Hi everyone! Hope you're all okay. I love this site. Here we go, a quick recap of my life with drugs and how I came to find the Nexus.
I'm 35 years old now. I lost my virginity at 18 and I also started smoking, drinking and doing drugs at the same age. Curiousity and peer pressure more than anything. All my friends at the time were doing it. It seemed harmless. Shortly after trying hashish I fell in love with it and have used cannabis pretty much every day since, switching from solids to weed several years ago when a strange change occured here in England when the quality of the hash went down and the quality of the weed got much better.
In the early years of my exploration with drugs I took them with gusto, as did my friends. We tried MDMA together and loved it. Then came LSD, mushrooms and cocaine. I was very enthusiastic through it all, it felt like I had become part of a community and I really dug it. We were collectively a heavy metal band, me as guitarist. The whole ethos of sex, drugs and rock n roll really consumed me. Things got dark around the time we did heroin together. You know with alcohol people are oft to egg each other on to drink more? Well the same thing happened with me and my friends, a stupid kind of contest to see who could drink the most and do the most drugs. It's amazing to me that none of us died. Although it has messed us all up in different ways.
it was around this time I discovered DMT. New years eve, 1999, a small gathering of friends. A friend of a friend had some DMT that he intended to smoke at midnight, a massive dose apparently. He was very experienced with it and smoking it at midnight was a ritual he did each year. After talking to us all about it he felt compelled to sacrifice some of his dose in order to allow myself and one other friend to each smoke a tiny amount to try it. He showed us the crystal, which looked like brown sugar. He produced a well used old school DMT pipe, a glass pipe with bulb and very long stem. He was going to light from underneath and tell us when to inhale. My friend went 1st and felt nothing at all. Perturbed, the fellow added a teeny bit more to the pipe for my go. He said when to inhale and I did. One toke was all it took. By the time I had exhaled it had me.
The whole room began spinning around violently and a loud noise crashed around in my head. It sounded like, and felt like, my brain shutting off. My eyes closed, I can't remember if I closed them or if they closed on their own. It didn't matter. Suddenly I was in a different dimension. An insanely beautiful world made up of colours and whiteness and constantly shifting patterns. I saw a central figure walking towards me in black and smaller more mischievous seeming creatures to the left and right, smiling and waving. As the figure approached I heard in my voice, "Is that you, mum?". To which the figure replied, "Yes, it's your mum". Just as the figure got within reach I was snatched back from that place and I came to from the trip, my eyes opened. It was mind bogglingly powerful stuff. One of my 1st thoughts upon coming to was, "wow, I can't believe there is something out there THIS strong". My friend had told me it was to be respected and he was right. The experience has stayed with me this whole time, in factfor a long time I thought of little else.
After that time I experimented with every other drug out there. Tried all except for pcp and crystal meth. I've had some problems with addiction. Alcohol at 1st. As well as that I wasn't so much addicted to any one substance as I was addicted to getting wasted in general. I come from a family of heavy boozers. I am ok now. I still drink once a week and smoke weed all day, every day. But now in my life I feel a calling to do DMT again. To explore psychedelics more, they are my favourite type of drug.
So here I find myself at the Nexus! I have determined to attempt my very 1st extraction soon, using information found on this site. Cyb's hybrid atb salt tek is the method I've chosen. I can't wait to see the results.
Well that's about it. Thankyou everyone here, I love this community, glad to be a part of it. Love n kisses xxx
I'm 35 years old now. I lost my virginity at 18 and I also started smoking, drinking and doing drugs at the same age. Curiousity and peer pressure more than anything. All my friends at the time were doing it. It seemed harmless. Shortly after trying hashish I fell in love with it and have used cannabis pretty much every day since, switching from solids to weed several years ago when a strange change occured here in England when the quality of the hash went down and the quality of the weed got much better.
In the early years of my exploration with drugs I took them with gusto, as did my friends. We tried MDMA together and loved it. Then came LSD, mushrooms and cocaine. I was very enthusiastic through it all, it felt like I had become part of a community and I really dug it. We were collectively a heavy metal band, me as guitarist. The whole ethos of sex, drugs and rock n roll really consumed me. Things got dark around the time we did heroin together. You know with alcohol people are oft to egg each other on to drink more? Well the same thing happened with me and my friends, a stupid kind of contest to see who could drink the most and do the most drugs. It's amazing to me that none of us died. Although it has messed us all up in different ways.
it was around this time I discovered DMT. New years eve, 1999, a small gathering of friends. A friend of a friend had some DMT that he intended to smoke at midnight, a massive dose apparently. He was very experienced with it and smoking it at midnight was a ritual he did each year. After talking to us all about it he felt compelled to sacrifice some of his dose in order to allow myself and one other friend to each smoke a tiny amount to try it. He showed us the crystal, which looked like brown sugar. He produced a well used old school DMT pipe, a glass pipe with bulb and very long stem. He was going to light from underneath and tell us when to inhale. My friend went 1st and felt nothing at all. Perturbed, the fellow added a teeny bit more to the pipe for my go. He said when to inhale and I did. One toke was all it took. By the time I had exhaled it had me.
The whole room began spinning around violently and a loud noise crashed around in my head. It sounded like, and felt like, my brain shutting off. My eyes closed, I can't remember if I closed them or if they closed on their own. It didn't matter. Suddenly I was in a different dimension. An insanely beautiful world made up of colours and whiteness and constantly shifting patterns. I saw a central figure walking towards me in black and smaller more mischievous seeming creatures to the left and right, smiling and waving. As the figure approached I heard in my voice, "Is that you, mum?". To which the figure replied, "Yes, it's your mum". Just as the figure got within reach I was snatched back from that place and I came to from the trip, my eyes opened. It was mind bogglingly powerful stuff. One of my 1st thoughts upon coming to was, "wow, I can't believe there is something out there THIS strong". My friend had told me it was to be respected and he was right. The experience has stayed with me this whole time, in factfor a long time I thought of little else.
After that time I experimented with every other drug out there. Tried all except for pcp and crystal meth. I've had some problems with addiction. Alcohol at 1st. As well as that I wasn't so much addicted to any one substance as I was addicted to getting wasted in general. I come from a family of heavy boozers. I am ok now. I still drink once a week and smoke weed all day, every day. But now in my life I feel a calling to do DMT again. To explore psychedelics more, they are my favourite type of drug.
So here I find myself at the Nexus! I have determined to attempt my very 1st extraction soon, using information found on this site. Cyb's hybrid atb salt tek is the method I've chosen. I can't wait to see the results.
Well that's about it. Thankyou everyone here, I love this community, glad to be a part of it. Love n kisses xxx
