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My return to Hyperspace.

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Phlux-

Phlux-

The Root
OG Pioneer
Its been a while since i spoke with the spice, but last night i felt the need to return.
I was nervous, cautious and a tad scared after my last experience "The most intense experience of my life"
After thinking about it everyday since then and reading this post by Antrocles

antrocles said:
INTENT AND SURRENDER AS IT PERTAINS TO WORKING WITH SPICE:

for me, i believe that the only thing that is different about here and hyperspace is the level of control we have in these two respective places. in this world, we have the ability to make focussed choices and consciously manifest outcomes. in hyperspace we surrender this ability to be given an even greater ability....the ability to be everything. that takes no intent.....merely a willingness to surrender what you currently "know".... which, by the way, ain't much!

when i "go to church" every day i recognize that as i am sitting in my "blast-off chair", i am in that moment straddling two very distinct worlds or realities. with my VG in my hand and my body as comfortable as possible (fed, eliminated, comfortably clothed, etc.), i begin to try to bring the highest vibration from THIS world into my entering of THAT world. i set my intent.....to be shown wisdom and onesness with compassion and kindness. to see my truest self , that i can bring back a part of that experience and have the most positive possible impact in this world. that the love and compassion i feel, i might pay forward into this world....
and then i light my pipe and take my sacrament. as i exhale my final hit i set my pipe down and speak my final intent in the form of a mantra.....LOVE...PEACE....ONE....SURRENDER....any of these...

and then i surrender. i have none of these conscious goals or constructs available to me when i have shaken off this ego-self. i am that which i had prayed for. i can only hope that on some vibrational level, all of the intent that i had focussed prior to my leaving THIS world has in some way "set a course" for where i am now.....the land of no "i"....

it does serve some purpose- i tell myself- because when i return from communing with the oneness i am able to remember my intent and, as i have been blessed to discover, i am capable of remembering my journeys in great detail for days, weeks, even months after having them. honoring my word as my self, i do my very best to integrate my experiences into my life and positively share with others a clearer, more "connected" me.

intent and surrender. they are seemingly contradictory terms....yet, so are silence and sound. when put together- those two create music...

LOVE AND GRATITUDE!!
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This time i knew it would be different - odd how one just knows when the time is right.
I followed that advice meditated for a while as aegle rang the tingshaws and went in with the mantra - "i am a framework of compassion"(basically part of the environment - emitting positivity and compassion.
Drank about a liter of water - it does make a massive difference.
9mg junglalized spice was smoked - as soon as it came on i knew things were going to go well.
I was amazed at how slowly this new batch came on compared to clean spice - way longer.
At first i was presented with amazing imagery in full color of 3d objects which i was able to manipulate with ease (for a reason) accompanied by dialogue with the spice itself.
I was able to sit down with it and work out all my issues/fears with using it.
2 Rainbow snakes moved across my feild of vision to welcome a new scene - they dragged it across like a screen - this time more complex and alive - the elves in fluid state became visible, they explained their form as it was different - i made peace with them.
During this period i was hit with intense euphoria - the kind only deep understanding can cause.
I realized my body buzz and carrier tone were combined to their new form - euphoria/excitement.
I felt like a kid on xmas morning.
I came out feeling great - on the way out i saw pillars - made my the insects - of random things, some of random ascii characters in various colors, some of words, some of thoughs, some of objects, etc.

Immediately afterwards i felt i needed to go back(iv never smoked more than once in a day)
so i did - 15mg this time, consumed it with the same mantra as before but in conjunction with om-mani-padme-hom.
I was then a ball of compassion - excitement and ecstasy - i was emitting it like a sun - rotating and moving around the sky - the creatures were looking at me and they were as happy to see me as superstisious primitives must have been to see the summer sun for the first time each year.
I was emitting such good energy and that was my purpose at that stage - i couldnt care less where i was - all i could care about was emitting this lovely feeling.

So many things happened during this journey and my outlook on life and spice has changed drastically.
I no longer fear the spice but rather i am more excited then ever to go back - like i'm holding myself back, i feel like a kid.
I feel like a 4 ton backpack has been lifted off me, i feel light, free and awake.

I could never have had this experience without Aegl3's constant love, support and understanding. Having her hands on me for launch changed things a lot.

I'm not new to this kinda thing, just been focusing on this reality for a while - its changed a lot now that this is all cleared up and the break from serious work in hyperspace has been taken(6 months - self decided - extracting rather than smoking) :) :) :)

Damn its good to be back.
 
oh 1 other thing i forgot to mention - not sure if it made a diff - probably did - but i was munching a slab of dark chocolate prior to launch. (swims out of cacao beans so dark chocolate is second choice)(must eat theobromine daily)
 
A beautiful and inspiring report, Phlux! Amazing you achieved that depth of feeling with doses that most people would find ineffective. What about "breakthough?" Would you describe your experience like that? Do you think you need to go to higher dosing for that experience? Are you willing?

These are key issues for me, as you might imagine. I'm very interested in the "less than maximal dose" side of things at the moment, but the "breakthrough" experience (and beyond) is definitely the target...

I also will give a lot of thought to the things that antrocles has written (AND numerous others here!).

Thanks again for sharing this moving experience!

PS: GREAT that you decided to follow your instincts/intuition/current experience that told you to dive right back in!
 
well the dose was low - not total breakthru but i dont require total breakthru for entity comms - the next aventure will be breakthru for sure -
also the dose was low because i had been away for such a long time and wanted to get back in slowly.
another reason for the low dosage is : jungleized spice was used - using jorkests tek - and its way more potent than normal spice - way more guided too.

next time will be breakthru and im so excited about it i could just run thru to my launchpad right now and launch - id rather let the excitement build tho - at least for another 16 hours :)
 
Great! I'm a little "behind the curve" on the mystery of "jungle spice."

My radar is pretty well focused on maximum DMT purity, for trying to nebulize...so jungle spice doesn't interest me right now regarding my own plans...

I'm REALLY eager to read future reports of deeper still experiences. What you ALREADY describe seems like the experience of a lifetime!
 
well im 100% ready to take this on fully - my perspective has changed alot.

The jungle alters the spice alot - duration is longer, onset is slower, theres more of a guided feeling and its always pleasant.
my experience with jungle extracted with xylene is 100% different. i will never use xylene again.
 
BLESSINGS MY BROTHER!!!! i am so happy for you!! i am honored that my words helped in any way....you are kind to say so :)

i too LOVE the jungle spice....but all i have (very little) was extracted with xylene which i absolutely LOATHE. i will be doing a d-limonene tek today and am extremely excited to be working with this lovely all-natural, euphoria-inducing solvent! who doesn't love a lemon i ask?! :D

phlux, you and your lady are all class. i am absolutely inspired by your commitment to one another's exploration of self. i would say that i'm green with envy, but the truth is that we are all one and i am experiencing that love through your sharing of your experiences. i feel it in your words. your life is blessed my brother (and sister). i am so incredibly happy for you that you made it through your challenging hurdle with the spice. there will always be those times....they may be fewer and farther between....but when you're working with something THIS powerful and looking at YOU in such a "complete" way you're bound to hit the occasional rough patch.

....courage is defined as "acknowledging your fear of something and then taking action anyway".

PHLUX- your courage is inspiring. it has touched me and it will no doubt touch many here who are going through something similar. just as my post touched you. just as many posts have touched me. just as.....

you starting to get it my family? this forum is RIGHTEOUS. we are TRULY helping each other in the most profound ways DAILY! our lives are NOT just our own....we are all part of a whole here.

and for that i have infinite...

LOVE AND GRATITUDE!!
 
Yeah pluxy, glad you took the plunge again.
About the foods thing... I can't rememebr the reference now, but I read that bananas and fish are considered as prized foods by south american shamans for exactly the reason that it tops up the correct nerochemicals.
 
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Outstanding report. I am currently on sabbatical. Two months. Mostly Because I feel I was disprespecting the spice. Not using it to its/my fullest potential. Squandering time.

This report has been a positive thing for me personally. We are on this carousel together and like Antrocles says, we touch one another, help one another, ARE ONE ANOTHER! We can ALL get the brass ring if we stay on this dizzying path.

Phlux and Aegl3, My wonderful GF and I are also supportive of one anothers journeys and offer our total selves to the other during use. I couldn't imagine it any other way. Good for you both!

Thanks,

May the Spice be with you, always...



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i cannot explain how different i feel - i truly feel free, calm, happy, relaxed and comfortable.
before this i was concerned - i was always thinking about my previous experience and what i can do to change the situation.
i feel like a new person
 
Phlux- said:
i cannot explain how different i feel - i truly feel free, calm, happy, relaxed and comfortable.
before this i was concerned - i was always thinking about my previous experience and what i can do to change the situation.
i feel like a new person
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Good News! Maybe you'll become an 'everyday guy' like antrocles :d
 
Outstanding report flux! I'm glad you found the right time to revisit your vulnerabilities, and that you took away such positive gains from this experience.

I'm incredibly happy for you and thoroughly enjoyed your report man!

Peace
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okay so i decided to return - at first there was nervousness so 15mg was smoked. was perfect and pleasant and all my fears went away - there was a tunnel in front of me but i couldnt take it - my perspective kept being shifted - knew it was dose dependant.
decided to try again 20mg this time in the bath - same spice - simmilar experience
decided to try 25mg of a different batch of spice and omg it was different
100% a different experience
first 2 experiences were from jorkests tek
time 3 was more purified and xtalized slowly out of acetone.

the first 2 were more dreamy
the third time it was intense - total chrysanthemum patterns on everything at first and afterwards - long long duration - maybe 25 minutes intense visuals followed by elves just out of my field of vision in my reality.
a feeling of being locked in a tiny space with some female entity - futuristic looking with a nose bridge that extended to become hair that was ever changing and was made of the the fabric of time.
i would have been scared - it was simmilar to the experience that freaked me out in the beginning but this time i was 100% able to deal with it.
I just said - ok well been here b4 - know the drill - it will be over soon - try learn everything i can about this environment while im here.
last time i opened my eyes too soon and my reality was transformed into one i didnt like - i didnt want to see the room like that so i kept my eyes closed for a long time - perhaps 15 minutes - on opening them when most of it was over i was amazed at the intensity of the oev's and their longevity.(perhaps persisting for another 10 minutes and beautiful in color)
i handled the situation fine and it is no deterrant - still just as excited now - that spice will be kept very separate.

not a very kewl feeling but now my mindset was different
 
Excellent report, Phlux. Your experiences are a GREAT HELP for my buildup. You've made it very clear that the key element is "getting your mind right."

Also very informative seeing the direct comparison between jungle spice and pure spice.
 
the difference is massive and i feel the spice from jorkests tek is the best spice one could have.
By far.
 
I have to wonder though: how much of the difference that you note could be STRICTLY attributed to dosing?

If your third try was made with "standard" purified spice, then it IS a fact that, with the method you used for your jungle spice, you can end up with nearly TWICE as much spice than you would if you did recrystallizations, etc., to get pure spice.

So, IOW, maybe a 25mg jungle spice dose is sort of equivalent to a 12mg dose of highly purified spice. Meaning that your 25mg dose of pure spice that you did last was really almost like 50mg of jungle spice!

There is DEFINITELY at least SOME dosing disparity there, no?
 
Right On Phlux!!!

Learning to being able to just completely let go & allowing that to be your only point of control (if you need one), really takes that figurative "door" & throws it wide open...huh?

Nice!

WS
 
that could very well be my new favorite saying W&B!! I LOVE IT!!!

fwiw- until my NaOH arrives i've found myself spending time just sniffing this d-limonene!! i know that doesn't technically qualify as "huffing" but i have to say i get the most incredibly euphoric buzz from it! i absolutely LOVE the stuff!
 
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