Hey guys. This is my first post on the DMT nexus. I came here for help with trauma. My life was unfortunately plagued by traumatic events recently. One after another for about 7 years. Lots of heartbreaks and unfortunate events but most of all ive been dealing with a lot of grief. Ill make it short. My friends and I fell into the trap of opioids and it eventually turned into heavy fentanyl abuse. And out of my friend group I am the only one who made it out and is still living. All my real friends have passed. They were my true brothers. Since then ive been dealing with uncontrollable rage, depression, anxiety, manic episodes, and everything else that follows grief. And i took a vow to myself to never use again to honor my friends and live. But I was suffering mentally and felt like i was gonna slip back into the hell that is addiction. I remembered doing DMT in my early 20s and the benefits i had from it. I joined this group did some studying and extracted some dmt for myself. I did the dmt and for the first time in a long time i can think clearly. The dmt cured me. I was chronically neurotic, angry, depressed, and everything I mentioned above. I was giving up. DMT is real medication. It doesn’t just soothe the symptoms. It heals the damage. No therapy, pharmaceutical, or amount of exercise/diet will heal your mind and soul like this can. So thankyou great people for sharing your knowledge, research, and personal experiences. This truly saved me from myself. Im happy, optimistic, im stable, my faith in God has been renewed, and i have new found want to thrive in this existence. I cant put into words the amount of respect and appreciation i have for all of you on the DMT nexus. Thanks everyone. Love yourselves always. God bless.
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My friends call me Mitz
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Hi Mitz,
I'm sorry to hear of all the loss you've experienced. But I'm also very happy to read what you wrote, of you finding healing in the spirit molecule. It is truly a fascinating tool for self-exploration and alternate ways of healing. I'm sure your friends are looking upon you kindly from the beyond and are proud of all the work you've done to rip yourself away from the jaws of addiction.
Welcome to the Nexus.
I'm sorry to hear of all the loss you've experienced. But I'm also very happy to read what you wrote, of you finding healing in the spirit molecule. It is truly a fascinating tool for self-exploration and alternate ways of healing. I'm sure your friends are looking upon you kindly from the beyond and are proud of all the work you've done to rip yourself away from the jaws of addiction.
Welcome to the Nexus.
MadMitz,
Welcome brother. I so resonated with your post.
For some reason my life has been filled with grief and trauma for about the past 39 of my 57 years. Nowadays I am down to ONE single family member/friend left and I hope he does not drop dead any time soon. I too turned to opiates, though at a time before Fentanyl ruined everything. I too detoxed (that was a fun and messy 3 days locked in my room, NOT) and I detoxed because I was moving towards my first DMT extraction and wanted to do and experience everything the right way.
I too have felt much healing from DMT use, in particular my concerns over death of others and myself.
But, sadly, I feel I must inform you that at least for me, DMT is not a panacea. DMT is a tool. A tool that makes the HARD WORK that MUST be done for long term resolution of grief and trauma more approachable.
This does not mean you must seek a therapist or take prescription drugs. But it does mean I would encourage you to face your demons (the grief and trauma at the root of your addictions) and try to work through them. Be willing to cry and rage.
And be easy with yourself if your symptoms re-appear suddenly (needless to say, at the least convenient moment). Seldom are trauma and grief solved in a one-off session.
I am not minimizing how much you FEEL BETTER. That is the real deal. Just beware that there is a lot of time ahead and the REAL WORLD will work HARD to ensure you do not fully get over it. This is why personal work is important.
I am so glad you are here and shared your good news. Maybe you will be the ONE who transcends what I discussed. It is certainly possible.
Welcome brother. I so resonated with your post.
For some reason my life has been filled with grief and trauma for about the past 39 of my 57 years. Nowadays I am down to ONE single family member/friend left and I hope he does not drop dead any time soon. I too turned to opiates, though at a time before Fentanyl ruined everything. I too detoxed (that was a fun and messy 3 days locked in my room, NOT) and I detoxed because I was moving towards my first DMT extraction and wanted to do and experience everything the right way.
I too have felt much healing from DMT use, in particular my concerns over death of others and myself.
But, sadly, I feel I must inform you that at least for me, DMT is not a panacea. DMT is a tool. A tool that makes the HARD WORK that MUST be done for long term resolution of grief and trauma more approachable.
This does not mean you must seek a therapist or take prescription drugs. But it does mean I would encourage you to face your demons (the grief and trauma at the root of your addictions) and try to work through them. Be willing to cry and rage.
And be easy with yourself if your symptoms re-appear suddenly (needless to say, at the least convenient moment). Seldom are trauma and grief solved in a one-off session.
I am not minimizing how much you FEEL BETTER. That is the real deal. Just beware that there is a lot of time ahead and the REAL WORLD will work HARD to ensure you do not fully get over it. This is why personal work is important.
I am so glad you are here and shared your good news. Maybe you will be the ONE who transcends what I discussed. It is certainly possible.
Ik exactly what you mean. I understand your concern. And i can assure you ive been through enough grandiose delusion and fall backs to know better then to jump the gun on this sortve thing. In life ive had to learn the hard way with everything. I used to get some clarity and hit the ground running only to fall again. Ive grown wise to myself and the tricks we play on ourselves that make us think everything is fixed. Ive been working on the source of my addiction for years and faced the trauma. This just really put the icing on the cake. All the emotional work was done but its like my brain was so used to that state of mind. I was in a cycle. Hopefully that made sense. And dont worry brother. I dont see your reply as minimization. I see it as care and wisdom from someone whose been through the same thing and knows the slippery slopes of life. And I appreciate that my friend.
Reading this reply put some peace in my heart. I am sincerely happy for you and very grateful you are here.
It is not a big deal, but as the only active woman here currently, please think of me as an older and loving sister,.
It is not a big deal, but as the only active woman here currently, please think of me as an older and loving sister,
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