My cat had to go

[livinglife]

I have been sniffing around this forum for a while and noticed many of the nexians have a cat by their side, so I want to share this story.

The last year was a year with a lot of struggles in my life, drug abuse, brake up and so on, but my cat always comforted me. She understood me all the time, when i went to sleep, she was spooning me, and I held here with my arms, sleeping and dreaming together. And she would lick me and then press here hole body against mine. We where pretty much the same soul, I didn't like to be in company with others so much, and she as well. She was very shy in the start, but when she opened here heart she was the most beautiful animal. I think this is the best relationship i have experienced with a living creature. The love was unconditional.

right now I'm moving out in a couple of days, so today i found a new family for here, they actually have other animals as well, so maybe she will make some new friends=) I hope.

But I'm feeling so bad, she had a great place to live, and now she need to start over again. she pissed all over the place today before we leaved, she knew something was going on, and now shes not here anymore and I'm heartbroken, my tears are falling when I'm writing this, should i feel bad? I feel like I failed to take care of here as a owner, but we had a lot of greate times and I need to make some changes in my life, I'm clean and I have finally managed to go outside more and be social. So maybe, just maybe this was it all, she was supposed to help me true life so I could move on..

One of the most beautiful chapters in my lifetime,

Anybody else experienced this?

 

[darklordsson]

Im sorry for the situation your in, animals are people if you look at them closely too. The bond can be as strong as somebody's (human) best friend. I had a dog a while ago, her name was Ashley. Best dog in the world I love her to pieces! She was diagnosed with a lung disease. After we got her medicine she was doing good, but it came back. She would wheeze and cough, and just make the most painful sounds... I went back to the vet, they said "There's nothing we can do, its a terminal illness. My heart broke and split right down the middle, I couldn't believe it! My dog since I had from when I was in third grade, is leaving. I was 21 at the time. Im now 27. I made the decision to let her go instead of her suffering anymore. One of the most hardest decisions of my life..

But as I watched her shut her eyes for the last time I comforted her just by being there for her. Man, im shedding tears right now as well too. But I knew and still know that shes somewhere better, not in pain anymore. After the fact the vet asked me, "We can cremate her for you." I said "NO". So I picked her up and carried her to my car, and buried her at my house, at home, where she was and is all along.

Namaste..

 

[livinglife]

I can't imagine how it is to loose some one like that, but Ashley is in no pain anymore and resting in pure bliss, and she will always be with your side. It was really nice of you to bury your dog with your house, life have some beautiful sides, but also sadness. Sorry to to hear that man, my cat is still alive, i think i overreacted maybe, but as you said, the bond can be so strong. On the other hand, are you done with animals for a while, ore do you have a new friend?

namaste

 

[Muskogee Herbman]

Ive actually been avoiding this thread because I experienced somthing similiar that still makes me cry to this day.

My beloved cat Artamis, who I had for about 10 years I had to give away because I attempted to move out of my house. He was my best friend from 7-19 and I'll never forget him ever. All I can hope is that one day I'll find his kindred spirit. I get really sad at the fact I gave him up but at the time it was better for him since I couldn't take care of him being somewhere where pets weren't allowed, and not being able to be with him. That was one of the hardest days of my life. I too at the time was going through a break up with a really bad girl who was not making my life any easier.

I think though, I should feel this way, this sadness over him. It reminds me how important he was to me. I love him and I always will, it is my belief we will meet again.

I have a new cat now, shes different but still a sweety and brings happiness to my heart everyday.

Stay strong my friend.

 

[Spanishfly]

I have had 3 cats - and each of them have been given their FOREVER home with me and Mrs Fly. Lucy was a rescue cat - she just loved her home with us and sadly died young at only 8 - we never did get a proper diagnosis.
Bella was a Siamese that we took over from her last owner who had to emigrate - she eventually died at a good age from liver failure.
Tara was scavenging for food at our local bar - we took her in a year ago and she loves her new house and its small garden.
None of them would ever be dumped by us.

 

[darklordsson]

I can't imagine how it is to loose some one like that, but Ashley is in no pain anymore and resting in pure bliss, and she will always be with your side. It was really nice of you to bury your dog with your house, life have some beautiful sides, but also sadness. Sorry to to hear that man, my cat is still alive, i think i overreacted maybe, but as you said, the bond can be so strong. On the other hand, are you done with animals for a while, ore do you have a new friend?

namaste

Its not over-reacting my friend. You feel like you lost someone important to you. But being able to "pass them on" is a great gift to them. It shows your not selfish for your own agenda. I was able to see this as im an adopted child, I started getting in touch with my bio mom. She resonated in me and said the reason why I gave you to someone else is because I couldn't raise you the best way I could. I respected that to the fullest and forgave what I perceived as her shortcoming...

I wanted to keep my dog for jus a few more months, but she would just be hurting for that time. I don't know, its a hard pill to swallow for anybody in the same similar situation. We will be reunited with all the good in our lives at one point or another. If you still have connections with the family you can always stop by and see how she's doing.

All the best wishes and good twards your way livinglife,

Namaste,
---dls---

 

[Sky Motion]