was shown made any sense to me. I desperately tried to hold on to my consciousness but I was failing. I was questioning everything, “what was the point?” I felt as if I was being shown the creation of universal or even multiversal existence all at once – an infinite amount of images with feeling and history was flashed into my mind, then my mind shattered into a billion pieces like an exploding star. I felt as if I was being mocked or laughed at, I felt the presence of a large group of people almost watching my confused and scared body for their entertainment. I heard the laughter and started to laugh myself – although it wasn’t funny this was more out of being scared I think. I thought my mind was lost forever, I kept having to remind myself who I was, I was alive. Waves of terror and enlightenment occurred. There was some vague memory of an encounter with snakes but I cannot really disseminate this further. I opened my eyes – my room was a totally alien environment, it was my room but juxtaposed to a completely different place. Everything was moving – I was still very much in the trip. The walls were fluid, there was waves and patterns everywhere not comforting like the visuals of coming up. I could see radiowaves and radiation, sound waves where appearing as visuals. I looked at my hands and feet, it was if I was looking at a real time MRI image. I could see my bones and watched as my skeletal system as it articulated. I thought that my mind had been lost – I felt that I was having a full blown psychotic episode. I could not ground. I closed my eyes and I was straight back into the intense events occurring within my consciousness. I was stuck in the eternal and self perpetuating cycle of psychedelic worlds. I knew my mate was in the other room – this was my only hold on reality I was aware of him, he was real therefore I was too.
What I was exposed to made no sense, and still does not. The only thing that I can bring back is that our knowledge of existence and intelligence of the world and reality is a fraction of what is out there for us to discover. I began to control my breathing, I was unsure of where I would wake up, I half thought I had died and that the feeling of my pounding heart was actually someone carrying out CPR on me in a resus room. I slowly came back to earth.
I opened my eyes, things seemed more real than before, still really trippy and there were waves of vibrations through the room and my body. I managed to get off my bed and go into the living room, my mate was sitting he looked at me and said “dude you ok?” I then went into full blown shock, collapsed on the sofa, I was tachycardic at around 190-200bpm, my BP dropped I became faint and was shivering. I raised my legs, took deep breathes. About 10 minutes later I felt back on the level. My mate told me I was gone for about 7 mins. I was in complete awe of what I experienced. There is no doubt I broke through , I was not expecting it at all. It really shook me up. I still can’t fathom out the true nature of what happened. Whether it was a mass release of neurotransmitters that formed this experience or whether it was truly some mystical and transcendental voyage through hyperspace. Although terrifying it was amazing an amazing insight to the power of the mind and what hyperspace has to offer. Our human existence is so incredibly insignificant and minute -I can’t wait to see if the next time I can control aspects of the trip and maybe be somewhat prepared for the intensity of the experience and pull out some meaning or answers for what DMT is showing me!
As I smoked this amount last night and had a good trip I decided to stick with the same dose and explore a little more. I took the hit all in one – I thought that I was comfortable enough to do this. How very wrong I was. Nothing could prepare me for what I experienced. All other previous trips pale into insignificance as a matter of fact so did life and reality as I know it!
It began with the familiar kaleidoscopic visuals, bi-lateral patterns either side of my visual field and I was pulled at warp speed through them. I knew this feeling of coming up – it was pleasant , I saw geometric, paradoxical patterns, shapes and objects – they were dark brown in colour with deep reds and oranges sometimes a sandy beige. Staircases of never ending proportions, then a grand welcoming by hundreds of Buddha type figures, they felt female in nature. They approached me with warm open arms, love and hugs. I felt much loved, euphoric and at ease but more than this I felt in control. I submitted to these alien beings and said “I am ready”. I was not ready! All of a sudden I was blasted at ultra warp speed to every place in the universe, I was shown every realm of existence. My mind was separated, literally ripped from my physical body and I then lost all sense of everything I knew. It was so intense I tried my hardest to grasp onto reality. I recall some reptilian/ sphinx humanoid type creatures at one point. They were not really interacting with my consciousness just going about their business.
The enormity of it all was so overwhelming, I felt utterly stupid as nothing I saw or was shown made any sense to me. I desperately tried to hold on to my consciousness but I was failing. I was questioning everything, “what was the point?” I felt as if I was being shown the creation of universal or even multiversal existence all at once – an infinite amount of images with feeling and history was flashed into my mind, then my mind shattered into a billion pieces like an exploding star. I felt as if I was being mocked or laughed at, I felt the presence of a large group of people almost watching my confused and scared body for their entertainment. I heard the laughter and started to laugh myself – although it wasn’t funny this was more out of being scared I think. I thought my mind was lost forever, I kept having to remind myself who I was, I was alive. Waves of terror and enlightenment occurred. There was some vague memory of an encounter with snakes but I cannot really disseminate this further. I opened my eyes – my room was a totally alien environment, it was my room but juxtaposed to a completely different place. Everything was moving – I was still very much in the trip. The walls were fluid, there was waves and patterns everywhere not comforting like the visuals of coming up. I could see radiowaves and radiation, sound waves where appearing as visuals. I looked at my hands and feet, it was if I was looking at a real time MRI image. I could see my bones and watched as my skeletal system as it articulated. I thought that my mind had been lost – I felt that I was having a full blown psychotic episode. I could not ground. I closed my eyes and I was straight back into the intense events occurring within my consciousness. I was stuck in the eternal and self perpetuating cycle of psychedelic worlds. I knew my mate was in the other room – this was my only hold on reality I was aware of him, he was real therefore I was too.
What I was exposed to made no sense, and still does not. The only thing that I can bring back is that our knowledge of existence and intelligence of the world and reality is a fraction of what is out there for us to discover. I began to control my breathing, I was unsure of where I would wake up, I half thought I had died and that the feeling of my pounding heart was actually someone carrying out CPR on me in a resus room. I slowly came back to earth.
I opened my eyes, things seemed more real than before, still really trippy and there were waves of vibrations through the room and my body. I managed to get off my bed and go into the living room, my mate was sitting he looked at me and said “dude you ok?” I then went into full blown shock, collapsed on the sofa, I was tachycardic at around 190-200bpm, my BP dropped I became faint and was shivering. I raised my legs, took deep breathes. About 10 minutes later I felt back on the level. My mate told me I was gone for about 7 mins. I was in complete awe of what I experienced. There is no doubt I broke through , I was not expecting it at all. It really shook me up. I still can’t fathom out the true nature of what happened. Whether it was a mass release of neurotransmitters that formed this experience or whether it was truly some mystical and transcendental voyage through hyperspace. Although terrifying it was amazing an amazing insight to the power of the mind and what hyperspace has to offer. Our human existence is so incredibly insignificant and minute -I can’t wait to see if the next time I can control aspects of the trip and maybe be somewhat prepared for the intensity of the experience and pull out some meaning or answers for what DMT is showing me!
Sounds like a pretty deep / rough trip. I would give it a little while before delving back in, myself, in order to integrate what has happened, but you obviously know yourself better than I. These sorts of experiences need to be met with total surrender IMO, otherwise your ego will be clawing around trying to grasp hold of anything and everything to make sense of what is going on. Hyperspace is often far far beyond comprehension, although we like to try and decipher it, and even share shards of our experiences. I have met a massive female Buddha type entity 'there' as well, much like one of those big gold Thai Buddhas (gah, I'm sounding like Joe Rogan now :roll: but it's true)... had to LOL at the "I'm ready" part, for me, it's "ready as I'll ever be!" *gulp*
