syzygy
Rising Star
Hello all,
I have been a follower of this website for a couple years now and a member for a little over a year. This community is an invaluable resource to me and I have tried to give as much as I can to it as I also draw upon it for guidance.
After several years of extracting and smoking and sharing my own DMT I was lead to start using Ayahuasca with DMT. (When I say ayahuasca I am talking about b. Caapi only not a mixture of b. Caapi and a dmt containing plant). For about six months I grew to know the spirit of ayahuasca or at least the parts she would reveal to me. She began a process of healing in my body that I still do not fully understand.
Since I was thirteen I've had lower back pain, I would get headaches almost every day, I had a perpetual bladder problem which made me feel like I always had to urinate even if my bladder was empty. There are many other things too in my body which I wasn't even aware we're in pain because my brain had been tuning it out. All of these things have been healed.
Towards the end of that six month period ayahuasca told me that while smoking dmt was good before, now I am using it as a crutch because she has healed my body to the point where I can produce my own dmt and I was instructed to no longer smoke dmt and to practice what she has shown me to journey without the use of spice.
At first I was dismayed and I'll admit I acted childishly towards this because I did not listen to her and continued to try to visit ayahuasca through drinking the tea and smoking spice. When I finally realized it was now impossible for me to communicate with ayahuasca with external dmt I got a little angry and decided to use dmt without drinking the tea that way ayahuasca couldn't block me. That's what I thought anyways.
Apparently some part of ayahuasca is always a part of me now because even smoking dmt by itself full breakthrough doses (yes I know how to vaporize correctly and previously could break through with ease). But when I smoke dmt I get the bodily effects and the tryptamine Rush, my ears start ringing, I get all the feelings I used to. But upon closing my eyes I find myself locked in a room with only one window. Through that window I can see hyperspace from afar in all its glory. But I cannot go out of the room to once again be inside hyperspace. When I ask why ayahuasca manifests herself in front of me and does not answer with any voice but simply looks at me and shakes her head.
The reason she won't answer me is because she has already told me everything I need to know, and she does not repeat herself at least she never has to me. I know all of this and so I took a break and tried to use some of the practices she showed me to make my brain produce dmt. The main way is by swinging my head in a weird way that if I do not keep my neck muscles stretched and relaxed through yoga I can actually hurt my neck pretty bad and have in the past. The swinging reminds me of Native American dances in which their body is spasming because when you swing your head long enough eventually your whole body starts doing it. Ayahuasca had given me visions of these dances and explained to me that was the purpose of those dances was to stimulate your pineal gland and produce internal dmt.
Yet even doing this I have never been able to journey to the extent that I was able to by smoking. The path that has lead me to dmt and to want to learn all I can from ayahuasca is to me the most important thing. I never feel more fulfilled than when I am progressing along this path that has been laid out before me.
I wanted to ask in case there are people here who have had similar revelations and perhaps have been more successful than I in accomplishing this goal. I seek advice or material to read that may help me to understand better how to produce my own dmt to the level that I can trip without smoking dmt at all. I know it is possible, I know that I have the tools and knowledge to do this. And yet I still cannot so if anyone could help guide me I will gladly hear your opinions, thoughts, etc.
Thank you all fellow travelers
I have been a follower of this website for a couple years now and a member for a little over a year. This community is an invaluable resource to me and I have tried to give as much as I can to it as I also draw upon it for guidance.
After several years of extracting and smoking and sharing my own DMT I was lead to start using Ayahuasca with DMT. (When I say ayahuasca I am talking about b. Caapi only not a mixture of b. Caapi and a dmt containing plant). For about six months I grew to know the spirit of ayahuasca or at least the parts she would reveal to me. She began a process of healing in my body that I still do not fully understand.
Since I was thirteen I've had lower back pain, I would get headaches almost every day, I had a perpetual bladder problem which made me feel like I always had to urinate even if my bladder was empty. There are many other things too in my body which I wasn't even aware we're in pain because my brain had been tuning it out. All of these things have been healed.
Towards the end of that six month period ayahuasca told me that while smoking dmt was good before, now I am using it as a crutch because she has healed my body to the point where I can produce my own dmt and I was instructed to no longer smoke dmt and to practice what she has shown me to journey without the use of spice.
At first I was dismayed and I'll admit I acted childishly towards this because I did not listen to her and continued to try to visit ayahuasca through drinking the tea and smoking spice. When I finally realized it was now impossible for me to communicate with ayahuasca with external dmt I got a little angry and decided to use dmt without drinking the tea that way ayahuasca couldn't block me. That's what I thought anyways.
Apparently some part of ayahuasca is always a part of me now because even smoking dmt by itself full breakthrough doses (yes I know how to vaporize correctly and previously could break through with ease). But when I smoke dmt I get the bodily effects and the tryptamine Rush, my ears start ringing, I get all the feelings I used to. But upon closing my eyes I find myself locked in a room with only one window. Through that window I can see hyperspace from afar in all its glory. But I cannot go out of the room to once again be inside hyperspace. When I ask why ayahuasca manifests herself in front of me and does not answer with any voice but simply looks at me and shakes her head.
The reason she won't answer me is because she has already told me everything I need to know, and she does not repeat herself at least she never has to me. I know all of this and so I took a break and tried to use some of the practices she showed me to make my brain produce dmt. The main way is by swinging my head in a weird way that if I do not keep my neck muscles stretched and relaxed through yoga I can actually hurt my neck pretty bad and have in the past. The swinging reminds me of Native American dances in which their body is spasming because when you swing your head long enough eventually your whole body starts doing it. Ayahuasca had given me visions of these dances and explained to me that was the purpose of those dances was to stimulate your pineal gland and produce internal dmt.
Yet even doing this I have never been able to journey to the extent that I was able to by smoking. The path that has lead me to dmt and to want to learn all I can from ayahuasca is to me the most important thing. I never feel more fulfilled than when I am progressing along this path that has been laid out before me.
I wanted to ask in case there are people here who have had similar revelations and perhaps have been more successful than I in accomplishing this goal. I seek advice or material to read that may help me to understand better how to produce my own dmt to the level that I can trip without smoking dmt at all. I know it is possible, I know that I have the tools and knowledge to do this. And yet I still cannot so if anyone could help guide me I will gladly hear your opinions, thoughts, etc.
Thank you all fellow travelers